To Be Loved Or To Love?

Oh Lord Save Me!

2007-12-21T10:25:00.000-08:00

Argh! $$$ =(
being stressed out about money~.. its like my dad doesn't want to give me any money!
he feels that i've been spending too much time on church~..
and yea.. of course.. feels like im spending like money grows from trees..
now~ im worrying over christmas cards! oh man~
Lord give me to the ability to cope and complete the christmas cards!
the worst part is that i haven't buy the cards -.-.. screwed..
ok~ busy week.. dont let it be an excuse.. help me!
if only some money will just land from the sky and drop onto my hands =)
all my troubles will fade away!~

Joshua

Bits And Pieces

2007-12-05T10:57:00.000-08:00

Clc2 Class today taught me LOTS! and also made me realise that our group havent been doing a proper cg.. we got to plan things right and make it flow right..
not only did i make new friends, i also realise the importance of each role.. HOW?
through the lesson.. call it a lesson if u want.. but its kinda like a practical thingy..
Every Role leads up to one another.. and yes.. we got to be smooth sailing..
which route will u take when u sail? a route with huge bumpy waves? or a route which has a smooth flow..
oh ya.. recently heard that my grand-sheep is having some kind of surgury? and yea.. dont really know the details.. but only small bits of it.. regardless what.. i think we got to care for one another in our group.. so.. why dont we pray for our dear clement? not only that, we got to make sure that there must be at least one VISITOR every 2 week?
Heh..~ alright Cg tomorrow Lets PREPARE! and make sure we do our role WELL!
HAiz... My PSP LCD SCREEN CRACKED! HOW? u ask?? (ok i know u dont wannna know but still i wanna type =p)
MY PSP FOR NO REASON DROP ONTO MY CHAIR THEN SLOWLY SLIDE DOWN AND SOFTLY HIT THE FLOOR! and still the screen crack like siao... diaoz...
Ok.. hopefully my dad doesnt make a big deal out of it and yea let me fix it =X..
Haiz~ making floorball sticks tomorrow too~ OMG! so many things! so little time..
Alright better go slp le.. tmr got tuition in the morning!

(STOP RAINING)

joshua
(Eggyok)

Changed

2007-12-04T09:30:00.000-08:00

Im not sure what happened.. but ever since after clc2.. i seem like a changed person.. well to u guys im not sure whether u see any change in me.. but personally. i feel as though the layer of coldness shed off..
Is it a temporary thing? i hope not~.. i seem as though a happier and chirper person.. helping out in everything i can... for no reason.. i even bought mc nuggets for my tuition friends ytd o.o...
come to think of it.. this was smth i prayed for o.o... is it God's promises coming true?? Is this a signal to me that he is true and forever with me?
Like the Song (All Your Promises Won't Let Go Of Me!)
i feel encouraged and strengthened.. oh man.. i feel like sharing this joy to someone.. but who??
My mum asked me smth a few days back.. and i was kinda shocked.. she asked me to bring her friend's daughter to church O.o~... here's the problem.. she is in a weird which i dont even know existed.. i dont know who is she... dont know which group does that school belong to... etc etc.. i dont even know the spelling of her school!
Well.. try to bring her ba!
And Oh yes~ gotta honour my word and find a ministry.. however.. i dont know what ministry to take =/... i love to sing.. but CAN i sing? i love meet new faces and be an usher.. but can i?? Hmm... i still LOVE singing =/..
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO JOIN!~

Joshua
Over And Out

I came, I saw, I conquered!

2007-11-27T06:47:00.000-08:00

Oh yes! what an achievement~ i made it up mount Kinabalu.
That was a HECK OF AN EXPERIENCE!
Altitude Mountain Sickness (AMS) SUCKs~
i didnt feel anything while climbing up.. but when i was on my way down.. OmG!
Massive Headache!..
still.. not everyone have such an oppurtunity.. right? hahaha..
well.. throughout the whole Obs(sabah) camp, i found the culture exchange activity the most intresting one.. heehee.. the kids there were SO adorable.. if only they were my neighbours.. haha.. was having sooo much fun with them..
everything was simple.. at first i thought the kampong will be like shyt! but guess i was wrong!.. Yippee!..
Found out they had cable! TV! and yea.. another thought came into my head.. got how many channel ar? all malay ar? AND I WAS SHOCKED WHEN I HEARD THEY HAD MTV! WOAH!
okok.. haha.. hmm.. before the kampong stayover.. was the land exhibition.. which was to stay in the jungle.. and that totally sucked.. TOTALLY!
the only intresting about that exhibition was a lich which apparently was having ALOT of fun sucking my blood.. ( what a sucker )

aiya.. type more the next time i blog ba.. kinda late.. and kinda tired XD.. Cya!

-Joshua-

Im Leaving On an aeroplane & bus

2007-11-14T07:11:00.000-08:00

wow.. mixed feeling of excitement and pain gushed through me today!
why?? cause im leaving to OBS sabah for 10 days.. and i wont get to see my lovable sheeps and my shepherd.. wont get to see my friends.. wont get to play floorball.. sian.. leave my comfort zone and face the wild.. ar...
Nvm! i get to know more of my schoolmates =).. AWAY FROM TECHNOLOGY!
played floorball today.. and yes! it was fun..~ i felt great.. cause i havent been having soooo much fun (for floorball) since.. since.. the start of the year?
sad to say.. that neither my sheeps nor my shepherd will be slping over my place tonight.. but what the heck? at least i have a laptop to accompany me?
i should be greatful already.. HAHA!
So! If u happen to think of me and wonder where i am.. from 15th to 25th of november.. Im at Sabah~ if u want to see me! look at the moon cause i know i'll be looking at it ;D.
If i could.. i would like to hold u one more time.. i would lay my fingers on ur buttons.. so that i can access the internet XD! MY COMPUTER! WHY MUST U SPOIL!
oooh.. what the heck.. shit the computer.. and high five to the laptop!

seeing u today made my day =)
-Joshua-
MIA 15th ~ 25th of november!

I Feel Like Im Losing It All

2007-11-09T10:40:00.000-08:00

Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losin' it all
Where do I go from here?
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
Nothing is clear
Where do I go from here?

Alone

2007-11-03T11:43:00.000-07:00

Yipee.. the holidays are coming! while (almost) everyone is having fun.. im still in school.. STUDYING~ wow.. exciting!
Zzz.. now my parents are in china.. and im stuck with my sister for a week..
haiz.. good news is that today she is in malaysia! thus im home alone!
hahaha.. bad news is that im bored..and no one is free to accompany me.. haiz..
luckly i found a laptop and realise that it have a wireless interent connection!
so now im slacking in my parents room with everything.. including internet! how fun.

my past 2 weeks have been great.. i've stopped using vulgarities often.. and ya.. by saying those words, i will hesitate awhile.. and fill in other words.. haha..
i thought that being alone at home will make me feel great.. but i guess thats not the case.. it feels like im the only one on the earth and there is no one who is able to help me if im in any trouble.. luckily my aunts are always calling me, asking on how im doing.. ( even though i might feel that it is very disturbing at times)..

have been hearing many odd things.. about ppl attempting suicide and of course.. some dies.. however, some suffers on physically and mentally.. i guess its due to pressure on their exam results.. some were retained.. some were expelled.. yes.. this is a weird topic to blog about.. but i guess its this kind of ppl who needs out help? God send us to Earth not to enjoy and slack.. we have a mission and its to bring people into the kingdom of God.. in order to bring people into the kingdom of God, we got to be with those people and be concerned with their life.. this means that we got to be there for our friends.. support them in any kind of way.. if we are able to do that, i dont think anyone will commit suicide cause they knows that someone is there with them throughout whenever they are facing any trouble.. the end might be ahead.. but with every corner there is hope.. every problem have its solution.. life is still important.. to all, suicide is not the only solution to everything.. u will only cause more misery if u commit suicide.. unless u want everyone to suffer with u.. i have nothing to say..

-Joshua-
Every Step of The Way ( he'll be there for us)

A Shooting Star

2007-10-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

Just got back from ACE camp. Fun? yes. Tiring? Yes!
How does climbing 510m everyday TWICE and sometimes an extra 4Km sound to you?
I didnt know that being an ACE leader, i had to suffer so much.
Man. At times i wish that i was the participants and not the leaders.
HOWEVER! lucky for us leaders, we got the chance to BUY food! while participants got to stare at us as we feasted on snacks, fries etc..
Throughout the whole camp, the most amazing thing i saw was a shooting star.
It reminded me of my past and yes of course like what everyone would do. I made a wish. Well. i Guess it came through?
Did many self reflection to myself and observed the people around me and realise that we tend to change into maniacs after stressful times.
As soon as we touched Singapore. I turned GAY! haha. Happy.
However i felt rather irritated. Not knowing why, i went back home and rested. (Not!)
i played games! and realise how much i have deproved. Oh Great!~
Now. All i can think of was the beautiful Night Sky at Malaysia (Kluang) and the Stars which were all over the Sky.

If Only Time Could Have Freezed There and Then
JosHua~

guilt

2007-10-07T07:46:00.000-07:00

a sense of guilt gushed into me. i asked myself.. what's this guilt that im having?
i sat and thought and i realise something.. i was neglecting my sheeps.. and that i was neglecting the growth of my group.. i feel ashamed.. that i wasnt able to contribute at all.. not even one..
thinking back on how our group have grown.. i think.. we were still the same a few months before.. did we grow more christ-like? i cant even say YES.. not even maybe.. we have been the same since day one.. whats the use of us being wild and crazy during fellowship.. during worship.. during games.. but still not do anything..
im not even sure that i even have a close bond with my sheeps..
i feel that i havent been putting in my full effort at all.. sometimes.. i feel as though i cant teach my sheeps well..
joshua still doesnt learn from every teachings.. qk still havent grown in maturity..
im not saying that they are bad or anything.. but like what ppl say.. what you reap is what u sow.. have i been taking everything lightly?
since camp.. till now.. we havent even grown.. i feel like a failure and not worthy as a shepherd.. being unable to teach my sheeps well.. they even tell things to other people which they dont tell me.. and how i find things out? through other people.. THIS SHAME OF GETTING INFORMATION THROUGH OTHERS IS FRUSTRATING! this basically shows how CLOSE I AM with my sheeps.. dont think i should even be a shepherd..

-Joshua-

mysterious girl

2007-09-26T08:03:00.000-07:00

i've been dreaming.. dreaming about this mysterious girl..
who is she? when i first dreamt of her.. i thought i was just thinking too much..
but hey.. thinking too hard while slping?? sounds weird.. shouldn't my mind be RESTING while i slpt?
all i remember was that i was sitting with this girl among with friends on a bridge having a meal.. and behind her was a beautiful lake.. but as soon as i was able to see her face.. i woke up..
when i reached school and complete my english paper 1, i almost fell aslp.. and during that point of falling aslp, her image appeared again.. i was shocked and woke up.. who was she?
i left her image at a side and continued playing with my pens -.-..
after recess, i took my english paper 2 and realise that i still had 30 mins plus more to spare.. so i went to slp.. once again, i dreamt of this mysterious girl..
it was no coincidence as i had dreamt of her 4 TIMES after waking up 4 times due to the teachers' conversation..( as i sit at the front).. the last 2 dreams were unclear however the 2nd dream was me and a group walking along the streets and this girl was just next to me.. when i could even talk to her.. i woke up..
i wonder who is this girl.. and what is this dream telling me?
all i could remember is the shadow of this girl's back..

(hopefully i will know once and for all who you really are.. tonight)

Joshua
-MiA- from Audi

2007-09-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

Do u believe that there is a path of no return?
To me, it is only true when one does not see Christ as their Lord..
(Matthew 13:1-9)
*The same day Jesus went out of the house and sat by the lake. Such large crowds gathereed around him that he got into a boat and sat in it, while all the people stood on the shore. Then he told them many things in parables, saying:"A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path and the birds came and ate it up. Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and chocked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop - a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. He who has ears, let him hear."*
To me, it all goes down on whether or not we will accept Christ as our Lord and Saviour.
Allowing Christ to take us step by step in life and not to fall into the pit of despair?..
I believe that we are somewhat similar to the seeds. we go into the wrong path and caused ourselves misery. some of us choose to affect those around us as we grow. however, i believe that unlike the seeds, we will be able to choose the right path. that is when we as the people of christ walk forth and out of our comfort zone by touching hearts and saving lifes!

Moreover, at times of crisis, will you look towards Christ for strength?
Did u think that the Lord have abandoned you, leaving you in a mess?
(Joshua 1:5)
*No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life; I will never leave you nor forsake you*
if we as christians are unable to go through life without having faith in Christ, how are we able to walk out and safe others? as the old chinese saying, before saving others, you got to safe yourself!. if not, how are we able to call ourselves christians? without this FAITH, we wont be able to work on the commandment!

basically, i guess it all depends on ourselves. to either walk down this "path of no return" (walking into the wrong path)or lighten up our path by enjoying the grace of the Lord. and to the christians, we have to take up the courage and trust the Lord. With this faith, we will be unstoppable as we will truely call ourselves the children of Christ =).

Joshua-

Step up

2007-09-15T13:12:00.000-07:00

Maybe its time for our group to grow even more!..
let us not look at the limitations.. but instead look towards God for our strength and energy.. with him, everything is possible..
yes. after service, i felt renewed in a way.. it felt as though i was in hope for the first time..
i cant use any word to express how i feel! why? cause God is soooo GREAT! that no words can describe him..
queensway and bukit merah must make a difference in hope! and with this i hope that it will happen..! trust in the lord by giving in ur 100% and he will do the rest!
YES! i admit that i havent been doing much for the group but only to ask qk and joshua to invite more people.. while i just sit back and relax!..
what we say mustn't be a statement itself, it must be turned into an action so that all can see the greatness and glory of the LORD! AMEN!

today's question: to be formal? or not to be?
that is the question =D
-TWINS-hardy
Joshua

All right..

2007-08-28T05:50:00.001-07:00

5th in class.. is that a good thing? hmm.. all right i guess..
but comparing my results to others.. i don't think so..
looking at others doing well motivates me one way or another..
hopefully, this will allow me to study harder for final year..
for now.. i want to just thank God for everything he have done for me..
pulling me out of my emotional state when i needed help..
he gave me the knowledge and perserverance to move on.. to go through my Ca3..
so THANK YOU! GOD! heehee =)!

-MiA-
-BlAcKoRdEr-
[Joshua.L] a.k.a Jiao
Till The End ~

Over and over again..

2007-08-16T07:35:00.000-07:00

a year ago, i felt extremely happy.. and now.. i feel extremely SICK!
oh man.. i cant even speak out a sentence properly without being interupted by a cough..
got back home early and went to rest.. ohhh yes.. ca3 is over.. but a darker storm approaches.. FYE..
ok lets forget about exams for now.. ^^.. 3 more days babe.. 3 more days..
oh yes.. i almost forgotten.. today's my grnadma's birthday!
when my mum asked me to talk to her.. i told her i couldnt.. didnt want to cough on the phone.. hahas..
during the ca3 period, i've been studying like shyt.. and now. i dont feel comfortable slping early =(.. i found out that i have Real Friends in the class.. i really appriciate their companionship.. even though i only know them for like hmm 6months? i feel as though i've known them for a year.. yup.. this friends of mine arent the "gang" in my class.. but instead those who have been "quiet" in class..
however, there are some exeptions as well.. for example, my half-brother. elvin..
and of course! brothers like keith jang and jem!.. even though i haven been spending time with them.. =(..
ok.. i feel as though this entire post is dedicated to my friends.. and well.. i guess it is.. so i want to take this chance to thank all of them =D!

Friends who u can trust
[Joshua] a.k.a Jiao
-BlAcK0RdEr-

Common Test 3

2007-08-10T12:09:00.000-07:00

OH great.. the time has come! and yes we are all mugging...
slping over at keith's house today.. was studying.. and now playing ^^..
keith is like slping next to me hahas.. *snores*
hee.. hee.. looking at he date today, it brought me back into the past.. but hey.. whats the use looking back? besides learning from ur past mistakes?
hmm.. well.. i hope that i can continue to study! tomorrow morning! i must complete my greog by the time finshes.. and ya.. maybe i can even do e maths.. which i havent practice... shyt.. well.. maybe cause i feel that the emaths and amaths are the same.. except for 1 or 2...haiz.. why keith computer have to hang.. now cant play audition.. keith hope that u will read this! ARGH! no audition!
hahas.. hmm feel like playing soccer also.. hahas..
the central boys had a soccer/floorball event this morning.. and i got to admit that i "woke up from the wrong side of the bed" as i was very grumpy.. not only that... ill.. oh man.. i will never take another motorcycle ride again.. its FREAKING cold..
not to forget.. scary..! i can still feel the "after effects" a cold =/..
oh man.. i think im gonna fall ill.. pls dont let that happen.. if not dont have to take the ca le.. argh!..
actually, i feel kinda fat now.. cause i just ate like macdonalds? eew.. cant fall aslp! must resist temptation..!
hahas.. alright then.. hope to see ya'll in church tomorrow.. especially you..

Note to Keith: do u know u snore very loudly?
SOL ( snore out loud )
(Joshua) a.k.a Jiao
-BlAcKoRdEr-

Im Feeling Lethargic

2007-08-06T06:28:00.000-07:00

Every Inch of my body is telling me to Sleep.. espeacially my eyes..
My eyes closes whenever the teacher stops talking.. soon later, my mind will drift away.. then "BAM!" "wake up Jiao Hui". my sleepy eyes gazed around the classroom and realised that i was still in class.. zzz..
"ring.." oh yes.. recess.. hmm.. im fasting.. so how? a cup of milo? suddenly i could see kendrick looking all depressed the shit.. and was like why so glum? because he didnt have any money for recess.. so since i was fasting.. it didnt bother me that i lend him some money.. i felt "great" after that and went off to watch Jem playing soccer.. and soon "RING!!.." oh crap.. next period chinese..
there was 2 tests and man i was still feeling exhausted.. trying my best to read the passage, i felt extremely confused.. soon later, i realised why.. i skipped many lines and thus unable to understand the passage.. haiz..
"RING!!!!" YES! feeling much better, we went back to class and went for our national day rehearsal?? DEEP IN MY HEART I JUST KNOW.. RIGHT FROM THE START WE WILL GROW.. LOOK WHERE WE ARE .. WE COME SO FAR.. AND THERES STILL A LONG LONG WAY TO GO.. WITH ALL OF MY FORCE???
i looked back yes.. darren the starwars fan was trying to change the lyrics and involved things from starwars.. Force.. lightning.. darkside.. you get my point.. YES it was weird but entertaining.. after school, i slacked around the school compound and went home.. as soon as i reached home, i could no longer stay awake.. and just landed on my bed.. Zzz.. WHEN I WOKE UP, IT WAS ALREADY 8.50PM! OMG! Die..

Ok.. that was my day.. hows yours? :)..
with my common test just around the corner, how can i just lay back and do nothing!
MOREOVER! i have forgotten the concepts on moments! OH SHYT! and now i got to worry about the OBS forms i need to collect and that norman didnt get hsi edusave form and jun ren didnt get his permision slip to go.. AR! Oh GOD HELP ME! and please.. no white hair.. =)..

Feel The BEAT!
[Joshua] a.k.a Jiao
-BlAcKoRdEr-

ShAkE

2007-07-30T08:08:00.000-07:00

Oooh no.. Common Test is like 2 weeks from now! and i just realise that i've been concentrating on my A maths so much that im neglecting my other subjects!
This Cant DO! i need to get a bigger bag so that i can bring everything back home..
GoodBye To Zinc SlingBag!

School seems to be getting boring now adays.. i've just been transfered to another class for chinese.. which is kinda boring(gotta admit that)..
My whole class turned against my class chairman(well.. Ex-chairman to be precise) and now Kenneth Mak is the new chairman.. I think.. hahas.. well i hope that he will be a better chairman..

im feeling extremely bad as i havent study at all today.. after tuition today, i fell aslp immediately and woke up at 8.30.. and had to cut my hair as well -.-..
i guess my week ahead will be boring as well.. but i will just have to "pull up my socks" and work extra hard to archieve the results im aiming for..

Note: Im still Free For Study Dates! well.. some of the days.. =)!

Go With The Flow ~
[Joshua] a.k.a Jiao
-BlAcKoRdEr-

Worried!

2007-07-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

Ok.. I need people to ASK ME OUT... to study..
People are asking my out to PLAY! and i dont want that..
now that my training have stopped.. i gotta take the oppurtunity to study!
maybe my shepherding will be studying with my sheeps.. hmm..
Omg.. I feel dam stressed up! I cant even do my Proving identities!
I cant even believe i failed my english comprehension paper.. AND I THINK IM GONNA FAIL MY A-MATHS TEST AS WELL!.. crap..

While standing in the train going to my aunt's place, i almost cried out in public..
my eyes turned watery.. i felt as though i was going to breakdown or something..
if only life was so carefree.. the thought of me being kicked out of Sji was in my mind.. or even being retained..

My geog teacher told me something which hit me really hard.. as she was my former geog teacher in sec 1 and 2, she said this to me.. "Jiao Hui.. im extremely disappointed with your attitude in class.. the motivation i sawin you during sec 1 and 2 is gone.. im not sure what happened.. all i know something between sec 2 and 3 have caused it.." it felt as though someone have punched me in the face telling me to wake up.. even though the thought of me studying hard is there, i cant act it out.. everytime i stand up and move on.. i fall back..
i knew that the "motivation" wasn't there anymore.. TT

Gone with the Wind
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-BlAcKoRdEr-

Evangel Have FALLEN

2007-07-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

Yes.. I have officially fallen ill after a week or 2 of sneezing and coughing..
to make matters worst.. i bit on my lips and it bled ALOT!(i still bite THE SAME AREA occasionally
Zzz.. YES its very sian!~ taken Mc for the day..
this was what the doctor had to say.. "i think its stress.. any exams coming up?"
woah.. indeed doctors are wise people.. she even realise i was going to have my common test o.O..
Anw.. didnt find my time spent at home very productive.. i played in the morning.. slept in the afternoon.. shepherding in the late afternoon and dinner out(to celebrate my dad's birthday.. WHICH ISNT TODAY!~ ironic isnt it...)
However i learnt a japanese word! its CHINPOKO! go find the meaning muahaha...
ouch ouch.. ok my stomach hurts alot.. and yk didnt help at all when he constantly POKED my stomach even after i reminded him..
aiya.. what can i say.. Today was fun... hahas... but still i need to study! omg... final year coming.. and HELL i dont want to be retained!
Oh crap.. i can feel the pressure man.. omg.. i need to be a geek! but i cant HELP IT WHENEVER I SEE THE COMPUTER! maybe i should lock up my games... hmmm ok im going to do that like... NOW!..
i must be determined at all times! yes! do not let anything come my way!
WAHAHAHA! but first i got to rest and recover ASAP! if not during the exam period.. i GG man!.. heehees =D...

Song Of The Week: Dance Floor Anthem by Good Charlotte

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
Than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s tripping on the phone
Now he doesn’t want her out there and alone
Now he knows she’s moving it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s loosing it
She don’t care

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

He was always giving her attention
Working hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most sucka’s hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him

She calls him up she’s tripping on the phone
Now he had to get up and he ain’t coming home
Now he’s trying to forget her
That's how he got with her
When he first met her
When they first got together

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

To the beat
To the beat
To the beat

You got nothing to lose,
Don’t be afraid to get down

We break up it’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay
Let it go
Get out there and find someone

It’s too late to be tripping on the phone here
Get off the wire
Now everything is good here
Stop what you’re doing
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
Find a new one

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

No
No

Now you know what to do
So come on
Feeling good

SNEEZE the PAIN OUT
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-bLaCkOrDeR-

A Test From God

2007-07-19T08:23:00.000-07:00

There are bound to have many obsticles in our lifes as we move on in life..
this obsticles are like tests from God so that we will be gauge ourselves..
if life doesnt have any test, we will not know where we stand!
However besides this TESTS from God, there is something else that will pull us away from God.. that would be the Devil's temptations. at times, we will not focus our eyes on God and end up going off track..
The Devil wants to tempt us so that we will move away from God.. why? cause we are in the Devil's WANTED man list.. therefore, we must not be tempted and instead move ahead.
During THE TESTS, one may feel that God issint there anymore and starts to question the power of God. Why? its simple. Imagine a Baby learning how to walk. In order to learn how to walk, the father have to help Him/her by holding his/her hands. However, at a certain point, the father will let go of the child's hand.
ITS THE SAME CONCEPT! we are like the child learning how to walk and God is the father who helps us and lets go of us once in awhile.
Some may ask. God loves us alot.. so why does he want to "let go of our hands"?..
well.. its when WE FALL, WE LEARN! when whenever we FALL, God will lift out his hands to help us up.. thus we have to go through HIS TESTS and not be tempted by the Devil. Even at the LOWEST point of ur life, God will still be WITH U..

Omg! i really Got Sore Throat! AND ITS DAM IRRITATING!
MOREOVER THERE ARE LIKE SOOO MANY PIMPLES GROWING ON MY FACE T.T...
ARGH! I Owe my maths teach 4 ASSIGNMENTS! and i have to hand it in.. TOMORROW!..
its like 11.38pm now.. so.. I HAVE TO CHIONG IT! trigonometry.. plain irritating..
I HATE MEMORISING THE EQUATIONS!.. OK! Got to COMPLETE IT NOW!~ and have to prepare games as well for cg =S... so cya!

May the LORD Be with YOU
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-bLaCkOrDeR-

A Broken Relationship

2007-07-18T08:23:00.000-07:00

whenever one break out of a relationship, there will bound to be some feelings raging inside the person.. example: depression, self-blame, guilt, anger etc...
so.. whats the solution?
well its to allow this emotions fill u up.. its this process that will gradually help u heal ^^..
the more u try to NOT accept it, the process will be PROLONGED!
we shouldnt look into the past but instead look ahead into the future..
God have already set our destiny and since God wants the BEST for us, God will not harm us and instead help us.
when you are feeling down, look to him and he will give u comfort.
like what the bible says, ASK and u will be given, SEEK and you will find, KNOCK and the door will be opened for you!..
ALLOW God to be WITH you through out your life and dont reject him..

oh man my flu is getting bad to worst! block nose until very sian..
have to keep drinking water to prevent sore throat =S...
SJI won 4th position for the track and field 'C' division team this year! yay
the track team had dinner together at lot 1.. AND I MANAGE TO BUY [THE LORD OF THE RINGS] The Battle For Middle-Earth -Anthology-
HOWEVER commontest and final exam is just around the corner.. CAN SOMEONE MAKE SURE I STUDY @.@... i am dam worried for my tests!..

Ps: stay away from me.. my flu is going around the class zzz..

Seek Comfort From God And Walk A Path of Victory
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-bLaCkOrDeR-

a week of COMPETITION!

2007-07-12T08:28:00.000-07:00

oh CRAP! my 4x100m didnt get into the finals!
NEITHER DID MY 200m GET INTOTHE SEMI!
WTH!.. but wait.. i just realise i qualified for my 100m hurdles finals!
it will be held tomorrow.. and im kinda excited over it.. i guess..
just realise something even worst.. i missed alot of lessons.. soo.. man.. im sooo screwed!.. ANYWAY! this might be late but i want to say it.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JOSHUA CHEN!
yes.. last monday was his birthday.. yk qk and i had a REALLY mini celebration with him.. hahas.. and it was abit gross/fun.. HAHA..
alright then.. i gotta go off ^^ CYA!

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Jesus Your MY SUPERHERO!

2007-07-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

YES! i feel so happy now that i've scored 21.5/25 for my matrice test!~ weehee!
all right! my nationals starts tomorrow! and i can feel lots of buttrflies in my stomach.. im getting cold feet! ARGH! scary... BUT I MUST DO IT! YES!
i must balance both my cca and my studies! and show everyone that God is Great!

Superhero:

He's the One who makes the sun shine.
He's the One that puts the moon in the sky
He's the One who hung the stars, one by one

He's the One who makes the birds sing
He's the One who makes your dreams so high.
He's the One who makes me smile, day by day

Jesus You're my Superhero
You're my star, my best friend
Jesus You're my Superhero
You're my star, my best friend

Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than Spiderman
Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than Superman
Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than Batman
Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than anyone

THIS SONG ROCKS! HAHAS!

wish me luck!

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

First Week Of School!

2007-07-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

Argh.. the change of my teachers have made me worked harder..
i suddenly feel super motivated to complete my hw.. well only during the weekends.. hahas =p..
but hey.. i still do them? right?? hahas...
anw ya.. my holiday project work have been like overdued.. and i still owe them the work! omg.. HELP ME!
learned many many many things in this week.. especially things related to relationships...
learned about infatuation.. learnt what is true love... etc etc...
wanted to blog about it last friday.. but i didnt have the chance to do so...
but after thinking.. i think i shouldnt talk about it.. since everyone have a different views on this topic =/...
yay.. central have hit 161.. but still i wasnt really happy about.. why? cause i felt as though i didnt contribute to this numbers... Its already july.. and we still dont have any new believers.. lets not even talk about visitors...
but i felt happy that both joshau and qk was more dedicated to God..
qk changed ALOT and i cant even believe my ears when he rushed me for shepherding..
joshua change might not be too obvious but i can sense a change in him.. he is more intereactive... which is a good think ^^.. BMSS AND QTSS MUST GROW!
let not our words be purely a line of word itself.. but instead let it be something that we will SURELY fulfill..
let our actions speak louder than words..

when u look up into the sky and realise that the stars have become less bright, call me ^^...

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

New Phone! But..

2007-06-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

Yes.. i finally got my new phone..
if u dont know what exactly happened to my phone.. well..
the thing is some crazy girls (stc) used a stick and hit my pocket..
and *crack* my screen cracked.. soo.. i now have a new phone..
so.. DONT COME NEAR ME!

BUT! even thogh i got this phone.. i have lost some of my contacts!
OMG! T.T.. so pls.. TELL ME WHO U ARE WHEN SENDING ME A MESSAGE!

there will be UNIT EVAX tomorrow.. at 2pm at tiong macdonalds..!!
i hope they will manage to bring more people!
sad to say.. i cant miss tomorrow's training.. since my nationals are just around the corner ( to be exact.. its... next week )..

ooooh man.. second day of school.. was.. hmm.. wild/ sian/ stone...
ARGH! i cant take it anymore! actually i can.. but haiz... hahas..
HW! HW! AND MORE HW! not really alot but... REVISION.. REVISION! REVISION!!!

AND WEEE! my sis bf is coming back like.. tomorrow... 2am+?? hahas..
cant wait to see him... MUAHAHAHAHA!~
ok i just realise i have somethings to do.. so.. CYA!

* whenever it rains, it means im thinking of you.
* whenever there's thunder, im crying out for you
* whenever there's lightning.. i fart.. =D

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Hot Hot HOT!!

2007-06-25T07:38:00.000-07:00

Today marks the first day of term 3..
MORE IMPORTANTLY.. it marks the start of MUGGING!
i just realise how near MY EXAMS ARE!
this sunday MILK RUN! zzz..
It was super sian! there have been a change of teacher... and to make matters worst.. I JUST REALISE I HAVE TO WRITE A COMPO NOW!
completely slipped off my mind..
Is ian going to convert this saturday? will he attend church or will he fetch his aunt? will my 2 other friends join hope?
I HOPE THEY WILL!

Having a throat infection is... PAIN PAIN PAIN!!
PAIN + FEVER + HEADACHE + STOMACH ACHE = ARGH!!!
PERSERVERE ON! HAHAHA... arrr...

wish upon a shooting star (need to complete COMPO!)
[joshua]

I WISH THAT IM NOT IN LOVE WITH U!

Fun Under The Sun @ Sentosa =)

2007-06-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

YES!! HIGH SCHOOL central went to SENTOSA TODAY!!
our first game was... AMAZING RACE! which was dam fun/sian... well.. u decide..
i took it as another training.. there were many "road blocks" during the game.. but ya.. we completed the whole thing... but since our first station and clue was soooo "screwed up" that we didnt win.. know.. since we didnt complete the entire game accordingly =p...
But hey... the event was still great! after that.. there were water bombs..
and ya.. we had a competition.. over a B&J voucher?
even though our teams ratio to the others were like 1:2.. we kept on playing till the end.. and after that.. we had free activities.. CB/CF did crazy things..
example.. long jump into the sea, beach rugby, throwing people into the sea(common), gaying in the sea o.O and of course.. burying someone's leg into the sand..
unfortunately.. i was a victim for burying someone's leg into the sand.. the sand felt GREAT! however, the fear of a crab (which i think does not exist on that beach)would attack my leg xD..
all went well.. until i reach home... -.-...
my parents always have to quarrel with me.. and when i "win" they will ask for the money they gave me.. and have to link it to something irrelavent so that they will "win" the quarrel.. if u do face such problem.. ADVICE ME TO WHAT TO DO!

Word of the day: Bang Sai
Look up at the sky.. its so clear.. sooo... blue... soo... eeew.. is that a bird.. wait a min... *piak*.. BIRD SHIT!
the SENTENCE of the JIAO

wish upon a shooting star
[Joshua]

EVENTS THAT HAPPEN DURING THE HOLIDAYS!

2007-06-15T02:48:00.000-07:00

First off.. we got ClC1!! wee!

During Teaching... u can see Isaac Poking Mark.. (CAUGHT RED HANDED)

Look At Ivan's hand being vandalised

hahas.. look at Isaac! HAHAS

Keith Is Mugging.. right..

Look into the Ear!! =P

Looks Like Blood?? (its actually desmond who drew on my toe...)

Be afraid.. be VERY afraid..

some things i learnt during the teaching...

I was bored.. so i drew..

and i drew more =)

and took a picture of desmond's pigu o.O

not to forget keith's ass =)

Melvin And Xia in the lift..

dont this animal look familiar?

err.. problem solved..

Time For BREAKFAST o.O... 6 Foot Long sandwich... yum yum

From CF.. CL OF SJI!.. JEREMIAH!

From Jc Ministry... SAMUEL

JC MINISTRY'S UL! RAPHEAL!

CB1'S CL~ YUN KAI!

FROM CF3.. MARK!

Now.. ITS TIME FOR CAMP!

what is keith doing on the road O.O

Its Time For WORKSHOP!

JEM WAKE UP!!

Central's DL!! DANIEL!!

CB's UL! ELISE!

Now.. presenting to u.. a CF+CB production..

lets continue the video!

Lets TELL THE WORLD JESUS LIVES
AND TELL THEM THAT HE DIED FOR US~!

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Im Outta Here!

2007-06-03T08:04:00.000-07:00

im feeling dam sad now.. cause im not going to be the SJI group anymore...
instead.. i'll be with my sheeps and shepherd YK..
Life in church will no longer be the same anymore T.T...
there is still church camp... i must cherish the time! cause.. I REALLY DONT WANT TO BE APART FROM THEM!

Most of my friends are at CF and im at CB..
if i request to return back to SJI.. then what will happen to my sheeps?
even though qk is not consistant to coming to church.. i still treat him as my sheep!
am i able to pioneer bmss and qwss? im not sure...
hopefully qk will continue coming to church...

played soccer today! with the current CB ppl.. and ya it was fun.. and i kanna a dam painful cramp! ouch.. can u feel the pain??
i was going to do a rainbow and in mid-air.. BANG...ARGH! cramp zz -.-...
Jem was dam funny.. the sole of his shoe came off.. and we could see his socks.. hahas...
zachary made alot of disciples for his WU YIN JIAO.. and he only acknowledge those who scores.. HAHAS! yao yi... cannot make it =/...

NOW I FEEL LIKE IM RUNNING ON EMPTY!

If u look up at the sky and MANAGE to spot a round like "thing".. thats the moon..
the word of the JIAO..
ps: when u see this round "thing" in the sky.. run.. cause yao yi is coming! hahas

gaze upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Wow

2007-05-29T07:03:00.000-07:00

wow.. today's caregroup was great? maybe not so great...
Isacc fell ill.. and had to be sent to the hospital.. (omg?)
and they suspect that its dengue.. (awww).. Pray For HIM!
and so there we were... (Yk, mark, joel and myself) playing.. bridge? hahas
which became very fun? Oo.. and oh ya.. thank you hannah for teaching me!
haha... once u get the hang of it.. it will be fun ;D...
ANW.. i felt GREAT today during worship.. images appeared in my head..
the songs were like hmmm alright? and we had teaching... which was 45minutes long..
WE WANTED TO PLAY DOTA! but no time =p... so we went for lunch! heee..
and ya didnt want to eat long john... throat was unwell.. (hahas..)
and WE PLAYED DAYTONA! wa... (correct spelling anot? ?.?)
hahas... had lots of fun... haiz...
AND FOR SOME PEOPLE WHO THINKS I HAVE BROKEN UP WITH MY GF... because of the previous blog entry
number 1: I DONT HAVE A GF! GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD!
number 2: ITS ONLY A SONG AND I LIKE THE PART SO I TYPED IT OUT AGAIN!
NUMBER 3: WHY SO KPO!!

when you are feeling down look up in the sky and try to spot my star..
the word of the JIAO...

gaze upon a shooting star
[Joshua]

Here I am alone

2007-05-22T08:27:00.000-07:00

There are so many reasons that I find to run to you
Cos there's so little loving in my life, now I am wawy
And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be
There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong

[Chorus]
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard it all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day

So many feelings emotions running away with me
Cos it's you that I believe in and I love this one so deep
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
Now I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

[Chorus]

So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

[Chorus to fade]

i just wish that EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST LIKE BEFORE!

saying i love you is the hardest thing to do~
[joshua]

Empty

2007-05-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

GCE "O" Level Practical examination!
it may sound hard but if u study... u will know how to do..
AND I DID IT! YAY... hopefully its correct la...
whats the use of rejoicing when u dont know how well you have done??
hmm.. my school had a cross country event which is held annually!..
and i guess i was suppose to be running competitive??
but i slacked =p... so i did mass run ^^...
the place was MUDDY LIKE HELL!... my shoes were like all brown after the run??
but i saw many funny things while running...
like boys being too sissy to walk on the mud.. and try to find another route.. HAHA..
and when they try to jump over the mud... they will land on the mud???
well.. hopefully they will be able to go through NS in the future.. hahas...
there were like so many horse shit on the road?!.. haha... and i practically slacked the whole thing... didnt really sweat much.. but hey i did the run!
OHya.. just remembered to mention that the run was 4.8km..
hmm.. will be having chemistry o level spa tomorrow ><... here we go again! hahas..

feeling dam sick now... i think if i go school tomorrow.. i will just do my spa paper and go home... =/...
im like having a fever -.-... and i fell aslp when i reach home..( after bathing )
haizzz.. holidays are coming.. and i just realised that my track camp and church camp collided... why?? cause the track camp was pushed back due to the sec 4 exams..
well. what to do... guess i will have to sacrifice one.. =(...
alright then.. wish me luck for my spa! cya ^^

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Blank

2007-05-14T05:52:00.000-07:00

kind of feeling dam down now.. =(..
cause i wasnt the sprinter's GL... instead it was ashwin..
kinda of isolated myself and ran fast during warm up..
didnt want to talk to anyone.. and did my own stretching at the side..
but ya.... melvin came over and talked to me though =)...
hahas.. so happy that he is the AGL.. =) WORK HARD!
im starting to follow couch and do work outs instead of running about..
feeling dam tired =/... did circuit training.. and ya.. effective =)...

after training.. went off to the canteen and slacked awhile before going back home..
hmm.. well.. it doesnt matter if im the GL... as long i can help my fellow mates.. that would be great... =)... GO MELVIN!! HAHAs...
i guess this have taught me something too =)...
i start to think that i should really go all out and do my best in everything..
if not.. i will be letting myself down right???
i guess i have been joking too much during training..
and i should show the other side of me??
well.. whats done is done.. and cannot be changed..
we have to look into the future and grab hold of every opportunity that comes to our path... (show the real side of you so that ppl will understand you)...

Finding it weird that old games are reviving in my class??
hmmm.. runescape??? hahas! and we kept on talking about pokemon?? hahas!...
realise that class can be very fun (well at times)...
and sometimes its plain irritiating...
guess i've been hanging around with the "nerd" group in my class o.O..
but hey.. they are kinda fun to be with =)...
well except for hari... he is plain weird =/... cant understand him...

all right then... that will be all for today! hahas!..
CYA!

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Mugging In June~

2007-05-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

ok.. after going through mid year.. i realise i have to catch up and practice more!..
so i must mug! and if i slack pls hit me.. i will accept it!
havent been feeling well for the pass for days.. but still my dad wants me to attend school.. even though there wasnt any papers...
haiz.. slpt for the first three lessons today.. GUILTY! and kinda slacked the day off... even when i want to copy down the equations on the board.. my body tells me to not move.. haiz... but luckily i manage to move ^^..
and after school i had to do lenses spa test T.T..
even though i didnt feel like it.. but still i went for it..
hmm darren and i did the lenses spa together... haha.. it was kinda fun ^^..
and after that went home.. and i saw leonard on the way out of school!!
so we went home together.. and after buying lunch.. he came over to my house to take back his x box controller.. haha.. sry for taking so long to return it to u XD...
a few min later i had tuition.. and i almost fainted.. why? cause i had a terrible headache!.. and i couldnt ta han... zzzz...

training tomorrow..! cant wait for school to end.. so that i can run!.. YES..
hahas.. hopefully there will be soccer this week ...

feel so sad that my parents will not be attending parents' day service..=(.. mummy got work T.T... WHY!!! sob sob..
the weather have been very weird lately.. so everyone please look after yourself!!..
cause im sick! (i got the bug)... hahas..
and those STILL HAVING EXAMS GOOD LUCK AND JIA YOU!..

Note: Early Bird Registration for camp is next saturday 19/5/07..
therefore please remember to SAVE money..
DONT WATCH ZHI ZHU REN SAN le! and SAVE MONEY FOR CHURCH CAMP!
cause it will be 10 times better than that movie!..

*2nd Note: Water Baptism On the 20/5/07! PLEASE SUBMIT YOUR FORMS THIS SATURDAY!..

gaze upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Much Better..

2007-05-03T09:21:00.000-07:00

Ok Well.. First thing first... Man U and AC milan match..
Man U Lost 3-0!.. oooomg! of course my prediction came true.. lols.!..
okok..
i feel much better compared to ytd..
though i still feel very awkward.. others will not know how it feels ba..
creepy.. eeek!!!

feeling very guilty today.. that i slept in class for like 3 periods? not being attentive in class?.. ok.. i got to stop using vulgarities man... i dont wanna become another aaron chua ( no offence ) but ya.. hmm but feeling dam pissed off when ppl in my class say that they rather study by themselves then studying in school.. since they claim that they are not learning anything in school..
hmm.. well.. if thats the case.. why dont they just quit school and go study by themselves... they can still apply for 'O' Levels what.. zzz..

hahas.. ok hmm after recess i got dam active... (cause of the slp for the first 3 periods) and went wild? ya.. i hit hari for no reason.. ganged up with norman to disturb that irritating nigel WOOO and insulted him.. and played with Goa Qiang's fats.. wow.. ok.. hahas.. i think i better stop! haha.. oh ya.. not to forget... on the bus.. where i was like hitting norman heehee..! and ya had tuition and did my hw.. wa... and the worst thing that happened today was that i had fever! wow..
how did that come about?? hmmm.. dont ask me.. i dont know.. hahas...!..

okok i jiu xia ting bi.. LOL.. xi wang ni hui zai lai kan wo de BLOG.! hahas.. and of course tag on it.. hahas.!
AND THIS IS TO MY CAREGROUP MATES! SORRY THAT I DIDNT MAKE IT FOR CAREGROUP ON TUESDAY! =P...
CAMP CAMP CAMP CAMP CAMP!

wish upon a shooting star
[Joshua]

2007-05-02T07:36:00.000-07:00

Ok.. Whats Happening to me now?
why do i feel like everything im trying to build on is crashing down...
tears in my eyes cant come out at all..
is it anger? fear? stress?
im feeling super !@#$ED up...
help me!

[joshua]

Fun And Laughter! Peace And Joy!

2007-04-29T07:47:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. Ytd after service I realised Poor Jem was having a high fever.. T.T
(hope that he recovers fast AMEN!)
After sending off Jem to "the other side" (of the Mrt) hahas.. we went to slack outside PC Bunk.. and did abit of work there ^^..
and i was like haiz.. what?? jang u slping over at Keith's House??
ok i want to go also.. hello pa.. can i go slp over at Keith's House??
yes i go there study ok.. BB! yay...!..
and i went to keith's house..
on the way there Jang that bugger wanted to change his mind.. zzz..
but luckly i convinced him ^^..
and so ya.. went over to Keith's house..
haha.. dam fun.. hmm surprise guests came as well!..
Yk, David And Melvin!.. haha..
how gay! the gay team is here!.. and yup.. we practically played winning 11 the whole time.. and oh ya of course audition XD...
At midnight we went to cook supper.. and as the pot was small everything was dam hard to cook! haha.. and guess what.. everything tasted them weird!! seriously!..
and Someone added soya soyce into my chicken noodle.. -.-..
and still... i ate it! haha... XD.. oh ya.. happy birthday Shirley Merlinda!
the next morning.. David, Yk and Melvin went off.. and that slacky keith stayed at home when he had a hockey match to attend!.. what a slacker.. (part of the reason was that it rained heavily...)
and ya.. slacked at his house and did maths...
ok at least i cleared something.. ^^.. yay...
and after that.. winning 11 again! hahas!.. yup.. and ate dinner at keith's house as well.. wow.. the mother was dam kind ^^.. thanks aunty for letting us stay over!..
and ya.. played till 8?? and went off home.. and crap!.. my ez-link card spoiled!..
how suay can i get?? and YES i have finally got my haircut! GOODBYE UNEVEN FRINGE!
GOODBYE SHORT BUT THICK HAIR! YIPPEE!! TRAINING TOMORROW! GOGOGO!! AMEN!! HAHAS!!

wish upon a shooting star
[Joshua]

Wish Upon A Star ^^..

2007-04-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

I'm wishing on a falling star...
Wondering where you are...

Chorus:
I wished for you on a falling star
Wondering where you are
Do I ever cross your mind
In the warm sunshine
She's from the city of angels
Like Bette Davis, James Dean and Gable
Never know what she means to me
I fell for the girl that's on tv

Met her at a gala affair
She wore a green dress and everybody was there
Felt outta place as she looked into my eyes
Shook her hand around 9pm and now
I'm never gonna be the same again
Never have to be on a movie screen
To be the leading lady in all my dreams
Shoobie-do-wop and scooby snacks
Met a fly girl and I can't relax
The only problem is she's a movie star, oh
My friends, they won't believe me
If they could only see me
At the risk of sounding cheesy
I think I fell for the girl on tv

Chorus

Everybody knows her name
Wanna take her picture and they're glad she came
But I just wanna be there when she's down, down
(Be there when she's down)
I don't want her autograph
I just wanna call her up and make her laugh
Never had to be on the movie screen
To be the leading lady in all my dreams
Shoobie-do-wop and scooby snacks
I met a fly girl and I can't relax
Only problem is she's a movie star
My friends, they won't believe me
If they could only see me
At the risk of sounding cheesy
I think I fell for the girl on tv

Chorus

I wished for you on a falling star
I'm wishing on a star and I'm wondering where you are
Wondering where you are
Do I cross your mind in the warm sunshine

Rap:
Yeah, so I wished for you on a bright, shining star
Everywhere I look, there you are
It's the girl in the green dress
She took my breath away
And now I look to the sky for the better day
To the beat y'all and scooby snacks
I met a fly girl and I can't relax
Never had to be on the movie screen
Cause she's the leading lady in all my dreams

Chorus

Sports day 100m!
one word to describe it all!.. OWNAGE!..
Watch Me! Im Gonna FLY!

wish upon a shooting star
[Joshua]

Dashed?

2007-04-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

there is some confusion for sports day!..
cause.. im not in the event i qualified in.. wth?..
haiz.. my favourite event! T.T...
i hate it when reuben comes to me and talk to me how "great" he is..
its like.. he sucks in both rugby and track?..
he thinks he can throw.. which he cant?
haiz.. today he went for training and all he did was warm up and talk..
no couch wants to tell him to do anything..
i took charge of the sec 1 and observed their drills and when i looked around.. i could see that reuben talking zzz...
wa dam gd for nothing? and he nv even run a shyt? and he blocks the lane when someone is running... dam blind..
haiz.. why didnt Low let yao yi run last year in the 4*100.. why let that reuben run!.. he was the S that screwed up the run!.. he dropped the god dam baton!..
ok repent repent... zzz...

Thanks For The Memories.. the experience was great..

wish upon a shooting star
[Joshua]

MARIA! AVE MARIA!...

2007-04-24T08:42:00.000-07:00

omg.. 200 pounds of beauty is like dam nice?
and i love the voice of the singer! woah.. makes me want to move!
MARIA.. AVE MARIA!..
WEEEEE!!! went out with marcus abi and sam on monday!..
hmm fun i guess.. but fell ill in the evening.. =(..
wa.. still cant get the song off my head!..
training tomorrow... MUST JIA YOU!
cause i've GAINED WEIGHT OMG!!!
T.T... tears... sob sob..
hello 1 pack... hhaha..
ok.. MUST TRAIN HARD TOMORROW!! JYJYJY!!
MARIA AVE MARIA!!
heehee!...

CG study this thursday at KAP!..
Yk told me that its at 3pm.. but it says 1.15pm on centralBONE blog..
so ya.. gotta CONFIRM!.. but whats for sure is that.. THERE WILL BE A CROWD!!
hope that everyone will have good health!.. why?? cause exams are coming!!
TOGETHER WE MUG AS A CG... lols..

gaze upon a shooting star
[Joshua]

repent.. REPENT.. REPENT!!!

2007-04-22T08:43:00.000-07:00

We have many things to repent about!
and i know that i do have many things to repent for...
especially when we played soccer ytd at clementi..
ooooh yes... the game was fun... but when they changed team.. and allowed the arrogant teens to play...
haiz.. they "ram" the ball at us like nobody business.. kick the ball to the drain..
PUSH US! STEP ON US! TRIP US!~ etc etc..
haiz... well we learnt smth through that incident.. we have to control our anger! AMEN~
i took it as a test from God!.. yes.. we have to have SELF CONTROL!!..
if not.. one day we will get ourselves killed... XD.. haha..
anw.. ITS marcus (wife) birthday today!..
im being special by announcing it late XD...
hahas.. will be seeing u tomorrow!!!..
went to Kap today to study!.. and it rained... heavily..
Jem came over to the opposite bus stop to fetch me.. SO SWEET!..
as a result.. his pants was all wet.. and when we left.. we were like drenched?
hahas.. my slippers almost float away! luckily i got hold of it with my toes ^^..
when we reached kap.. something happened.. THE HEAVY RAIN WE WERE IN A FEW SECONDS AGO SUBSIDED!! WA!!
its another test from God??
We must endure all difficulties/challenges in life! AMEN~!
so Jem and i entered mac all wet.. and it was FREAKING COLD!! brrrr..
studied indices the entire day and YES! i now know how to DO! weee..
ok.. and after that.. Yk, David, SY, Joanne etc etc came and studied too!..
but we went off a few mintues later.. =(..
reached home and had tuition.. then.. I LEARNT QUADRATIC EQUATIONS!
YES I FINALLY UNDERSTAND IT!! muahaha.. after so long T.T...
OK I MUST BE ORGANISED AND PREPARE EVERYTHING BEFORE HAND!
NO SLACKING!! STUDY! MUG MUG MUG!!! GOGOGO

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

test.. TEST.. TEST!!!

2007-04-17T07:52:00.001-07:00

argh!... every week there will sure to have a maths test..
AND GUESS WHAT MY MATHS TEACHER DID!...
SHE CANCELED THE ENTIRE WEEK OF E MATHS!...
WTH?? thus.. it means.. the whole week we will be having A maths!..
OH GREAT! knowing that alot of ppl will be irritated by her decision and thus complain... we wont be able to HAVE A PROPER LESSON!...
and tomorrow.. INDICES TEST!!!... wth... MORE TESTS!!!... argh!~
chem spa... physic test.. ENGLISH COMPREHENSION! ARGH~...

hahas.. ANW.. went to KAP after school to meet Yk Joel and JUN YANG...
well.. keith didnt have anything to do.. soo... he followed =D...
and on the very table we sat... someone wrote on the table...
THAT MY SCHOOL PEOPLE ARE DESPO!... haha.. i wont disagree with that... but hey.. not everyone is OK!...
and because of my stupid jokes... that gay jun yang kept on staring at me!...
WTH... and he dont believe that im a tracker... -.- wow...
hahas.. ok TIME TO GET SERIOUS!.. going for cross country tomorrow as a rear runner.. WTH!!!..
well.. at least i get to run... haha.. unlike last year -.- (where i just stood there like a retard.. not knowing what to do)...
ITS TIME TO TRAIN HARD!...

Gaze Upon A Wishing Star
[Joshua]

i have something to SHARE!

2007-04-16T06:38:00.000-07:00

omg.. last night.. i felt as though God was really next to me..
i felt dam sad over certain matters.. and felt rather cold
soon later.. something told me to look out of the window..
so i did.. and when i gazed upon the stars.. i was speechless..
i could see the stars very clearly.. i felt warm in the inside..
it was as though God was trying to tell me smth..
i couldnt help but teared as i continued gazing upon the stars..
the star which stood out from all the others was my wishing star..
it was the first time i could see the stars clearly.. T.T...

school was so fun!... haha..
i couldnt run at all.. cause i sprained my ankle during 100m hurdles T.T..
so.. I COULDNT DO 2.4km~!... well.. a blessing in disguise?
well.. cause those who did the 2.4km today... practically walked.. and most of them cheated and did only 5 rounds... its like WTH? what kind of crap is that???
and the timings were DAM SLOW... WTF???
so.. my pe teacher told them to rerun after school! haha!...
but still after school i had an e maths test... which i screwed up... cause i didnt even know how to do!... haiz...
ANW!.. ya as i said school was fun ^^...
elvin kicked the ball and broke a window... haha..
yup yup.. hopefully damian and and yao yi will come to hope ^^..
that would be wonderful!... and may there be ppl coming from bukit merah ^^..
AMEN!!! hahas XD...

Wish Upon A Shooting Star!
[Joshua]

Se7enth!

2007-04-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

ok.. today was dam slack for me in national juniors..
hmm why?? ermm... lets see.. im sick!...
i dont feel like running? i havent been doing hurdles???
and I GOT SEVENTH!! wee! hahas...
oh ya.. nv go school on friday... HAHA and went out with sis for lunch..
and there was this group of girls staring at me.. i was dam creeped out..
i think one of them knows me.. hmm ??
ANW!.. after that.. yao yi and i went to mac for dinner...
and ya talked to him.. haha.. FIRST TIME I WAS HAVING A CONVERSATION WITH HIM!
hopefully he will join hope as well ><...
invited him for the soccer game at redhill..
everything went well.. the fairfield boys played basketball..
keith jang joel etc etc played soccer!...
as it rained.. the floor was rather slippery.. and we played with a group of boys who were older than us..
and keith accidentally hit one of the guy leg and he turned and punched keith..
WTH? ACCIDENTS DO HAPPEN??? all i know i was dam bu shuang with that ass...
cause FIRSTLY HIS SOCCER "skill" is WEIRD... wait.. i should say.. SUCK!...
he played rough.. what kind of a player is he... at least rooney plays well!..
wa lucky for keith only his cheek got hit.. and there was BLOOD!.. wth??
lol.. guess where did the blood come from?? his pimple! lol!...
thank god he had pimples! after that we walked off to the station.. everyone were ready to go back home.. and keith had to say sth about that guy.. and guess what??
his hp immediately dropped! lol.. another sign from god!...
keith keith... patients.. hahas...
we have to repent on our sins... haiz...

WISH UPON A SHOOTING STAR!
[joshua]

I've Got The Fever!

2007-04-11T07:58:00.000-07:00

have been feeling dam sick for the past few days in school..
but everyone thinks im acting it out...
it feels dam horrible.. flu.. sore throat.. fever.. headache!
omg.. i cant take it man!
i try my best to not take any blue form and leave school!
and i perservere till school ends.. telling myself that its gonna end soon!
i have to keep laughing to keep myself from resting (slping)..
today.. i made myself laugh like shyt but laughing at star wars..
saying that telletubies is better than star wars.. that bob the builder is even better.. and not to forget carebear! haha...
dont feel like going school tomorrow!.. feel dam sick la!.. always have to force myself to wake up even if i slp early.. and then enter my dad's car and just fall aslp again.. hope this feeling will GO AWAY!.. i didnt go for 100 hurdles cause of that!... well.. national junior is just this weekend.. hope i will feel better XD..

i just wish that you are all right as well.. =)..
[joshua]

steamboat @ marina

2007-04-08T01:30:00.000-07:00

hmm lets see.. i was suppose to meet jem in the morning but he go shepherding..
soo didnt meet him.. and when the guys asked me out for lunch i couldnt..
cause i decided to have lunch with my dad..
went to meet them after lunch and hanged outside nexus..
wa easter service was dam meaningful..
i cant believed i even cried..
after service i felt that there are always miracles when God is with us..
what really touched my heart was the song about the small girl looking at Jesus..
and Jesus was singing to God asknig why he had to die.. and God replied that he had to die for that little girl.. OMG i was super touched..

after service we went to meridien and slacked around there and wait for the command from zachary to pack up and leave for marina!
we arrived marina and took 400 to our destination!
the whole central were there and we ate in our unit..
haha! dam HOT!! so me and keith took off the shirt we wore over our white shirt..
and we were dam crazy by running about taking fishballs and meatballs to cook..
and we called the fishballs QQ fishballs.. haha!

we played arcade.. actually some played while ppl like me stood at a side and distracted them.. hahas..
and after that i went out and we realise that JEM WAS STILL EATING!!
OMG HE HOW HUNGRY! and after taking a long time to persuade everyone to leave we finally went home..
haiz.. i felt rather sad that i realise that i was away from the sji group..
that i was no longer in cb3 anymore... but now im in cb1..
haiz.. i didnt want to leave my friends.. i wanted to be with them! to me they are my closest friends.. haiz.. but hey.. i still will be seeing them in school and in cg right? haha...

GOGOGOGO!!!
HURDLES NEXT WEEK! I CAN DO IT!
[joshua]

invitational relay ^^

2007-04-05T09:55:00.001-07:00

Today was a dam stone day!
as in i practically stoned throughout the day!..
my class ppl took advantage by helping out the packing of food for the needy so to skip a little of e maths.. lols..
but seriously.. it was really boring but at least i learnt a thing or 2...
chinese! wa at least not so sian.. did the chinese compo.. dam fun!.. haha!..
and the read the chinese newspaper.. dam retarded!.. maybe that is what makes it intresting eh?
and on with physics which was plain.. full 50 mins PURE LESSON NO JOKES!
wa i turn my head and everyone was dam stoned.. of course eugene being himself..
went to slp -.-... hahas!
RECESS!! DING!!
hungry... WOAH! fresh meat.. muahahaa
YES! GEOG! HAHAHA so fun...
first time i am soooo excited about geog class..
and after geog... CHEMISTRY SPA! weee!
i was like wa sian.. so did the experiment.. chao sian...
jun ren infront of me playing with the apparatus... and that jokong over there playing with CHEMICALS!.. lols.. dam funny.... was liking laughing all the way right after completing the experiment...
JOKONG KEEP POURING IN MORE CHEMICALS!!! HAHASS!!
after that i ran off for the invitational relays at VJC!
the team consisted of dylan, yvan, jerome and myself!
haha i finally could test out my spikes!
the other schools were doing their warm ups and drills and stuff..
and we got there like unprepared?
we didnt bring batons.. tape.. no researve for the team.. omg!..
and then we did a stupid warm up around the basketball court and to the carkpark..
we did a very long stretching... (for our mouths) and ya ran..
GOT 1st.. weee... i think the st pat's guy pissed cause he lost to me.. XD...
anw.. feel dam high now.. !! wee.. GOOD FRIDAY IS HERE~!

JESUS LIVES!!!
[joshua]

GOAL GOAL GOAL!!!

2007-04-01T07:48:00.000-07:00

omg ytd there was 2 hell of a nice match!!!
Liverpool vs Arsenal 4-1
Manchester United vs Blackburn 4-1

but the most exciting one is the man u match... OMG
i was practically standing up throughout the whole match..!!
wa.. when i saw ronaldo play.. i was like GOGOGO..
but rooney was playing badly =(... JIAYOU!!!

with those 2 matches.. i was inspired! and i went to play soccer today..
lol so fun.. when i faced jem.. jem keep telling me to not do sth stupid..
haha.. cause i wanted to rainbow him... HAHA.. but play safe.. run around.. HAHA.
scored goal after goal after goal... so GOAL!!!!!
dam excited.. but i wasn't satisfied..
i still have the urge to play soccer!! omg.. so fun..
i dribbled pass like siao and bulldoze through.. HAHA...
CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT TIME!!!.. but those buggers who came and interfer with our fun-.-.. RUIN THE WHOLE SHYT... obviously they dont even know about the rules la..
ANW! i wont bear any grudges with them... i will just PLAY! AND PLAY! and study.. haa

OH YA GOOD NEWS!!! i think i can recover by national juniors.. but i think i will most likely forfeit my sports day =(... dont want to injure myself..
moreover i think i will just attend training.. make sure that my fitness is there...
HURDLES!! HERE I COME!!!

[joshua] =)!!!

Speechless

2007-03-26T06:14:00.000-07:00

it was the first time i was called satan...
do u know how it feels to be called satan by someone u think u can talk to?
it was because of this word.. it caused me to not slp and instead think..
am i such a bad friend?
am i screwing up people's life when im trying to help them?
zi zhao ma fan.. right!
so maybe i shouldnt try to help anyone le ba..
when i do that.. people can even tell me...
jian si bu jiu...
WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO! HUH!

i just pulled my thigh muscles.. BADLY.. and now i gotta see the doctor soon..
everyone in school thinks im acting.. and they want to hit it instead..
its like WTH!
and now i cant run.. and i have to pull out from my sports day events..
WHERES THE COMPETITION THEN!
i wanted to try to win the individual trophy this year.. but i think..
i can kiss that thought GOODBYE!

i sit in the classroom drawing numbers...
and if u try.. u can fuse numbers 381 into the number 8..
everything is coming back to me again...
i dont know whats happening...
everything is sooooooo MESSED UP!

*sev7ven*
[joshua]

Personal Best

2007-03-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

Yes! last wednesday! i did my 100m personal best timing! wee! the improve was DAM big..
my timing in the past was 12.67
and now.. its 11.85! omg.. i cant believe it! oooh..
well gotta thank dylan for lending me his spikes.. my spike shoes were screwed..
gonna buy the same shoe as him.. heehee XD..

saw u on wednesday and i had nth to say but to just look at u...
haiz.. quan kai havent been coming to church again.. haiz.. well.. what can i do.. i cant FORCE him to come to church..
feel kinda bad to not reply jessie's messages and stuff but everytime she messages me im busy.. and she expects me to call her when i know that my bills are gonna burst...

went out with marcus, trisha, zi ya, samantha, amanda, cynthia and abigail... dam fun... ya right... ya right.. yes right.. though was bored at times.. lose to make the wolf sign and the stupid snake.. haha. STOMP THE YARD... bang bang bang.. stomping the ground haha... expected what was gonna happen at the front of the movie haha... dancing freaks... go catch the movie! haha...

*evAngel
[Joshua]

(to be continued...)

FlashBacks ***

2007-03-11T09:48:00.000-07:00

Images are just appearing in my head.. and i dont know why..
sy party.. image of someone injury his toes..
12/3 training..
images of the past reappeared..
especially you know who...
images of yk also appeared in my head..
what does all this images represent?
my mood for games have gone down the drain..
feel like im in a lost..
oh ya.. the most horrifying image is the image of the doctor injecting 4 needles into my shoulder just for mri.. and the pain was unbearable.. the effect of the numb thingy took very long to start.. and i had to slp in the mri machine for like 1 hour +++...
argh... its giving me a painful headache..

when can all my pains just fade away!....

Dancing bears
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

You hold me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart
Used to know
Once upon a December

*evAngel
[Joshua]

4/3/07 my 15th birthday!

2007-03-05T04:39:00.000-08:00

ok.. one thing to say.. IM OFFICALLY 15!...
1 more year and i do not need to suffer NC16!!
Hannabal Rising T.T.. i want to watch it!.. stupid NC16...
hmm.. on saturday.. i quarrelled with my parents and sister and i ran out of the house very early.. and i had no where to go.. YET.. so i ran to a deserted area and i sat there and cried my heart like.. the last time i cried like that was 6 months ago... wow... Yk, Keith, Jem and Jinqi were all busy.. so i went to cyberdome and played by myself.. i apologised to my parents but not my sister and guess what.. she called and apologised... and i was able to go and slp over at wei jang's house to watch Man U vs Liverpool.. yay.. after service.. we went to bishan and met Wei Jang and guess what.. BAD NEWS! we have a total of 9 ppl.. and jang's parents only allow 6? so.. we went over to Mark's house to slp over.. and his computer was.. OMG!!
the only thing i liked about his screen is that the game's effects are dam clear.. dont play audition with it -.-...
time went by.. and i went to bath.. when i got out zachary was like i need go toilet.. and he followed me back into the room.. and suddenly everyone was gone.. then.. bah!.. there all suddenly appear wishing me a happy birthday.. omg.. i was kinda surprised... wow... kinda touched too.. cause no one have given me a surprise.. wa..
next thing u know .. they tao pok me.. haha.. and as self defense.. i farted.. HAHA... they ran out of the room haha... after that. Jem was tao poked.. haha.. Ask Yk to show u the videos and pictures taken =)...
and we slpt at 4 while jang slpt at 6...
we woke up at 8+ and Jem and keith went to a near by soccer court to play soccer.. and guess what.. they kicked the ball and it got stucked.. lucky they manage to get it down..
we went to redhill and played soccer.. and i soccered like dam fun liddat.. and i even did rainbow.. weee! SUCCESS!!! and i had to rush off for tuition.. went to the centre and talked to a dude who is in the same school as me.. and we were dam slacked.. i sat there and read my newspaper while he wrote down the question and went to slp.. when the teacher comes to our desk.. i will say.. the questions are too easy.. dont need to do... so.. i have to always do one of them to prove to her..
while for the other guy.. he keep on saying that he duno how to do when he nvr even tried.. smart...
haha.. after that i went out with jinqi and brought her to eat prawn noodle haha.. nice.. and had the talked she wanted to give me... after that.. i went to meet yk sin yee and david and we watch dreamgirls.. haha.. dam retarded.. the whole song was about singing! but the songs were nice! the only person who did not appreciate it was.. David.. lol.. after that we went to ps and ate dinner.. the sad thing was that june wasnt able to make it as she was unwell.. =(... hope that she is alright now..
wee...
and today 5/3/07... we had our house cheer competition and the yellow dirty house won again -.-... but Fintan got 2nd! yay.. okok.. and i felt faint and dizzy.. but continued to stay in school... haiz... okok continue another time.. =) GOODBYE!

*evAngel
[Joshua]

March!

2007-03-01T08:18:00.000-08:00

Yes.. Its March.. Want To say happy birthday to many many people!~

Daniel Wu!
Jessica Teo!
Trisha Quek!
Edmund Yeoung!
Shermin!
Samantha Tay!
Elvin Tan!
Mummy!
Aaron Chua!
Nicole!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
*note* im sorry if i miss anyone's name..

Being emo Sucks! but i cant control myself!.. When will this END!..
It Have Been 7 months le.. OR Is it something else?!

Please Do Not Be A Soccer Freak.. Cause.. Its.. Freaky..

Cookies.. Anyone?

Great News.. I have nothing to do on Sunday.. -.-..
Why must my parents go to Malaysia and leave me at the tuition centre..
T.T... well.. i prefer to be in Singapore haha!..

Movie... Anyone?

*evAngel
[joshua]

~Hey~ Your Cramping My Style!~

Still Missing...

2007-02-26T06:06:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow will be Quan Kai's Birthday.. so ya happy birthday ^^...
will be having enrichment day tomorrow..=S.. have to do blanglah dance..
stupid teacher -.- dont let me go to hip-hop...
dont want to go tomorrow la! kao..
oh ya.. parents just bought new plasma tv.. wa.. i cant believe me eyes..
hmm.. when i think that im feeling happy... i realise.. im not..
why? i feel that something is missing...
and someone asked me a question.. and the question is... is it love?..
i couldnt answer that..

had training today.. man.. my muscles are all stiff so some reason or another..
i only could run a 14.7 seconds for a stupid 120m run -.-..
felt dam sad la.. but at least i had a friend who felt the same way as me..
i want to improve and at least get into finals for my hurdles!..
March is just around the corner.. and the relays are gonna start...
thinking of the relays.. it reminds me of the stupid mistake made by stupid reuben..
hated him to the core.. for dropping the bloody baton.. his heart was not at all in the race!.. i beleived that we were gonna get a medal last year.. for this year.. the seniors will most likely be running and we juniors will be the reserve.. if i get into the team.. i will give out my 100 +++ % effort to get the dam medal!
easier said then done heh? what are the chances?

oh ya... my physics teacher finally called my name today.. wow? before knowing my name.. he keeps on calling me PSL dog.. lol... well.. gotta admit that i AM really slacky at times.. hahax..!
he gives me that evil smile which tells me that for the next 2 years.. i will have to suffer alot because he knows my name!! argh! hope he does not kp calling my name.. haha..
why did i have to open my mouth by shouting PASS MOTION when he asked what motion the graph was...~~...

haiz.. redownload gunz.. and know what?... when i play with them.. even though im rusty.. i still can trash their ass... this shows.. that.. the players are nothing without their stupid hack.. well.. except for some...

find that everything is quiet and this is disturbing me.. i feel that my life is dam.. boring -.-.. cg tomorrow... hmm.. hope i still am in the mood... for a "wild" cg and after that... tuition at 5... CAN I MAKE IT ON TIME?? OMG!! now.. that is the question for the day...

*evAngel
[joshua]

Blogging..

2007-02-16T19:54:00.000-08:00

hmm many thing happened.. =S
ok.. on valentine's day.. i didnt want to train..
i went for track meeting to discuss on the sec 1 camp...
omg.. its gonna start early man..
and when i looked out of the classroom, i saw the trackers..
wa.. inspired me to train.. seeing them all prepared to train made me when to work hard..
i thought some of them will slack.. but they didnt.. so i decided to spend my valentine's day with the track team =D..
after warm up.. i recieved a wonderful present.. and the present is that.. I CAN DO MY HURDLES AGAIN!
yes! my couch allowed me the train my hurdles again!...
did hurdles with edwin, bryan, jian xun and louis..
louis.. try to grow taller? u cant jump over the c div hurdles... jyjy..

hmm oh ya on thursday.. hmm.. i went for my family dinner..
i was shocked when i heard that we were gonna eat at suntec..
sushi buffet... yum yum...
ate like siao.. *dropped dead*...
spent i think 1 hours plus inside
something liddat... and after that we went to a sport shop..
my dad bought a new golf set.. weee... im suppose to use them..=S..
i dont think i will get used to the new clubs..

and yesterday... friday..
wa.. VERY SIAN!
we had a performance in school.. which was ok.. but the lion dance took so dam long... was getting dam pissed..
and after that we went to play lan..
and daniel really duno how to play sia!! keep disappearing and his items dam weird...
got me into alot of mess.. -.-..
i rushed off first and went to buona vista to meet my sis at 1...
when i arrived.. SHE TOLD ME TO GO HOME!... wth.. pissed me off..
why? cause im sure she overslept.. as always...
the worst part was that i called her long ago and she told me she WILL reach buona at 1.. kao..
so i went home.. i reach cck and wanted to go home to change.. and guess what.. she called me and told me to wait at lot 1 for her and queue up at the taxi stand!... WA LAO... i was still in uniform!!..
not only that.. i could see her from far taking her own sweet time to walk here..
give so many excueses -.-.. just that i dont want to pursue the matter le.. dam pissed..
when we arrived the NUH.. i went to see my specialist.. and he told me to go take a x-ray... so i did.. and it took dam long!...
they took so many x-ray!.. some have to keep redoing... -.-..
ok nvm.. good experience.. went down speacialist said that my bones are ok...
so he told me to go for a duno what magnetic image scan something liddat thingy..
and it caused $500!.. woah!... and there is a chance that i might be allergic to the chemical that they will be injecting into my shoulder... and if i do.. there is a slight chance i may XD...
of all things.. he have to tell me that -.-... nvm that image thingy will be after my birthday.. ^^..
but during school time... shyt...
hope nth goes wrong... after that we went for lunch and when we were on the way to my dad's car.. it rained.. haha.. there was a jam at the expressway.. so had to take an another route home..
played audi till late at night.. oh ya.. not to mention that i played dota before that... weee! 2 times beyond godlike! anti-mage!! 2 basher 1 buriza 1 butterfly 1 treads and 1 satanic.. lol..
i was too lazy to walk back to base to heal haha..
wanted to buy offering.. but i got too much money to spend lol..
hmm.. ok today will be going to my aunt's house for reunion dinner.. hope it wont be so sian like it was last year -.-..

*evAngel
[joshua]

Smack That

2007-02-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

the maths crisis is over! *or have it just began?*
hope the math teacher and the students will CO-OPERATE THIS TIME
acutally i feel that the maths teacher is kinda good..
if u really pay attention and catch up.. u can learn a thing or 2..
ok enough about that..
chemistry is getting harder and harder! lucky for me i can cope.. muahaha

i finally bought a new wallet! YES!!
okok.. not only that.. I FINALLY GOT MY EZLINK CARD! YES!
picture was dam funny but who cares.. at least it is better than the one before
haha.. lets see.. some guys and i took some red pen and draw lines on our wrist and act depress... haha!.. and i even played tic tac toe on my hand wahaha!
hmm.. oh ya people who sit at the back of the class are horny people.. lol..

hmm.. i feel that for the classroom to be a condusive learning we have to do something about the handphones.. if people are smsing during lesson time of course they will not understand what the teacher is saying! like duh...

when can i school evangelise! im not so confident about my own school! about why am i so confident with queensway sec? huh... duno la..

hope i can make it for caregroup this week.. and oh ya.. service too... -.-...

i can sing abit le!! yay! 3 cheers~!

[joshua]
*evAngel

facing reality

2007-02-04T03:28:00.000-08:00

hello.. =) those who have found my blog..
have been real down i guess.. worried that everything i do will fail..
i was upset that quan kai is not coming to service and not answering my calls and messages.. i had high hopes for him.. i believed that one day i will see a roll with queensway students..

well.. met up with yk last friday and went to play soccer at redhill..
after the whole game the fairsians, yk, zachary and i went home..
told zachary that i did not really feel like doing anything etc etc...
told him about quan kai.. hoping that he will reply and etc..
when zachary and i boarded the marina bay train.. he asked me a question that hit me hard..
why let one person control your faith.. your future?
when he backslides... why do u follow?
and suddenly God talked to me..
he told me to move on.. but still believe that qk will come back one day..
i should not only concentrate on 1 tree when there is a forest out there waiting to be saved..
i have decided to evangelise.. at queensway sec.. though i do not feel confident.. but i will still do it..
and i hope that if i do that.. qk will come back and do what i believe he can do..
pioneer queensway sec..

to some people it is all talk.. but i believe i can do this..
i have to get out of my comfort zone..
hope that jin qi and yk will be able to help me as well..
as.. im still not sure to how to evangelise.. =x..

well.. hmm.. there is a mix of feelings in me..
and it feels weird..

a question popped out in my head...
where are my friends?
i realise.. i've been there for most of my friends when they are down...(if i happen to find out)
..have i? or am i living in my own world?
am i irritating?..or am i trying too hard to help people that they dont see what i am really trying to do?
when im down.. where are my friends?
well there are only 6 people i know who will be there..
1. my parents (2)
2. my sister (1)
3. marcus (1)
4. denise (1)
5. Yun Kai (1)
6. Jin Qi (1)
7. God (1)

why cant i have a conversation with people for even 5 mins?
i dont really see the reason to why i should be using msn..
no one talks to me.. only yk..
what do i do when im online? looking at people's nick..
figuring out why are they feeling down.. talk to them and ask them..
help them but talking to them..
and after that.. they will start to talk to me.. but..
soon after that... *poof* we wont be talking again..

i guess im just some kinda of a temporary friend who goes around helping others..

note* im just letting out how i feel... no offends...

keith.. how do u manage to keep talking to others?
people like.. !!*..

sometime i ask myself.. am i jealous of keith.. and the respond is.. yes..
is it because of his regular conversation with !!*? or is it because many people around me are asking me about keith?

i dont know..

things have been real rough for me.. i dont know.. like i said mixed feelings...
haiz.. i even lost my wallet.. wow.. how great -.-...
lucky for me i didnt take my atm from my mum -.-...
if not i will be in deep shyt..
hope that everything will be fine soon..

*joshua*
*evAngel

hey look! im blogging =X

2007-01-22T05:55:00.000-08:00

Its Been A LONG time since i blogged...
reasons?? hmm..
camps.. =)... LAZY!

ok enough with the reasons.. serious now...
ok.. guess i've been worrying alot the past few days...
worry about my sheep.. worry about my studies.. worry that the flare in me for god will extinguish.... and i dont want that to happen at all...
i cant wait to shepherd Quan Kai.. i cant wait to see Quan Kai to become a shepherd himself..
during my camp challange from 17/1 to 20/1/07.. i injured my shoulder.. and was sent to the hospital.. lucky for me.. there wasnt any bone fracture or dislocation... but i injured my muscles and joints.. badly..
so... i cant do heavy physical stuff... no 2.4! YAY!...FOCUS!
ya.. and i went for service.. even though my shoulder hurt.. i JUMPED AND CLAPPED LIKE SIAO!
cause i believe my hand will be healed.. i tried to raise up my hand.. though i could not lift it up for too long.. i realise it did not hurt... YIPPEEE!!!
okok! FOCUS!
THUS conclusion.... GOD IS REAL! weee....
okok.. hmmm what else happened??
nothing much i guess...
oh ya.. i would like to ask... why sky is looking at my friendster-.-... dotz...
ok... i would like to thank all my classmates from 326 ! for helping me during the period of time i injured my shoulder!... and i would to thank yk as well! he helped my carry my heavy camp bag and of course keith and jeremiah for caring... and tanks keith and jeremiah for carrying my bag... (cause they hit my shoulder several times....) tank ar... it hurt.. but worth it hor.. =p...

I HAVE BEEN MOTIVATED BY THE FAIRSIANS!
CB3 MUST HIT 21 !

U you
N and
I i
T serving under chrisT
Y hope...

CB3 Is FAT!

F friendly/ faithful
A ambitious/ amiable
T thoughtful

YES! OUR HARVEST WILL REAP! ITS JUST THE MATTER OF TIME!

*evAngel
[joshua]

A great and fun orientation...

2007-01-13T20:32:00.000-08:00

13/1/07

it was sec 1 orientation.. what fun it was... i got to know my group 111(3)...
2 trackers were in my group.. =)...
ok.. the bad thing is that... 111(3) aka group 18 was not co-operative..
the sec1 were all shouting all over the place..
i had to shout my lungs out.. thus.. i injured my throat...
well.. as time went by.. they listened... that was the good thing..
they slowly became more "mature" and were willing to do whatever we told them to do..
next thing u know it.. it was evening... we brought them for the school night trail...
what really shocked me was that they did not know how to sing the school rally..
everyone went wild at that period of time.. and again i had to control them..
of course i was not the only one who tried to control them..
lucky for me.. aaron and harri were there to help me..
when the school clock struck 12.. i started to feel dizzy... my face started to turn pale..
my eyes were red.. i felt extremely cold that i was shivering...
we manage to get the sec 1 to slp.. with them aslp.. we were able to go for our showers..
the water was freezing cold... and after the shower... i was still shivering...
we went back into our classroom and slpt...
i did not have a good slp at all.. i felt extremely cold..
i tossed and turned.. but still i could not slp as it was too cold..
at 3am... i woke up again.. my whole body was burning hot... but i still felt cold in the outside..
i did not want to wake up the other psl.. so i stood up and walked to the toilet..
my leg was weak.. i could not walk properly.. i felt as though i was about to faint..
after the visiting the restroom.. i made my way back to the classroom..
i had to hold onto the side railings so that i will not fall... i tried to slp again.. and i woke up at 5+
i could see a teacher observing the students..
i went back to slp and when i wake up.. the sec 1 were all awake.. aaron and harri were next to me.. everyone went to wash up except me.. i could not stand up at all.. i felt weak..
still.. i tried and went to the washroom and brushed my teeth..
i went back into the classroom and slpt again...
aaron and harri went to look for help and the psf told me to slp...
i was woken up again when some psf and teacher entered the room to check on me..
yup.. i was having a fever...i continued to slp and woke up at 12...
a teacher told me to go back home so i did..
i had to drag myself all the way to the busstop... i called yk to tell him about my condition and that i could not go for service...
i reached home at 3 and slpt again.. i woke up again at 5+ and my sister brought me to the doctor...
haiz.. of all days.. i got to get sick on 13/1/07...

*evAngel
[joshua]

A slack Day In School

2007-01-10T07:35:00.000-08:00

FIRST PERIOD~ MATHS TEST!... ARGH!!! i didnt do 1 question.. wait.. did not COMPLETE.. why? we were given lesser time..
SECOND PERIOD!! PHYSICS HAHAHA JOKE JOKE... AND WORK WORK
THIRD ENGLISH... MORE JOKES!!
FORTH CHEMISTRY... WORK WORK WORK
REcess...
FIFTH RME... SLACK!!
SIXTH SOCIAL STUDIES NO TEXTBOOK AND WORKBOOK WHY?? no more stock.. weee...

eat lunch.. play soccer...

TRACK MEETING... listen... listen listen...
TRACK TRAINING... 10 rounds along the classroom corridoors... JUMPERS ASSEMBLE UPSTAIRS! stretching... 30 PUSH UPS! 20 SIT UPS! 20 JACK KNIVES! 20 LEG RAISE!
jump down the stair and twist ankle -.-....
HUH!! 800m time trail.. WA SIAN!!!.... 2min 49secs... WA DAM SLACK!! haha... and almost had muscle cramp...
slack in canteen.. went home with ashwin.. took lrt to cck haha... go home and do physics graph.. guess what.. NO GRAPH PAPER! die..
did work for jie ying and now im typing wow... slack day right?

*evAngel
[joshua]

2007-01-08T06:50:00.000-08:00

Wo de xin chang shou ge gei ni ting
Let my heart sing a song just for you
Ge ci shi ru ci de tian mi
The lyrics are blissful
Ke shi wo hai xiu wo mei you yong qi dui ni shuo yi ju wo ai ni
But I am too shy to say the words ‘I love you’
Wei shen me ni hai shi bu yan bu yu
Why have you still not spoken
Nan dao (shi) ni bu dong wo de xin
No wonder you don’t understand my heart
Bu guan ni yong shen me fang shi biao ming
No matter what method you use to make it clear
Wo hui dui ni shuo wo yuan yi
I will say to you that I am willing
qian yan wan yu li
all the words that can be said
Zhi you yi ju hua neng biao bai wo de xin
Only one phrase can really represent what my heart wants to say
qian yan wan yu li
all the words that can be said
Zhi you yi ju hua jiu neng gou rang wo men xiang wei xiang yi
only this phrase is capable of letting us be together
wo ai ni ni shi wo de zhu li ye
I love you for you are my juliet
Wo yuan yi bian cheng ni de liang shan bo
I am willing to change into your ‘liang shan bo’ (‘Chinese’ Romeo)
Xing fu de mei yi tian, lang man de mei yi ye
happiness each and every day, romantic each & every night
Ba ai yong yuan bu fang kai I love you
Never let love go for I love you
Wo ai ni ni shi wo de luo mi ou
I love you for you are my romeo
Wo yuan yi bian cheng ni de zhu ying tai
I am willing to change into your ‘zhu ying tai’ (‘Chinese’ Juliet)
Xing fu de mei yi tian, lang man de mei yi ye
happiness each and every day, romantic each & every night
Mei li de ai qing zhu fu zhe wei lai
the beautiful love that we share will bless our future

Wee.. im having homework everyday.. i have to rush all my work.. because i have training! wow..
ok.. i need to do better for my events... MEDALS!!!
and to everyone who thinks that im finding a "replacement" well.. $(*&^%$#@... thx..

a coincidence?

2007-01-07T05:14:00.000-08:00

it was a tough night..
i made my decision when i came to know that you never once loved me...
that u used me as a replacement so that u would forget about her...
that u will never gonna accept me again... the crap about u believing the relationship would be a success... was gone..
i digged into my wallet and took out everything that was related to u...
i kept everything with me to remind myself about u... but i guess its rubbish...
i took out my lighter and burnt everything away..
will i ever regret?.. i guess... no...
the next morning... i was suppose to go to malaysia.. but when i woke up in my father's car..
we were infront of ur house... i thought i was dreaming... but i wasnt...
the hocker centre that u once told me SUCKS was infront of me...
was it a coincidence?... that i've given up my hope being with u... and the next day.. at ur house?
i've erased everything that is links to u...
even ur number... ur image.. ur smile... everything...
everything u've written on... have all been thrown... and i shall not look into the past...
i shall not allow the ghost from the past to haunt me anymore....
i must stand and fight against it..

*evAngel
[joshua]

a huge stone crushing my heart

2007-01-05T07:54:00.000-08:00

Good News:
1) Quan Kai Got Into Queensway! yay! (pls remember to continue study)
2) school is not so boring after all!..
3) i've made new friends!

Bad News:
1) the wierd feeling in me is still there!
2) i've been bitten by many red ants... ouch...
3) my heart feels as though a huge stone crushed on it..
4) i've injured my knee and i cant continue running.. (for now)

Ok... lets see... now that my knee hurts... i cant run.. properly.. my fitness will SUCK.. ok...
WHAT IS MY FREAKING PROBLEM!!!
what is in me that makes my heart ache so much?
homework is gonna be hell... i had to stayed up till 1am to complete my hw...
geography lesson is rather... boring...
im starting to feel emo-ish....!!

somehow.. i feel as though im missing something..
where is that self-confidence that i use to have?
what happened to the forever cheerful joshua?
whats this wierd feeling in me?
whats my problem??
i cant cry anymore!... why?? hmm... I DONT KNOW!!
whats my purpose of writing all this out... hmm... its not to look for someone to pity me..
its just to let out all my emotion... and my feelings...

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight...

I Want Candy!

2007-01-03T07:19:00.000-08:00

I really miss you
There's something that I gotta say
The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone(Somehow)
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life yeah)

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)

Never gone, never far
In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are)
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

5 months have passed.. and counting...

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Walk on broken glass make my way through fire
These are the things I would do for love
Farewell peace of mind kiss goodbye to reason
Up is down the impossible occurs each day
This intoxication thrills me
I only pray it doesn't kill me

The Good And The Bad News

2007-01-01T09:47:00.001-08:00

Good News:
Its 2007! YAY! a new year to start afresh
Bad News:
im 1 year older T.T..
Good News:
Chinese New Year Will Arrive In A Flash!
Bad News:
Have To Suffer A Month Of School first...
Complete Holiday HomeWork ASAP!
Suck Up To The Teacher...
GO FOR TRACK!

there are loads of good news... but with every good news... there are bad news...

yesterday! sinyee, quan kai, june, wei jang and joel slept over at my house... wee...
it was crazy -.-.... we went down to the countdown crap nearby and recieve many GP batteries box... now WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITH THEM!
we had a mini countdown at the corner and went for food.. muahaha..
oh ya.. claire was there too.. but she left early...
we watch the exorcist.. and sin yee and june keep saying that it was not scary at all..
(until disc 2) hahaha... ARGH!!! hahahaha...
i was messing around with quan kai's psp.. and played fifa.. man u! woooohooo..

oh ya.. last service.. quan kai was complaining that he wanted a new bible.. and wanted to buy it..
i cant stand there and do nothing so i rushed of to buy him a bible and wrote a note behind and gave it to him.. when i gave it to him.. i felt happy.. and satisfied.. why?

1) im happy that quan kai wants to be closer to God..
2) quan kai wants to bring alot of his friends to hope (thats a good thing)
3) quan kai wants to be a shepherd by next year! (may i think)
4) he asks more questions about God.. and wants to know how to encourage his friends to come to hope =)

and since we are talking about quan kai..
QUAN KAI U CAN MULTITASK AT NIGHT SIA!
quankai slp-talked.. slp-walked.. slp-POINT.. slp-SHOUT.. and slp... lol..
lucky i was next to him and looking after him.. i was afraid to fall aslp.. incase he do anything stupid...
but his actions are too sudden.. and he always gives me a shock..
and he snores... and breath.. LOUDLY... etc etc...
shocking... o.O...O.o..

haiz.. if quan kai goes to whitly secondary.. i believe that God did that for a reason..
and if he goes to Queensway sec.. than he will stay in central.. and i may be his shepherd..
but well.. God have his life plan all planned out.. and no matter where he goes.. he will still grow spiritually! and that is a good thing =)...

with such "excitements" in my life.. no wonder i feel better now...
though.. i still have some questions in my head.. but i must still remain cheerful..
so that it will not affect OTHERS!~ YES!
GOGOGO!!! JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!

*evAngel
[joshua]

Whats The Problem?

2006-12-29T10:16:00.000-08:00

i realise i've been feeling rather miserable this past few days..
i thought i knew all my problems.. but i guess.. im wrong..
there are somemore problems deep in me that are yet revealed..

my dad in now stopping me from going to church..
what am i suppose to do? sneak out?

for some reason or another... i feel some sorrow within me that cant be released..(tears)

I'm not the kind of guy to fall in love
But baby I've fallen for you
I've fallen like an angel for real
It's the way that you're making me feel
Walking the streets all along
Thinking how much I'm gonna be true
To you

If you held me tonight
That would make things alright
Could you love me
Could you love me
If I held you tonight I would make things alright
Could you trust me
Cause I'm telling you baby

i need to move on!..
i believe that God will help me and give me the strength to perserve...
it may be hard.. but still.. i have to do it!..
if not.. i'll be "trapped" in my ridiculous obsession...

*evAngel
[joshua]

I've made a Deal & I'll Never Regret..

2006-12-28T09:05:00.000-08:00

though i know that my love for you is still deep in my heart but...
I HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT!

im happy that i was able to help my "wife" to get out of his so called "misery"?
but.. who can help to solve mine?

i've sworn to my leader that i will never get myself into anymore bgr!
this few days, i realise some leaders are getting concern about such matters..
i've also realise that my shepherd looks troubled.. what is it that is troubling him?

today, i went to my "wife" .. for?.. house warming! yay!...
who went... hmm.. denise.. cynthia.. abigail.. samantha.. ziya.. johan..trisha.. haha..
and trisha looks more girl-like!.. yahoo! good for her!
first time i met denise -.-... and i realise she wears guys clothing.. but she is not crook.. ok.. lol..
lets see.. cynthia hit my ****... ouch.. abigail grabbed it by accident.. still ouch.. samantha.. hit near it.. still.. ouch.. >.<...
i feel so vulnerable all of a sudden... a sudden sense of insecurity... argh.. and i feel uncomfortable with cynthia.. seriously -.-...

oh ya.. ytd at central ab (informal) FIRST EVER caregroup! we went cycling.. and i fell..
how? i ran next to the bic.. and i fell.. with the bic lending on me.. argh... bad blood...
and ive made new friends from central a! yay!..
lets see if i can remember the nick names i've given them..
ju hua, vampire, angelyn, sunshine, central a, clarie, curly, sherlyna, desert and if im not wrong thats about it...
and ive made a good friend! its clarie! yay..!..

*please tell me if im acting like L*..

ive completed all my work except... english.. the killer.. XD...
actually.. i dont really know how i feel.. i feel like i need my shepherd..

to go away from temptation and stop playing with fire...
i know my weakness... do you?...

*evAngel
[joshua]

MErry CHRISTmas

2006-12-25T07:58:00.000-08:00

Central chalet was real... fun.. ya right... a little.. haha..
lets see.. we played ps2 there.. played fifa street soccer2.. fun..
naruto.. some crappy racing game.. some wierd fight game..
and we played a little soccer.. alot of card games.. and of course.. mafia..
i did not slp at night.. and when it was 7.. i fell aslp.. after eating macdonalds..
i ordered macs and they arrived 2hours plus later -.-...
my friendship with others kinda improved... i love helping out in the kitchen (hazel) haha..
i love the cookies..(cookie monster)... i love the bedroom (taupok)...
and many more... for some reason.. i want to play mafia now.. lol..
alot of crap happened.. but i just dont want to type them out..
but i dare say that i was pissed as well.. due to some people.. -.-...
and i almost faint in the train today.. cool right.. haha... not funny..
lame stories... santa claus.. snowman ... mosquito... raindeer... oldman.. angel -.-...

*evAngel
[Joshua]

My Poor Face (T.T)

2006-12-19T08:00:00.000-08:00
i was hit on the right side of my face for.. i dunno how many times! ouch ouch..
jie ying, clara, desmond, ian, some fairfield people and i went to play pool today!
and jie ying was using the stick to poke my and hit me T.T... clara broke the "curse" by hitting my nose and the tip of the stick hit my eye.. ARGH the chalk -.-...
and ya.. i was assaulted by that ah pei for alot of times.. and she went out to talk on the phone with duno who.. while we had to much fun playing..
after pool.. we went of to tiong and ate at kfc.. cleo took $10 from me and i CANT BUY MY BOOKS! wth.. thx man.. and i have to worry about my hw.. and central camp..
im not even such i can go T.T... ya and they had a mini food fight and some hit strangers.. yup..
we than bought bubble tea and i spit the pearls at clara's hair muahaha.. fun fun fun...
and after that.. everyone went back home leaving jie ying, clara, desmond and i...
we went to popular and clara met her friends.. uh huh.. i asked.. who are they.. and she hit my right cheek REAL HARD TWICE! and hit my eye.. wa VERY PISSED!... i rushed off immediately to the mrt and wanted to go home.. and desmond caught up with me.. than i u-turn and i laughed muahha.. PUNKED!! ya.. but still it hurt... ALOT..
anw.. we went to buy a packet of poker cards and went off to tiong park.. i think im in love with the place le..
and we played SNAP JACK.. I WON haha... and we were sharing ghost stories and we went up the playground and chat..
it was very creepy but we believe that jesus will protect us! AMEN!!
and we had alot of fun.. talking.. we wanted to go off le.. but it rained heavier.. omg...
and i was like argh... nvm nvm.. so we continued chatting..
clara grandparents? i think was waiting for her at the mrt to bring her home(due to the rain)
so we had to rush off.. we walked through puddles of water and got to the mrt..
we manage to get into the train.. and ya.. it was fun la..
we continued to chat on the train and got off at jurong east.. and went back home..
and my dad called again.. now im soooo crapped.. why? my dad refuses to pass me any money le.. haiz.. I NEED MONEY!!! TO BUY BOOKS ARGH!! tomorrow must go training!
wake up at 6.30 baby!! WAKE UP!!! and give me impiration to do my compo!

*evAngel
[Joshua]

Finally I Blog Again

2006-12-16T21:36:00.000-08:00
ahh.. i feel refreshed after breakthrough camp..
YES! i feel God in me.. feel me up!
not only that!.. by attending breakthrough camp i have made more friends!
ok even ppl like celeste and hazel etc etc.. i finally get to hmm.. communicate with them?
everytime i go to church!! i can feel the adrenaline rush in me immediately..!..
God is for real everyone..! experience the joy by attending yhope (singapore) service THIS SATURDAY! if u have any questions.. u can ask me.. =)
when i read keith's blog.. i disagree with him about certain things.. for example.. keith said that we shouldn't spend time anyone more than spending time with God... well.. i disagree with him..
spending time with people around is important as well.. so we should spend the equal amount of time on both God and people.. why? It is said in the bible that we should love the people around us the same as how we love God... Why? we are images of God thus we should love one another..
if we dont spend time with the images of God... the relationship will become bad to worst.. and thus we are not doing what is God telling us to do..

im happy that mark (from barker) is the newest member in our cg! yes!! breakthrough 1000!
CENTRAL AB3! 21!...
and of course i am happy that shawn and evangelyn have join CAB and we are heading for our goal of 55! YES!
and of course a very warm welcome to other ppl who just join hope.. why? THEY ARE PEOPLE WHO WILL BRING US TOWARDS OUR GOAL! BREAKTHROUGH 1000!

oh yes i did a performance during last service and it was a success for both service! WEE!!
and i have finally decided to join usher and im just waiting for my interview >.<...
i want to be involved! and help out in God! YES!!
there is sooo many things i want to say but i dont have the time to do so!
so i will blog another time!

*evANGEL
[joshua]

Its Still Getting From Bad To Worst

2006-12-08T01:56:00.000-08:00
im not sure what kind of *#%#$@# relatives i got..
when i thought all problems will slowly be resolves...
I THINK IM WRONG!!
why>? the most shyt news came out ytd.. that BOTH my grandfather have cancer
and the relatives on my father side pay only a small amount.. AND WHO IS THE ONE PAYING?
take a wild guess... US! the best part is that my dad have many siblings..
and they all pay a very small amount.. and my dad have to burn a whole in his pocket -.-..
NOT ONLY THAT!... my dad is also the one who is PAYING for the maid taking care of my grandfather..
ok.. enough about my dad's side.. now.. my mum's side...
due to the amount of money spent on my grandfather's hospital bill...(father's side)
we still have to pay for my grandma & grandpa (mum side) bills..
grandma is now very weak.. she have been suffering alot.. we have to hire a nurse to care for her..
and with the recent news of my grandpa's cancer.. we have to worry.. why?.. the money DUH!!

i hope everything will end soon... haiz...

yesterday.. i went out with my primary school friends... those who were in 4/6..
and i realise i was the only boy.. great... who went?
xing ya, olivia, odilia (dressed like aunty), vivian (still as fair as a pontianak), jocelyn(looked so wierd) and my pri form teacher miss wong..
and we watched happy feet... and i will laughing like a maniac(as usual)..
and i took my very first neoprint... well girls being girls.. they of course will mess up the pic...
they spend 40mins decorating the picture.. and of course since im the only boy..
they bully me... T.T... now have to wait for miss wong to send us the pictures..
i think i have gastric pain... why? ive been skipping meals... life is soooo screwed up..
my popcorn was assaulted by toddlers who have never seen popcorn in their life...
they are the girls... haha... vivian keep on dropping the scissors on the table.. smart..

oh ya.. ive been playing sims.. wow?... love my family..(in sims).. oh ya.. i trapped my friend by accident and my friend died... the dam tombstone is at the side of the house -.-..
ok.. i think emo-punk is a dam good thing... if u know me... u will know that i will be fun to be with at some time.. and the rest of the time.. i wont be..

[emo-punk]
Joshua

Staying At Home -.- ...

2006-12-06T08:19:00.000-08:00
ok.. after going out since the day i came back from china... i realise.. i have no more money.. -.-..
my dad quarrelled with me and THATS WHY I DONT WANT TO OPEN UP TO HIM..
life is SO wonderful...

what can i do now? since im at home all the time.. hmm..
play basketball... with? me myself and i...
oh ya.. i forgotten that im sick.. who cares!
since im still gonna stay at home tomorrow..
oh ya.. i have tuition tomorrow.. WHO CARES!
if only i start dancing again.. nvm..

missed cg today.. -.-.. sorry..

will there be floorball this friday?..
not sure.. hmm..
dont even know who is in the team for floorball..
well.. as in i've nv heard of their name..

i feel like exploding anytime!
so.. dont disturb me..
freaking pissed.. with many things.. nvm..
i will just pretend i know nothing..
acting friendly is so hard.. daoing is the best..

if only i could disappear for a day.. if only.. if only..

AAAARrGHGHGH!!!

AM I OUT OF MY MIND!...

just hope than my leg will heal before church camp... -.-...

[emo-punk]
Joshua

Blame Me If I Dont Want To Talk..

2006-12-04T07:34:00.000-08:00
If you realise.. i dont like to some people.. and when i dont..
they will disturb me.. -.-.. well.. this is to those who i dont talk to..
Dont Come And Test Me.. -.-"...

Oh Ya.. Another Thing.. Those who love to hit my back..
well.. i have a few marks on my back cause people just love to hit my back..
and it really hurts.. if someone hits my back again -.-...
dont blame me if i take revenge by smacking your back..

Maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
Or maybe that's only my fear
If just for one day I wish I could disappear
Just take me far from here
Maybe I'd find out nothing new
Maybe I'd end up just like you

There's no solution (no solution)
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion (my confusion)
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?

The constant pressure that keeps hanging over me (hanging over me)
It makes me feel so empty
It's more than anything that I could ever be (I could ever be)
What else could you take from me
It's getting harder to relate
Don't want to make the same mistakes

There's no solution (no solution)
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion (my confusion)
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?

It took me so long to find out it's right
There in front of me
Too close to see
What I thought was true
I see right through what's killing you

There's no solution (I can see)
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion (that I feel)
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?

So maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
Or maybe that's only my fear (Am I out of my mind?)
If just for one day I wish I could disappear
Just take me far from here (Am I out of my mind?)

Whats Real Love?

2006-12-01T18:01:00.000-08:00
Title: Whats Real Love?

tian tian dou xu yao ni ai,
wo de xing shi you ni cai,
I love you,
wo jiu shi yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jing cai

tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian
dao di shen me shi zhen ai
I love you
dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai

shi wo men gang qing feng fu tai kang kai
hai shi shang tian ang pai
shi wo men ben lai jiu shi na yi ban
hai shi she bu de tai guai
shi na yi chi yue ding le mei you lai
rang wo ku de xiang xiao hai
shi wo men ji zhe zheng ming wo chun zai
hai shi bu ai hui fa dai

baby
bu de bu ai, bu zhi kuai le chong he er lai,
bu de bu ai, fang xia bei shang chong her er lai,
bu de bu ai, fou zhi wo jiu shi qu wei lai

hai xiang shen me you qi bu neng zhi ji shi bai
ke shi mei tian dou guo de jing cai
tian tian dou xu yao ni ai wo de xing zhi you ni zai
I love you
wo jiu shi yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jing cai

tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian
dao di shen me shi zhen ai
I love you
dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai

RAP :
I ask gal fren how you been
lai qu le ji hui
wo chong lai mei you xiang guo ai qing hui bian de ru chi wu nai,
shi ming yun ma, nan dao nan guo shi shang tian de an pai,
mei ban fa,
tian tian de mei tian de xing shi dao di you shui lai pei,
wo cheng xin, ni cheng yi
dan zhou wei rao ren huan jin shi zhong rang wo men wu fa zai zhi li
zhi you xiang lian
wo jin cai, ni fa dai,
liang ke xin bu an de yao bai,
ying gai you de wei lai,
shi fou zhen ne na me wu fa qi dai
she bu de zai shang hai,
you're my girl my girl my friend
how much I love you so so much
kan zhe ni ai chou
yao wo ru he zhen me cheng shou mian dui
I'm sorry you're my sweetheart
my love
my one and only baby

hui bu hui you yi dian wu nai
hui bu hui you yi dian tai kuai
ke shi ni gei wo de ai
rang wo yang cheng le yi lai
xing zhong chong man ai de jie pai

tian tian dou xu yao ni ai
wo de xing shui you ni zai
I love you
wo jiu shi yao rang ni mei tian dou jing cai

tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian
dao di shen me shi zhen ai
I love you
dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai
(bu de bu ai)

when i was in china.. i used some time to write out the song lyrics of a song..
cause i cant find the lyrics.. so if the chinese hanyu pin ying is wrong.. sry..

ru guo gei ni zhi you na me duo
ni hui bu hui fan er ai shang wo
ru guo dui ni ai de tai duo
hui bu hui rang zi ji gen ji mo

yao shi dui ni she me dou bu shuo
ni you mei you nie xin den dai wo
ai qin zhe ge you xi she me dou bu zuo jiu bu hui zuo

yong bao bei ren you duo me hao guo
gei ren yong bao shi fou gen kuai huo
xuan zhe wu shen bu xi bao zhi chen me hai shi ni yuan ai de cai shuo

ke neng wo men
da gai wo men hai mei you zun bei
zhun bei zhe me chen shou nan guo
zhao dao ai ni de yuan ying ying wei er bu xiang kan dao le jie guo

liang ge ren yi tian dou wan tan lian ai ke shi shi shuai liao jie she me cai she ai
ru guo ba yi qie shuo ming bao you xi jiu bu jing cai
gan dong de xin jiu hui ting bai
mei ge ren zhi xiang hao hao tan lian ai you mei you xiang xiang liang ge ren de wei lei
wo ji daier wang le xian zai de ni hai shi li kai xian zai wo duo me xi huan ni liu gei ni cai

ru guo gei ni zhi you na me duo
ni hui bu hui fan er ai shang wo
ru guo dui ni ai de tai duo
hui bu hui rang zi ji gen ji mo

yao shi dui ni she me dou bu shuo
ni you mei you nie xin den dai wo
ai qin zhe ge you xi she me dou bu zuo jiu bu hui zuo

yong bao bei ren you na me hao guo
gei ren yong bao shi fou gen kuai huo
xuan zhe wu shen bu xi bao zhe chem me hai shi ni yuan ai de cai shuo

ke neng wo men da
gai wo men hai mei you zun bei
zun bei zhe me chen shou nan guo
zhao dao ai ni de yuan ying yin wei er bu xiang kan dao le jie guo

liang ge ren yi tian dou wan tan lian ai ke shi shi shuai liao jie she me cai shi ai
ru guo ba yi qie shuo ming bai you xi jiu bu jing cai
gan dong de xin jiu hui ting bai
mei ge ren zhi xiang hao hao tan lian ai you mei you xiang xiang liang ge ren de wei lei
wo ji daier wang le xian zai xian zai de ni hai shi li kai xian zai de wo zai yu zhi hui lei ke neng shi wo zhu dong li kai xian zai wo duo me xi huan ni liu gei ni cai

[dead]
Joshua

1 day with my sister

2006-12-01T08:00:00.000-08:00
Title: 1 day with my sister

yay.. first of all.. MY INTERNET IS FIXED!!! YES!!
wait.. to some confused ppl they will be thinking.. when did it spoil?...
well.. when i was in china my sister spoiled the modem..
when i came back she told me no more internet.. T.T...
oh ya.. for the record.. IM BROKE!...
why u ask? well.. i bought 4 pair of shoes... thats why... thanks thanks...

oh ya back to the title.. 1 day with my sister...
it was about 11am.. i asked my sister if she wanted lunch.. (btw she was slping)
and she said scream... i was like huh? scream?
as in S-C-R-E-A-M? and she nodded her head...
and i said u dont want lunch and she shaked her head.. wow?...
after lunch i went to slp.. and my sister woke me up 12 mins later...
we went to her school and did some crap.. oh ya.. we took a taxi...
and while waiting for the taxi.. i had to buy 2 fishcake and 2 bubbletea and run back to the bubbletea shop why? cause i drop my straw "yippee"!... (ya right)
and after that.. we went to sim lim to buy the router for my internet.. and before that..
we went shopping... i wanted a sweater and i regretted not buying it T.T...
anw.. we went for afternoon tea and went to mdis cause my sister teacher wants to tell her somethings...
and after that.. i came home.. wow!... and alot of things happened... it is just that im lazy..

and i have a wife! =).. my wife is marcus wee!
bf's foreva! =)...
and have been out with ex-ants.. alot.. and i LIKE IT!.. haha..
oh ya.. and dont forget samantha and abigail as well.. haha.. cya

[fu*ked]
joshua

My Last Post Before China Trip...

2006-11-18T22:05:00.000-08:00
(Let's go!)
(Yeah! Alright!)

Walking through the terminal
I saw something beautiful
You left, for your duty call
Next I'm getting on the plane
That's when I see you again
I can't get you off my brain

(Let's go)
That uniform you're wearing
So hot I can't stop staring
You're putting on an awesome show
The cabin pressure's rising
My coke has got no ice in now

[Chorus:]
Air hostess
I like the way you dress
Though I hate to fly
But I feel much better
Occupied my mind
Writing you a love letter
I messed my pants
When we flew over France
Will I see you soon
In my hotel room
For a holiday romance?
Air hostess

Throwing peanuts down the aisle
Stupid but it made you smile
You came over for a while
Then you whispered in my ear
The words that I longed to hear
"I want you to thrill me here"

You can't because you're working
The paparazzi's lurking
You didn't know I'm in a band
In England people know me
One photo's worth a hundred grand

[Chorus:]

Air hostess
I like the way you dress
Though I hate to fly
But I feel much better
Occupied my mind
Writing you a love letter
I messed my pants
When we flew over France
Will I see you soonIn my hotel room
For a holiday romance?
Air hostess

Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na

That uniform you're wearing
So hot I can't stop staring
You're putting on an awesome show
The plane has almost landed
So tell me where I'm standing now

[Chorus:]
Air hostess
I like the way you dress
Though I hate to fly
But I feel much better
Occupied my mind
Writing you a love letter
I messed my pants
When we flew over France
Will I see you soon
In my hotel room
For a holiday romance?
Air hostess

Cos' you're my air hostess
I love the way you dress
Air hostess
My air hostess
I love the way you dress
Air hostess

Chorus:
Oh baby I'm missing you
We used to love so strong
Tell me where did we go wrong
Oh baby I'm missing you
They say I'll learn to forget
But it sure ain't happened yet

Been checkin' out the places
Where we used to go (used to go)
And looking for your face inside the crowd
I've been talkin' to the people that we used to know
But nobody wants to say where you hang out
And when I call your phone
Seems like you're never ever home
And you don't return my calls (return my calls)
It tears me apart, it's breakin' up my heart

(Repeat chorus)

I still have your pictures hung around my room
It's the only thing that's left of you and me
Girl what can I do to let you come back soon
And make it just the way it used to be
Or is there someone new
I can never go on without you
Girl I don't wanna think about it (think about it)
I can't sleep at night (I can't sleep at night)
Oh this can't be right (This can't be right)
Come back into my life (come back, baby, come back)

(Repeat chorus)

I know there's a chance for you and I
And I believe there's no way our love could die
So no matter how long it takes I'll wait for you
And whatever it takes I'll be there for you
I'll be there... I'll be there

(Repeat chorus 2x)

What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

[Chorus ]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible (Wait..I already am)

I saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

[Chorus ]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man If I was invisible (Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm screaming
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

[ Repeat Chorus ]

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

(Repeat chorus)

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

(Repeat chorus)

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

8 Days In ShangHai..

2006-11-18T07:13:00.000-08:00
argh.. im going shanghai tomorrow T.T...
i dun wanna leave!... i hope that the ppl in the tour aren't old ppl -.-...
have been thinking alot recently... ya... haiz.. okok.. want to know? ask me and i'll tell u

Today was sooo much FUN! but... very tiring...
WHY?? cause we helped out at st anthony's primary!..
our primary school =)... and tended the prize redemtion stall...
sooo many parents... sooo many little children!...
and just within 1hour... half of the gundam toys vanish 0.O...
oh ya.. abigail and samantha tay came as well =)...
ya... so.. since marcus, trish and i weren't doing morning shift...
we went to cdans to play laser quest!(SAMANTHA IS QUEST NOT CREST~!)
but it was booked from 11-6... why? there will be 2 "party" held there...
so marcus trish loy samantha abigail isabelle and i went for bowling!... BUT samantha and abigail bailed..
they sat on the chair (well... abigail sat on the chair while samantha sat on the floor) and watched -.-..
abigail kept on taking my phone -.- sending songs... T.T... stupid motorolla phone... take so long to send things...
bought hot chocolate... haha.. and played... and trish and i tie =)... i anyhow play also can 113.. pro la...
after that... we went back to school to tend the stall...

AND WHILE I WAS TENDING TO A PARENT EUGENE SPRAYED MY HAIR AND....

MY HAIR!! EUGENE CHU!!! THANKS LA!!! blue green yellow.... omg...
after 9 hours of tending the stall!... we went out yay! before that! GROUP PHOTO!... not really..

wo tou tou take de >.<
after that... we went to westmall ate at sakesushi... (think i spell wrong)
ANYWAY!! we went there and lynn nexx trish loy and marcus were laughing like siao cause of my jokes..

(Left: trish, lynn & nexx)
and i took the wasabi and it looked like shit...

... looks like some green muffin... agree? haha..

and cause of my yellowish green hair... i became the hulk...
u wouldnt like me when im angry... haha...
we bought ice cream.. hanged around at the mrt and went back home...
hope that my pri school friend will organise a chalet =)...
and joanne! i finally got ur hotmail right!... haha.. okok.. and thx for the verse =)..
man.. i feel sooo exhausted.. but still.. im gonna play.. for awhile though.. haha..
and Happy Birthday To Jessie In Advance... Since Im Going To ShangHai..
21st november 2006... yes... Jessie Turns 13... haha...

Joshua
[exhausted]

prank calls.. late night calls.. screwed up..

2006-11-15T21:06:00.000-08:00
have been having family issues la..
there are somethings that i just cant say ba...
and i was surprised when my dad know i was having a relationship long ago...
he even know when i broke up...
i realised why... he have been reading all my letters!..
crap.. but what surprised me most was that he was cool with it..
am i dreaming?...
talked to my dad last time.. this is the first time i open up to him..
telling him my problems.. ever since i've join hope church..
for some reason or another... i feel at ease... a little..
trying to build up my confidence.. & everything again..
funny thing is.. samantha smsed me about me and if i've forgotten about my ex..
ON THE DAY I WAS SAYING EVERYTHING OUT...
woah.. and oh ya.. and samantha said she visits my blog often... woah..
and i thought no one comes to my blog -.-.. sian..
well.. samantha... about when is zachary's birthday... i will try to find out ^^...

oh ya... there's floorball tomorrow yay!... but some idiot booked at night T.T...
so yk booked on the afternoon 1-3... after floorball.. i have to rush off to saps..
for some meeting something liddat... argh...
anyways... ya.. my sister is like stressed out with her work.. so... i better keep quiet and let her study...
since her exams are coming... poor thing.. >.<...
ya.. i kinda had a shocked last night la.. ya... did some prank calls.. saying im from kfc...
ya.. and talked to someone at night... and apparently something unexpected happened..
and now i feel rather confused... and not sure what to do...
have not been going out now adays.. did not go for cg ytd.. sad..

and my dad is requesting that i change church..
ya.. even my sister does not encourage me to go for church activities..
going of to shang hai this sunday... the only impression i have about this trip is...
old people.. boring... horny jokes...(by the elders)... business talks.. long trips.. headache.. etc etc..
ARGH!! oh ya.. today i did a big game.. and it was x8 den if i dont have any cool and bad for audition...
and last but not least 15 perf and above.. I DID IT!!! YAY... 1k++ $$ muahaha
BUT there was another big game.. no cool no bad.. 20 perf.. and i had 19 PERFECTS NO!!! ONE MORE ONLY!!
sad sad.. miscalculated... -.-...
oh ya.. i have a nice blog skin right?
i find the image <<>

joshua
[take the lead]

Are You Thinking Of Me? Cause Im Thinking Of You

2006-11-14T05:26:00.000-08:00
Baby set me free from this misery
I can't take it no more
Since you ran away, nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am, so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Chorus:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you, want you, need you so
Until you're back here baby, yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

So I told you lies, even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you, now my love is true
This is where my heart belongs
Cuz here I am, so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
(repeat chorus)

Bridge:
And I wonder
Are you thinkin of me
Cuz I'm thinkin of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life
Cuz here I am, so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Chorus to fade out

[Verse 1:]
Come with me, stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin' don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game (You know it's just too little too late)
So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone

[Hook:]
And you know
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Verse 2:]
I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help

[Hook:]
Cause ya know it's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Bridge:]
I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live, yeah oh

[Breakdown:]
It's just too little too lateYeeeeeeah!!!

[Hook Til Fade:]
It's just too little, too late
Yeah it's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Joshua]
Hurt..

Chains Of Unfortunate Events..

2006-11-13T07:49:00.000-08:00
Is Life Suppose To Be So Hard?
I Broke Up From A Relationship Before An Exam..
Studying Seemed To Be A Problem To Me..
Memories flashes in my head...
i cant do anything but cry..

my exams are here..
everyone is all excited..
discussing about their subjects..
i still feel the pain and sorrow..
the results came out..
i did badly.. everyone is happy no matter what..
i felt miserable.. but i could still see some hope..

days before the posting..
i manage to keep my results away from my head..
my parents limited my money usage..
everyone seemed to be far away from me..
though i seem happy but i aint..
i cried out my sorrow.. when i thought everything was going to be fine..
well.. they turn out worst..

i was posted to the last class.. knowing that i only can take elective geog..
and no full humans... i felt ashamed..
everyone i knew from church everywhere were doing much better than me..
psl camp was the only thing that made me happy..
buy whenever someone asked me about my posting..
i felt the pain in my heart again..
the fun we had were only temporary..

after my ace camp.. i realised that my grandpa was hospitalised...
now my dad tells me that the doctor says that there is 90% chance that he have cancer..
i went for his birthday celebration.. and we had fun..
but i could not bare to see my grandpa suffer..
he wasnt willing to stay in the hospital at all..
the day before his birthday..
he repeatedly called for the doctor... requesting that he was to be released immediately...
the doctor did not have any choice but the allow him to be released...

the last night of psltc..
i was talking to deon...
deon told me about his relationship...
i shared him mine as well.. i tried to make it sound funny..
but i couldnt.. i wanted to burst into tears...
but i cant!... not infront of him..
i did not want anyone to know how i really feel..

when i come back from psltc... my parents...
instead of being supportive.. and instead of encouraging me..
they keep scolding me..
saying that other ppl do better than me..
saying that now im still in the last class.. im happy about it...
they will not only repeat it once... nor twice... but serveral times..
all my friends have advanced... and im still left behind..
everytime i see their happy faces.. i pei fu them..
keith... he have been doing well.. everyone seem to like talking to him...
jemeriah...he makes everyone happy with his jokes... no one will be miserable with him...
i on the other hand... cant do a shyt... lame lame lame me... i cant really do much...

i feel that life is not really that meaningful anymore..
i feel left out... the only thing that can make me happy... are my games...
and other stuff... sometimes i feel lke opening up... but i cant..
my heart have solidified and is now cold..
all i can feel now is pain... sorrow.. misery...
ppl will say that i cry all the time..
ppl see that i always play and am not bothered about my studies...
even my parents...
i play games to try to bring myself out of reality...
my heart is bleeding... does anyone know that?...
anyone knows how i feel?...
i dont have the guts to talk to my friends now...

now all i can do.. is hope and pray..
that i will be able to be successful in my appeal...
the chances are not high.. i know that..
my hopes are low... my heart is dry...
i go around telling ppl not to think of death..
but i keep telling myself that i want to die..

i have a ridiculous obsession of love..
i know that being back together with the person i love is not going to happen
its like the smart and the dum..
beauty and the beast..
images of me being run down by a car is often..
yk tells me that when god is by my side... who will oppose me?...
well.. i doubt those words often...
my life is getting from bad to worst...
a steep slope... down to hell...
stepped on... crushed... smashed.. and left aside...

now.. without even the slightest will power and courage...
im going for my appeal interview...
tomorrow...

Is There Anyone Out There Who Can Help Me Get Back My Heart...
Willpower... Strength..

Ive Given You My Heart.. But U Preferred Someone Else's...

听回忆呼吸
长达一世纪
脑海中都是你
冷瘦瘦城市里
像无声的电影
让孤单教我演戏
幻想我可以把时间倒回去
那时候我们才相遇
也许我没搭上爱情的时光器
可是我永远不会忘记

爱你第一个原因就是你的安静
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆
我爱你别忘记

我思念着段过去没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后我心中有你

听回忆呼吸
长达一世纪脑海中都是你
冷瘦瘦城市里
像无声的电影
让孤单教我演戏
幻想我可以把时间倒回去
那时候我们才相遇
也许我没搭上爱情的时光器
可是我永远不会忘记

爱你第一个原因就是你的安静
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆
我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后我心中有你~ Woohoo

爱你第一个原因就是你的安静
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆
我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后我心中有你 Woohoo

永不忘记

just cant get u out of my head...

the highlight is... THE JEM

2006-11-09T05:41:00.000-08:00
We were On The Escalator.. And Yk Just Shouted ARgh!.. "what happen??" THE ESCALATOR ATE MY SLIPPER!
Thank God That Wasnt His Toes..
Mirror Mirror Hanging On The Wall... Eh? Sry... Wrong Song..
Look Into My Eyes! See The Pimples??
Wass up!... lol... Jem The Man... Count The No. Of Pimples... haha
Stick Out Your Tongue Jem!!!
Lol... Jem And His Flakes?... ITS SNOWING!~

Look At His... FOLDING TONGUE??? Oh And Dont Forget His Eyes... Lol..

Jem And His CC Biscuit... Look Into His Creppy Eyes!!!

Long Time No Blog? crap...

2006-11-06T19:48:00.000-08:00
i decided not to blog...
1st reason: lazy
2nd reason: too many things to blog about (ask me about whats happening)
3rd reason: im not in the mood to blog

oh ya... since i nv blog about birthdays... well...
happy belated birthday to keith and jin qi... ya..
though i've said it to u.. but stilll .. happy birthday..
(jinqi dont lose the balloon again)
MOVIE SPREE! CAMPS! ARGH!! & MORE

ROXANNE...You don't have to put on that red light
Walk the streets for money
You don't care if it's wrong of if it is right
ROXANNE...You don't have to wear that dress tonight
ROXANNE...You don't have to sell your body to the night

His eyes upon your face
His hand upon your hand
His lips caress your skin
IT'S MORE THAN I CAN STAND!

Why does my heart cry?
Feelings I cant fight!
Your free to leave me but
Just don't deceive me!
And please believe me when I say
I LOVE YOU!!!

Spanish: Yo que te quiero tanto, que voy a hacer? ( And I who love you so much; what am I going to do? )
Me dejaste...me dejaste como una paloma ( You left me...you left me like a dove )
El alma se me fue; se me fue el corazon ( My soul has left me; my heart has left me )
Ya no tengo ganas de vivir porque no te puedo convencer ( I no longer wish to live because I cannot convince you )
Que no te vendas, Roxanne ( Not to sell yourself, Roxanne. )

Why does my heart cry?
ROXANNE!...You don't have to put on that red light (background)
Feelings I can't hide!
ROXANNE!...You don't have to wear that dress tonight(background)
Why does my heart cry?
ROXANNE!...You don't have to put on that red light(background)
Feelings I can't fight!
ROXANNE!...You don't have to wear that dress tonight(background)
ROXANNE!
ROXANNE!

You're one in a million
Oh
Now
You're one in a million
Oh

Sometimes love can hit you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
But only one can really make me stay
A sign from the skySaid to me

[Chorus]
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
A smile, there you were and I was gone
I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me
Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

[Chorus x 2]

In the beginning I was cool and everything was possible
They tried to catch me but it was impossible
No one could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and you were the same
And when you didn't want me I wanted you because
The funny thing about it is I liked the show
I like it when its difficult
I like it when its hard
Then you know its worth it
That you found your heart

[Chorus x 2]

You're one in a million
Oh
You're one in a million

It isnt a crime to want
A little space to breathe
But you will be fine
The sun again will shine on you
Whatever you do

[Chorus]
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here when you change your mind
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here for you baby
AnytimeIm feeling you pull away
'cause letting go isnt easy for me
But you'll never fly
With someone elses wings, I know
Wherever you go

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never stand in your way
Wherever your heart may lead you
I will love you the same
And I will be your comfort every day
Do you hear the words I say?

[Repeat Chorus]

Freedom! Beauty! Truth! Love!

2006-10-30T07:08:00.000-08:00
The Greatest Thing.. You'll Ever Learn.. Is Just To Love.. And Be Love In Returnn...

Love Is Like Oxygen.. Love Is A Many Splendid Thing.. Love Lifts Us Up Where We Belong.. All We Need Is Love..

My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody that this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

I sat on the roof and I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well, they...they got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see, I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

ACE CAMP HERE I COME!! hope nothing happens XD...
face all obsticles.. well at least they will distract me and my attention will be focus else where... =)

tell everybody im on my way
new friends and new places to see
with blue skies ahead yes im on my way
and theres no where else that id rather be

tell everybody im on my way
and im loving every step i take
with the sun beating down yes im on my way
and i cant keep this smile off my face
cause theres nothing like seeing eachother again
no matter what the distance between
and the stories that we tell will make you smile
oh it really lifts my heart

so tell them all that im on my way
new friends and new places to see
and to sleep under the stars who could ask for more
with the moon keeping watch over me
not the snow not the rain can change my mind
the sun will come out wait and see
and the feeling of the wind in your face can lift your heart
no theres no where i would rather becuz im on my way now

well and truly
im on my way now
im on my way now
im on my way now
im on my way now

tell every body im on my way
and i just cant wait to be there
with the blue skies ahead yes im on my way
and nothing but good times to share
so tell eveybody im on my way
and i just cant wait to be home
with the sun beating down yes im on my way
and nothing but good times to show
im on my way

YES IM ON MY WAY!!!

Never know i could feel like this
Like i've never seen the sky before
i want to vanish inside your kiss
everyday i love you more and more

listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
telling me to give you everything
seasons may change winter to spring
but i love you until the end of time

come what may
come what may
i will love you
until my dieing day

suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
suddenly my life doesn't seem much a waste
it all revolves around you

and there's no mountain too high
no river too wide
sing out this song
i'll be there by side

storm clouds may gather
and stars may collide
but i love you i love you until the end of time

come what may
come what may
i will love you until my dieing day

oh come what may
come what may....
i will.. love you
i will love you
suddenly the world seem like a perfect place

come what may
come what may
i will love you until my dieing days

Year Of The Jubilee..

2006-10-28T21:53:00.001-07:00
Everyone will be able to have a chance in the year of the jubilee..
everyone can start afresh..
in finance.. in relationships.. etc etc...
is it really true?..
paster say that this year is the year of jubilee..
i doubt so.. and if it is true.. well.. i wish that i will be able to start afresh..
and forget about everything.. and just go for my studies..
screw the relationships.. it always ends at the wrong time and my results go poof...

throughout the whole service i've been asking myself questions..hmm.. makes me think
but it affected my mood.. but suddenly i had energy to jump at the back part of service!..
must be the sweets.. XD..
OK! lets go eat!.. AUNTY!!! KIMCHI FRIED RICE!!! hahax..
than go drink store.. and bought drinks.. blah blah.. and ate.. ya..
wa lao.. YAM PIE!! hahax..
dun have le T.T... okok... ate finish.. what! have to look for zachary in orchard! OMG!
argh.. search search... and melvin bought a weird drink from coffee bean.. taste like fried banana..
finally after 1hour? of walk! we found zachary! our prize? $9... wow.. went cold storage and bought drinks...
and i went off to bukit batok... teresa asked me to eat with her friend... and ok lor..
went to kfc.. her friend ar.. wa lao... mute ar???
can PLEASE!!! talk...
silent meal... hahax.. and she will all of a sudden laugh for no reason.. dotz..
dam stupid la... became pissed.. and just went off after the meal...
came back.. played with jinqi and church ppl dota..
wait a min.. before that i played audition =P..
cleo.. can log in wad... why u cannot!... OH YA!! u have to go sign up for something.. go to www.auditionsea.com to look at one of the notice.. there got write what u must do..
ya.. ok.. and oh ya.. after that kiwi webcam me.. -.-..
and ya dam stupid.. teresa wanted to call.. but nv call.. make me wait for no one.. -.-
and played dota with ah jiang and his sister and sis bf.. ya.. and ya.. can trash de..
but ah jiang.. be more alert of who is behind u... so easy get backstabbed..
dotz... -.-... ya.. and played silent hill with ah jiang and his sis bf... but got dc...dam..
connection low le -.-... okok.. GO SLP!
and early in the morning jessie call me.. wake me up! wth.. i slpt dam late excuse me!...

finally i got back my track suit!

2006-10-25T07:17:00.000-07:00
YES!!! I GOT THE DAM TRACK SUIT LE!! eh.. surprise surprise... i got the what? **** colours award.. school de... funny... argh... want to ponn training!! go for that peter pan and azlan from narnia talk la... ( lol is the world no1 and no12 players for squach) ya.. a QNA with them.. ya.. they want to BOOOOOOST our cca... and blah blah.. thus all sportmen had to attend.. joshua wong!! STOP GAYING!! eh eh.. no touching... ( i have a question to ask both of u.. ya.. u gay?)
lolx.. shoben go and ask wad.. what are urplans after retiring... and a stupid sec 3 dude went to ask some stupid question and his body language was dam bad... and the teachers were dam pissed with him... ya.. go for training!... stupid joshua samuel and eugene ponn training again -.-..
go what gym!... anw.. did 3.5k again!... sian na! and what we are going to keep doing this for the next 3 weeks or so? omg.. yes train our cardio but not keep doing the same things right! something new pls! like hello??? YES RAIN DOWN!!! MY HEART IS DRY AND STILL IM (SHUT UP LA) oh ok.. stretching! no relay! yipee!!! tired liao!!! lalalala.. omg.. the rain is still poaring! omg is that kwang ming!~ YES!! omg cool cool.. chat a little ya.. and rain under the rain back and forth... brandon dad brought me back.. ya thx uncle.. yup.. and track suit! yipee!! miss 212 ! sob sob! lets go out! no gym -.-.. gay ass..

my feelings are a mess.. it screwed up my results and i did badly..
things im not suppose to do badly turn out very bad..
i cant continue this.. i must get things right...
i dun want to continue screwing myself..
i feel bad enough when ppl compares their results...
i may look happy outside.. but im crying in the inside..

i may be high and active.. but im lost...

not all love last a long time

2006-10-24T07:06:00.000-07:00
oh yay.. i forgotten what happened on sunday.. wow..
i think my memory is getting bad to worst.. for duno what reason?..
all i remember was that i played audition.. and was quarreling with someone about the psi value..
and someone said that only talk busniess with someone if the psi value was below 70...
and met someone named KIWI in audition..
ns to meet u durian.. hahax..
cleo my audition partner!
23/10/06
AH HA!!! psi value below 70!!! jacko!!.. huh? and why are you feeling upset???
anyone who needs a listening ear can come look for me!
tsktsk.. dont want to talk to somebody la...
morning ask weird questions... than dun want to talk to me.. ok lor..
blame me la.. my fault la..
ALL RIGHT TRAINING RESUMES!~!
muahahaha!!! ran 3.5k baby!!! and not even tired!!!
WA!!! hahaha and ran in the rain thus everyone was soaked...
no wonder not tired... WHO WANT TO RUN ANOTHER 3.5k!!! I DO!!!
hahax XD...
hello? cleo ar? PLAY AUDITION!!!
eh KC PLAY WITH ME!! wtheck! im playing dam badly..!!! nvm... win kc can le..
hello? hello? what no money le? okok... call u...
huh? what? ok ba.. i also want to slp.. huh.. okok.. bb.. lol

24/10/06
wake up... huh who put $50 on my table? nvm got money liao...
wa sian!! cleo sure outside cannot play audi... HUH BOWLING?? wth.. nvm..
kc!! why must go cemetry?? haiz... edmund answer the blooody phone!!
JARROLD DONT GO OUT!! NO!!
haiz... rot.. should i buy A-cash for audi.. na waste my money...
eh AH JIANG GO OUT WITH ME! YAY!!
go lot 1 erm.. can i have mc spicy meal upsize take away.. ah jiang go whose place to eat?.. okok
*scissors paper stone* i win! my place than -.-...
munch munch... forget it.. go ur place... wa... dun wan watch naruto la.. eh play ps.. winning eleven..
GOAL!! muahahah... shyt i lost!... nvm!
eh play dota! muahahha stupid!! argh!! worst dota match in my life -.-"...
eh another soccer game? ok... play play.. play bball ba.. okok.. eh what time le? HUH 9+++!! SHYT...
nvm go 24hr kopitiam eat hokkian mee ba...
wa so packed.. ta bau eat at void deck.. talk talk talk...
dad call le.. guess i need to go home.. ok bb!... help me dl naruto! thx!!! =)

my "love" for u is weak.. while my "love" for you* is strong..
someone messed up my mind..
***********************************************************************************
feel so crapped.. tomorrow is going to be the last day as 212/2006...
gonna miss all.. well.. some.. ok.. maybe a few... shhhh....
daniel ns haircut hahax!...
joshua wong u gay! stop molesting ievan! OI STOP HUMPING HIM!!
samuel stop ponning training la.. idiot.. everytime act as though i nv tell him got training..
trackers unite!!! WE MUST WIN NEXT YEAR! ARRRRR!!
CLEO PLAY AUDITION!! (=!!! XD...
kc u dont look bald damnit.. daniel looks bald.. HAHA...
john.. dont think u very cool la.. show what attitude to me.. i asked for ur passport.. and u go play with your hair... no one likes ur hair la...
aaron... love ya! best friends foreva!... and oh ya.. BABU BABU! lol.. DIE
edmund.. stop with ur muscles.. they will sagg...
elton.. dont be anti-social la... come out to the light!
arthur.. stop wanking! lol jkjk.. i know u "dont".. hahax..
shawn.. lol stupid questions... loy always gay u...
loy... u gay...
azriel.. stop being blurr!! STOP JACKING YOURSELF!! WAD OTHER PPL DONT HAVE!!
kenneth.. bowling!... haha..
gabriel.. your ok... just stop trying to catch my attention.. its irritating..
ian stop being an ass..
ievan.. RUN JOSHUA IS COMING FOR U!!!
jeremy.. hope that u will be fine!
kevin.. the red goat.. baaaaaa...
samuel koh.. see u around?...
jing fong.. lol u joker!... gg!
leonard.. lol.. erm.. u very weird.. lol..
wen cong.. help me to dettach myself from reality... how ar?
alex... best pals foreva!... love to be with u! no secrets ya?
wilfred.. love being friends with u.. can be a joker.. well at times....
others... well.. love ya? i guess... duno la.. haha...

HAHA the mrt dance...

2006-10-21T22:12:00.000-07:00
i forgotten what happened on the 19th.. but i remember what happened on 20th!
20/10/06
WHAT??? there was track training??? oh.. canceled.. haze.. haiz.. WHAT! meeting!okok..
HUH!! STAY BACK WANT TO TALK TO US!...
WAAAA.... okok.. after that went home.. and blah blah blah
went for floorball... wahahaha.. who hit wei jang face get $20!!! keith was like aiming.. keep missing...
hahax.. and guess who hit wei jang!.. NOT ME.. NOR ANY SJI BOY.. ITS WAS HUI WEI!! HAHAHA
she used the stick and just hit jang face! haha... than keith saw jang sitting on the floor than smack the ball at jang face.. OUCH >.<...
not only that.. KEITH!!! U DONT HOW TO HIT MY HEAD RIGHT!!!
he went to reach for the ball.. than l8r used the stick and whack my head!! ARGH!!!
AND CLARA KOH!! HIT MY WRIST!!! ARGH!!! than dan keep saying i was acting!~...
I WASNT!! ITS STILL PAIN OK!!!
than l8r they said that i "dived"... CAUSE MY WRIST PAIN THAN I JUST DROP THE STICK AND FALL DOWN..
HUI WEI IS DAM ROUGH!! SHE JUST BANG INTO EVERYBODY!! and clara keep HITTING MY LEG!! AIM THE BALL!!! NOT MY LEG!!!
NICHOLAS!! STOP LIFTING UR STICK SOOO DAM HIGH!!! omg...
i was so scared that i had to shoot from far... !!!
haha.. went to eat after floorball.. UNCLE MEE POK!! haha..
than i bought 2 sugar cane.. and the others especially joel keep buying...
the uncle keep walking back and forth.. wa.. can see the smile on his face... cause we keep buying haha!!
than we went off and went to 7-11... CLARA KEEP KICKING MY BLOODY LEG!! SHE ALSO WENT ABOUT KICKING OTHERS!
haha.. clara cant do the mouth click thing... HAHA!!! and whack me -.-...
OK! after that.. yk was like i want to take bus home.. and clara was like NO! TAKE MRT!! yk gave in and said mrt.. AND CLARA DID A STUPID DANCE!!
introducing the latest and hippest dance in town... THE MRT DANCE!
STARRING: CLARA KOH!
HAHAHAHA!! SHE WAS JACKING HERSELF THE WHOLE TIME!! HAHAHAHA

21/10/06
OMG!! i have no money!! PAPA!!! come back give me money pls XD
ok.. he rushed home.. but it was 0130pm le!!! omg.. late!!
so he passed me money and rushed off took taxi!! and went for service... wa piang..
i actually did not want to come le cause very late.. but than.. my dad made it back home on time so.. ya.. BLESSING!!!
ya.. central now sits at the right.. and i feel that its hotter there -.-... ok dont wear long sleeve le..
and after that we went to meridian for dinner... ya.. and since i was incharge of quan kai.. i must be responsible.. SHEPHERD IS TRAINING!! THX THX!
he did not have money.. so treat him lor... WA pIANG WENT TO BUY 2 FISH AND CHIPS! my $10 fly away le.. drank 3 drink.. guess what is the drink.. okok.. after that we went gather around.. why? KEITH NICH AND QUAN KAI WAS BEING HOLY BAPTISTED!! CONGRATZ!!!
huh? keith need to go home? FASTER!! l8r everyone baptisted accept him... lol...
ok baptisted yay!! CLAP CLAP!! CONGRAT KEITH NICH AND QUAN KAI!!!..
lol keith waited for a very long time le.. haha!!! OK!!
went for lan.. ya.. before that we went to meridian and looked for the ac guys who were playing pool!... ok meet them later and so we raced with the NS guys to cyberdome.. WHY?? cause the first to reach there will get to play!... haha... and we reached there first! mauahhaha... okok.. oh ya.. before that me and joel went to old chang kee and i manage to buy the LAST YAM PIE~!! muahahah... i did not want to kill "noobs" cause i feel that im bullying.. in the end... I DIE!.. MY LVL SO LOW!! wa.. cannot do good le.. must go keep them... no choice... HAHA..
okok.. after that went to buy roti prata!... muahaha.. i told the uncle i wanted prata egg and he get me prata plain.. DIAO.. lucky the uncle say nvm.. ok went to ps after that!... and bought honey lemon... muahaha.. ns! and went to buy some "cheap food" and i bought 9 shusi!! and i ate them all later when i got home =)..!!!
muahaha ya... and on the way back home with jin qi.. i had to explain to her the difference between cs and halo... and why halo is easier to play.. CAUSE ITS NOT AS REALISTIC AS CS!
u hold onto a machine gun and keep holding on the trigger.. and bullet will fly about!! while for halo.. the bullet will always go STRAIGHT!!... its the way they program it.. in real life.. the bullet will fly about like crazy...
reached home.. played with cleo audition!.. muahah and played O2jam with her... haha and i was waiting for jin qi to finish dling.. audi.. and she only finished it like what time? 3-4 am? HAHA so lan ar the connection? haha...
muahaha... talked to cleo and ya.. just talked get to know one another.. hahax.. she kinda deaf.. keep asking huh what?... lol... okok.. type more about 22/10 tomorrow!! muahahaha

Do I Like You?

2006-10-18T07:06:00.000-07:00
Yay.. My Fever Went Down! and i can go for caregroup!
BLESSING!!

had tuition this morning.. was half awake..
had to visit the toilet many times..
no.. not what u think im doing...
i went to wash my face...
i was freaking hungry! roti prata!! lazy to go buy -.-"

after tuition.. i was walking around my house thinking of you
friend called me.. wanted me to lend him my portable hard drive...
and was like.. what for?... dota.. !!! what happen to your disk?
spoil le... ok... i lend u.. just dun spoil it... -.-...
so had to bath and went over to his place till it was 3.30?
went for cg.. omg! i forgotten about my lunch.. nvm..
during praise.. the song was ns..
so ns that i guess i cried... played some funny/stupid games.. but yet still fun =)..
during the end of the cg.. when everyone were in the room.. i just walked out..
wanted to be alone... at least for awhile.. went for dinner with melvin and yk..
ate at mac.. yippee.. finally! I GET TO EAT!!!
UNCLE!!! I WANT MCSPICY MEAL UPSIZE LARGE COKE GG!!!
after grace... BWAH!~! MUNCH MUNCH MUNCH!!! MUAHAHAHAH
satisfied... muahahaha... i decided to go home.. while yk and melvin wanted to walk around.. they sent me off.. i was thinking about u throughout the whole trip
i waited for ur messages the whole day...
i tossed and turned throughout the night thinking about u...

You have so many relationships in this life
Only one or two will last
You're going through all this pain and strife
Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
And they're gone so fast

So hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
When you get old and start losing your hair
Can you tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du

In an mmm bop, they're gone
Plant a seed, plant a flower, plant a rose
You can plant any one of those
Keep planting to find out which one grows
It's a secret no one knows
It's a secret no one knows
No one knows

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du

In an mmm bop they're gone.
In an mmm bop they're not there.
In an mmm bop they're gone.
In an mmm bop they're not there.
Until you lose your hair. But you don't care.

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du

Can you tell me? Night came but you don't know.
Can you tell me? You say you can but you don't know.
Can you tell me which flower's going to grow?
Can you tell me if it's going to be a daisy or a rose?
Can you tell me which flower's going to grow?
Can you tell me? You say you can but you don't know.

You say you can but you don't know.
You don't know
You don't know

Mmm bop
Ba du bop
Ba du bop
Ba du

Mmm bop
Ba du bop
Ba du bop
Ba du

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du

Tell Me What To Believe..

2006-10-17T08:00:00.000-07:00
Fell ill today.. had a bad flu and headache.. together with a slight fever...
went opposite and bought pork mince and wanted to cook porridge..
left it and fell aslp.. my porridge became "chao da"
was too lazy to cook and went to sleep...
though i was woken up.. i still talked...
i cooked instant noodles and ate..
played vamparism... and now typing this..
chinese tuition tomorrow -.-...
hope that everyone will stay healthy..

everytime i listen to you
everytime i give into you
i always bully u?..how?
i do not express my feelings at all..
u hang up on me all the time..
do i complain about it?.. did u know how i felt?
i promised to not be angry with u... and im not..
do u listen to what i say?..
yes.. i do still like her.. but not everything is about her..

My Feelings Are So Screwed Up!

2006-10-16T09:13:00.000-07:00
i have this feeling of happiness in me..
i have this feeling of sorrow deep within me..

Todays haze is FREAKING irritating..
woke up in the morning.. realising that im having a flu..
Oh great.. went for school..
was almost late.. but still.. i arrived..
i looked up and said.. I CAN SEE THE CLEAR BLUE SKY!
and looked as the prefect was having stage fright...
opened class door... and everyone was soo noisy..
went to the PAC for the talk.. and Ace camp talk..
the talk was crappy?...
I have decided! if i go triple science! i talk elec geog!
if i take double hum i will take full geog and elec lit!
history is history...
during the ace camp talk.. teacher checked if the boys have hand up the "things"
and called out for the cca reps... and keith shouted Done!
i was like waa... dont want to talk la.. than i just nod my head when he called my class..
did not eat much during recess.. and went for sec farewell...
nananana nananana HEY HEY HEY good bye~~
i was like HUH! what a GREAT song to sing...
samuel koh was so gay singing out the school songs like siao...
blah blah blah..
sec 4 FINTAN won! YAHOOOO!!!
Go Fintan.. Go Fintan!
just hope that sec 2 Fintan also win XD...
went back to class... and was havok... everyone was walking around...
maths teacher asked if we wanted to go through the paper and we were like NO!!!
so she went for her break while the class coms "looked after" the class... and everyone went off on 1.20...
took taxi to samuel lye house... we were going to gym.. along with edmund and joshua wong...
joshua wong is a dam gay pervertic ass!...
in the taxi he dare to just FART out loud.. edmund and i who were sitting next to him bashed him up...
EVERYONE Joshua Wong Is A PERVERT!
when we reached... we played soccer... i was playing bball.. the ball sucked... thus i decided to join edmund and joshua and played soccer against samuel.. his bro and his friend.. ya.. if i didnt tell joshua wong to tend the goalpost... the score would have been 5-0... stupid joshua wong... duno how to play soccer issit?... let in 2 goals!... still we won... no thx to joshua wong...
went to take a break at samuel's place... and rest.. provoke one another... and samuel was busy stealing his brother's ICE CREAM!... hahax... and off we went to the gym... could do weights.. injured my wrist during floorball..
so i only trained my legs... ya.. after that we went to eat at subway... and went back home...
my mum cooked porridge and it was NICE! very NICE!
and went off to watch "Rob-B-Hood" with my folks..
and the baby was sooo cute..
ya did cried a little.. kinda touching... ya... but its ns.. so GO WATCH IT!

Car crashes deeply shows
A drunkard on the side of the road
People running (running)
Fantasy or reality
Analysis and theories
What does it matter really

Chorus :
Tell me what to believe
Won't you bring me yonder
Tell me what to achieve
Baby, so I can move over
Tell me what to believe
Car crashes deeply shows
A drunkard on the side of the road
People run, run

Credit cards, a placid distress
Go live your life on the internet
That's what this is
Conspiracies and mysteries
Science fiction make believe
My guy's misery

[Chorus] x 2

Car crashes deeply shows
A drunkard on the side of the road
People running (running)
(All these car crashes in my head)
Fabtasy or reality
Analysis and theories
(All these car crashes)
What does it matter really
(All these car crashes)

[Chorus] x 2

Who Me?

2006-10-15T07:26:00.000-07:00
15/10/06

went for service =)...
i did not have the mood to meet for lunch so i met yk and others at prayer meet...
i jumped like siao... must fit into the picture..
cannot be all moody.. jem keith nich and i were all dam high.. jump like siao...
after service.. went to meridien and had the usual kimchi fried rice... XD...
went for central vision after that.. realise jy did not go for service..
reason? double piano lesson.. ok (:
during central vision.. i became very emo... i burst into tears...
had to keep wiping my tears with my shirt...
ok.. made a fool out of myself when daniel said that god wanted our finance... and i shouted HUH!
(i thought he said HE wanted our finance..)
after the whole thing.. dan yk joel desmond and i went to eat at long john... jq ac guys went to ben and jerry's... went there to meet them after our supper...
we sat and talked about zion.. wu shu? 8 packs?... yup and went to the havana shop to check out the stuff...
everyone took the bus... but i refuse to do so...
the train is my main transport le.. if i dont take it.. i will feel very akward...
reached home and played? and slpt..

15/10/06
Today was SOO boring...
i could have slpt till 12? but my mum woke me up when she hit me all of a sudden.. wow..
guess what?.. i continued to slp... i was in a semi-slping state.. and jess had to sms me...
yes i said that if u get bored ur free to sms me.. and i will reply.. but not so early!!!
woke up.. "pei" jess by smsing her... and ate breakfast.. watched cartoons.. and my dad was complaining about watching something educational..
i was like.. i always watch it.. and u will always come into the room and watch something else... leaving me with no choice but to watch cartoons -.-....
anw... ya... jess aunt complained about her smsing too many times.. at the same time.. my dad was complaining about my smsing bill... -.- wow...
went online.. and chat.. went into jy acc by accident!.. sry..
i dont even know how to talk to her le... i tell her not to do somethings.. but still she insist...
im unable to communicate with her... if attention is all she wants... i will have nth to say le..
anw... played.. and jem and yanbo came over to my place... we watched "rocketman" a very retarded show... played audition.. help jem cook and he went off...
he forgotten his shoe bag!... nvm... pass it to him tomorrow...
just cant wait for training to resume!...
was sad.. but i made myself happy again!.. yay...
theres school tomorrow.. DANG!!
but no school for tuesday and wed!... ice skating anyone? hahaha...

every single time I see you I start to feel this way
It makes me wonder if I am ever gonna feel this way again.
There's a picture tearinin the back of my head
I see it over and over
I wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
cuz I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply 'You've got to hold it in' this time tonight

If only I had the guts to feel this way,
if only you'd look at me andwant to stay,
if only I could take you in my arms and say,
I won't go cuz I need you

Sit here waiting, wondering, hoping that I'll make this right
Cuz all I think about is your hands, your face and all these lonely nights
There's a feeling screaming in the back of my head
Saying it over and overI wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
cuz I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply 'She'll never let you in' this time tonight

If only I had the guts to feel this way,
if only you'd look at me and wannastay,
if only I could take you in my arms and say,
I won't go cuz I need you
I wanna hear you say it'll always be this way

And we'll be hand in hand for everynight and everyday
I wanna scream and shout cuz rules are never doubt
And all I care about is you and me and us and now

If only I had the guts to feel this way,
if only you'd look at me and wannastay,
if only I could take you in my arms and say,
I won't go cuz I need you
Please don't go cause I need you now

Yeah. Cuz I need you
If only, yeah cuz I need you now
If only cuz I need you, I need you
If only , cuz I need you
If only cuz I need you
If only, yeah, if only...I need you now....yeah

Negative Thoughts..

2006-10-13T09:08:00.000-07:00
havent been blogging...
just dont want to...
but who cares?

dont wanna talk about my exams... but ya.. its ok..

11/10/2006 and 12/10/06
after my exams.. went for com study test... crap.. -.-"...
was suppose to join ed and others for gym... but decided not to..
went home to slp instead... they woke me up to ensure that i was able to leave and meet them at marina square...
gab called and said that i was not able to slp over as his mum only allows 5 ppl.. so i decided to crash over at azriel's place... we went for bowling... and watched "stay alive".... it was suppose to be scary.. but i was frightened at all... instead... i made up a "scary movie 5" out of it...
after movie.. eugene and kenneth were afraid.. and some others.. so we were teasing them..
eugene kenneth loy aaron samuel and i slp at azriel place... well.. be4 that.. we went for lan instead.. and played for 2 hours?... kept winning in dota.. but dont really bother... decided to play with kc and azriel (shifu) cs... ya...i practically trashed them... jess called me.. and wanted to put down because she thought i was busy... but i was just playing for fun.. and still kept on winning... but once in awhile distracted... kept on shouting to my friends... ya..
we went to kambangan... and waited for azriel outside his house... he went up with kenneth to his house to get his flu medicine.. cause kenneth was afraid.. i was still on the phone.. eugene became high.. and kept on talking to jess.. who was tramatised instead... when we got into the house.. ya.. played ps2.. and put down the phone.. 1 cause she have school and i wanted her to slp... 2 my phone's batt was going to be flat... 3 i wanted to play naruto... eugene being gay... he came up to me and molested me -.-.... and acted dam gay when he lyed on me... got up and went out -.-... but after that.. he was ok...
played throughout the night... and slp for 3 hours... woke up and played again.. after that we ate cup noodles for breakfast because azriel's lunch will be served at 2... and that was long... tried to played lan but couldnt as we were below 16... and... it was school hours... blame us because we did not have any school -.-"... our plan was to go to east coast.. but na... some were wearing jeans!... went to irc and played instead... ya.. had "fun"... and went home... went online once in awhile.. and waited for my dinner.. dinner came at 8+++ .. i took my porridge.. put it on the table.. and went to slp... slpt at 830?... and woke up at... 9.30.. am... 13 hours of slp.. wow..

13/10/06

wow... 13 hours of slp was great.. i still wanted to slp..
Jess called again... ya.. talked for awhile.. went to bath and went off... to the new cathay.. to watch "silk" with cg...
the bus driver was taking his own sweet time...
i arrived late.. 10mins late.. was dam cold...
when i sat down.. they were speaking chinese... i was like WHO CHOSE CHINESE MOVIE!
and they changed language.. korean.. WOW!!! EVEN BETTER!
anw.. the horror movie turned out to be dam funny instead...
after that we went to long john and ate... after that.. we went off for floorball..
went to change and played.. did not play well.. was dam affected...
my mood was dam bad.. did not want anyone to bother me..
and sat at the back... i anyhow whack the ball when i got it... decided to wait for the ball to come to me instead...
i hit the last ball out and had to use the spoiled one.. (sry)... luckily rapheal retrieved it... yay...
played.. ya... went for supper after that.. ate desert.. did not have the mood to eat at all... went because jem wanted to eat.. and he wanted to go home with me.. if i go home... means he cannot eat and instead will feel hungry?... so i just went.. ya.. now i dont really want to do anything.. did not even want to meet for lunch tomorrow... haiz...

THERE IS NOTHING BETWEEN ME AND JESS!

yippy?

2006-10-09T06:21:00.000-07:00
ok.. today wasnt sooo hazy... yay!.. but still got flu... booooo...
went to school with the team singapore track suit.. why?... because all my other jackets/windbreakers are being washed T.T....
cant wait for post-exams activities..!... yes...
shopping... slping.. shopping... slping... playing... playing... playing... and more slping...
OH YA!!! excercising!...

*LOOKING FOR PEOPLE WHO IS WILLING TO PUT IN THE EFFORT TO TRAIN/EXCERCISE!

once the haze fades away.. off i go!... i must win 2nd next year!... and if i lose because of the sec 4... nvm.. at least do my best.. MUST GET TOP 8!...
okok... todays paper was kinda.... ok?...
the bio test paper was kinda okok... lucky i got read up on the aveoli.... muahaha... at least know how to draw!... that question 8 MARKS LEH!!!
wa... and we just realised that our bio teacher who doesnt teach well... gave alot of clues to which topic is coming out.. its just that we were not listening... omg...
maths was "hard"... i think can at least get A2.... If got careless mistakes.... if not A1....
to not get to co*ky yet....

hmmm... after school... went to lot 1 with samuel and leonard.. ate at mac... while on the bus... stupid samuel keep staring at leonard's ba**s.... WTH?....*cause leonard is dam sensitive when someone looks at his ba**s*... hahax..

reached mac.. dam pathetic... leonard dare to ask me.. WHAT IS THE CHEAPEST MEAL HERE??... do i look like i know?... so i just gave him a random answer... HAPPY MEAL GET FREE TOY ALSO =P.... in the end.. he only bought one small small... coke.. wa.. im the only one eating.. cause... samuel bought milkshake... we were over there snapping straws.. haha... wasting the straws... leonard keeps on taking my fries.. thus i decided to just give him my fries... ate 3/4 of the mcspicy burger and decided not to eat...

samuel is dam idiotic.. he goes around calling ppl NSK!...(neighbourhood school kid)... wth? than there was a group of bpgh boys walk pass us and talked to their friends... the way he was speaking was dam funny.. and samuel kept on repeating nsk nsk nsk... wth....

went home.. lets see... rot at home... and had chinese tuition from 7-9... hmmm... thats late...
keep doing zong he tian kong... do until i dam sian... anyhow fill in the blanks... and still can get correct... wow... okok... =)

just 2 more days! chinese does not worry me!... its the physics... it is a killer.. oh ya... is mr lai's birthday tomorrow?... hmmm... better go check properly... =)....

lol... to my nemesis... i talk bad behind ppl's back?... since when?... erm dun know who are you ar.. i normally just say it to the person's face... why waste my saliva.. ive done that many times le... and if u still insists that i have been talking bad behind someone... than pls... tell me.. WHO HAVE I BEEN INSULTING BEHIND HIS/HER BACK?

說不上為什麼　我變得很主動
shuo bu shang wei shen me wo bian de hen zhu dong
若愛上一個人　什麼都會值得去做
ruo ai shang yi ge ren shen me dou hui zhi de qu zuo
我想大聲宣佈　對妳依依不捨
wo xiang da sheng xuan bu dui ni yi yi bu she
連隔壁鄰居都猜到我現在的感受
lian ge bi ling ju dou cai dao wo xian zai de gan shou

河邊的風　在吹著頭髮飄動
he bian de feng zai chui zhe tou fa piao dong
牽著妳的手　一陣莫名感動
qian zhe ni de shou yi zhen mo ming gan dong
我想帶妳　回我的外婆家
wo xiang dai ni hui wo de wai po jia
一起看著日落　一直到我們都睡著
yi qi kan zhe ri luo yi zhe dao wo men dou shui zhao

我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
愛能不能夠永遠單純沒有悲哀
ai neng bu neng gou yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai
我　想帶妳騎單車
wo xiang dai ni qi dan che
我　想和妳看棒球
wo xiang he ni kan bang qiu
想這樣沒擔憂　唱著歌　一直走
xiang zhe yang mei dan you chang zhe ge yi zhi zou

我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
愛可不可以簡簡單單沒有傷害
ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai
妳　靠著我的肩膀
ni kao zhe wo the jian bang
妳　在我胸口睡著
ni kao wo xiong kou shui zhao
像這樣的生活　我愛妳　妳愛我
xiang zhe yang de sheng huo wo ai ni ni ai wo

想　簡　簡　單　單　愛
xiang~~ jian!jian!dan!dan!ai!~~
想　簡　簡　單　單　愛
xiang~~ jian!jian!dan!dan!ai!~~

I miss You sooooooo Much..

2006-10-08T05:48:00.000-07:00
why are there memories?...
must some of them be soo painful?
hmmm...

7/10/06
the tutor postpone the tuition to tomorrow... yay?...decided to go church... why?...
cause i was like.. ok.. lets call someone.. if that someone answers.. i go church.. if not.. nah...
and that someone answered.. so i went...
went to church.. look around.. and was kinda relieve.. as its been a week? that i nv see...
and i did not want to feel sad at all.. thus.. ya.. i jumped.. clapped.. and prayed.. ya...
went to meridien foodcourt.. and jem went off.. dam... joel wanted to play lan.. and i did not want to go... but since they did not have enough ppl.. ok ba.. was in a good mood... treated jing qi yami yogurt.. and she bought almond.. YUCK!!! and while walking back.. i felt sad again.. i saw... and i was upset and all... ya... as i thought i was kinda prepared... but guess im not... decided to go home instead... while walking back.. saw a group infront... did not really bothered.. but until one figure turned.. and i realise it was... group... and i know that ............................... there... dun like me.. so..i wanted to walk one round.. to avoid them.. but.. i just walk pass them and rushed off.. and some feelings im not going to say... blah blah blah... reached home... nooo mood.. went to slp... and woke up... dinner.. and talked to jy... realised somethings... ya...

8/10/06
went to study at tiong... yada yada... bought chocolate.. and more chocolate... and was hyperactive.. but i cooled down... once in awhile... my heart beats for you

asked master nicholas about bio... hahaz... and studied.. but i cant help to......
haiz.... and my sis bf came passing me my sis bag.. got to bring it home.. ya.. i had to go home for dinner... hmmm... instead of going home first. i decided to pei yk and ppl to foodcourt.. and waited for them.. and we went off... jem had to wait for his mum... yk was with him... keith and nich went home le... mrt.. and i was waiting for mine.. and i was dam.. DAM... sad... but... ya.. not going into detail... shhhhhh.....

Do not go to church just because of friends....
Do not go to church because you are forced to...
Go to church because YOU want to praise the lord...
Go because You want to be with the lord...
Do not be distracted by other things...
Put them aside... (:-) >

I open my eyes I see your face
I cannot hide I can't erase
The way you make me feel inside
You complete me girl, that's why
Something about you makes me feel
Baby my heart wants to reveal
I'm down on my knees, I'm asking you
So these three words I wanna hear from you

Chorus:
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, so these three words I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, baby I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you

Oh yes I will

This is no ordinary love
And I can never have enough
Of all the things you've given to me
My heart , my soul , my everything
Every night I thank you lord(I thank you lord)
For giving me the strenght to love her more
And more each day I promise her
As long as I hear those three words

Chorus:
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, so these three words I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, baby I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you

Bridge:
I stand beside you, in everything you do
Wherever you go, whatever you do
Baby I'll be there (oh baby I will be there)
As God as my witness
I will carry this through
Till death do us part, I promise to you

Chorus:
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, Baby baby yes I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And start a family with you, baby
Yes I will
Yes I will
Yes I will, I promise you
Everything's gonna be all right
It's gonna be all right
I will

Long Time No See...

2006-10-06T06:26:00.000-07:00
Have not been blogging lately.. no mood.. and lazy =p...
its not like anyone comes to my blog a really read...
ok... have been having papers... some i think is gonna be a screw up.. some is gonna be ok...
just cant wait for post-exams activities... yes...
sleeping... all the way... lack of slp... haiz...
oh ya... and of course.. eat well!.. have been having painful gastric attacks...
to everyone who comes to my blog... pls eat more vitamins... as the haze can really bring u down.. stay strong!...
and oh ya.. do well for your exams =)...
hmmm.. quarrelled with my sis last night... but everything is back normal...
oh ya.. she owes me $8!... !... my lit test today was abit screwed up la... and i did it in 1 hour and i used the other 1 hour to slp... tooooooo tired... haiz...
have been feeling wierd lately... 50% because of blah blah blah... and the other 50% is church...
hmmm... will i go tomorrow's service?... im not sure... next week?.. yup... central vision.. i guess..
and i have only been tagging... and when i look at my tagboard.. some one typed as my nemesis..
ok.. dont really know who you are... u can insult me... but NEVER insult my PARENTS... if you enjoy insulting me.. why dont u just come infront of me and say it... i dont really care... but dont insult my PARENTS...
ya.. im not really welcomed to church la... some ppl dont like me.. i know that... but instead of saying things behind my back... why not just come and say it to me... need not keep wasting ur saliva...

ok.. ive said that i will go for church camp... so i will...ya...
but still... i may leave... and that will be good news for some ppl and for some ppl it is another oppurtunity to gossip...

I'm sick of being alone, when are you coming home?
Just a glimpse of your face
I can remember smelling your hair, I'll meet your anywhere
Somewhere that no one can retrace
Somewhere where no one will know our faces

[CHORUS]
She has two arms to hold me
Four legs to wrap around me
She's not your typical girlfriend
She's my alien
My alien

She knows when something is wrong, when something doesn't belong
She can read in my mind
And she can be assured that with me, there is no conspiracy
Shes not wasting her time
She can take me to the place that she calls home,
in a spaceship that will someday be my own
Please take me to your leader
Tell her I will surrender
I will surrender

[CHORUS]

My alien [repeat 4x]

[CHORUS (repeat 2x)]

I bought the astranauts cave
Now all I needs a rocket
My love, intergallactic friend
She's my alien

The Enigma Is Back

2006-10-02T05:55:00.000-07:00
Im changing...
not completely...
and im still waiting...

1/10/2006
look... its childrens' day... and all the children came out to play... with what i duno.. all i know is that its samantha tan's birthday... ya so happy birthday =)... little girl -.-... =p...

Ok!.. woke this morning... felt weird.. and went for studying at tiong.. walked out of the house... and was like... wa lao.. the haze is back.. Nvm... although i did not want to go out.. but still i forced myself to go... why?... muz study... haiz... had a bad flu.. again.. thx ar haze.. took the mass rapid transport.. known as the mrt... called the train... ya.. when i reached jurong.. yk called.. i was like ya?.. where are u?... on the bus? u sure reach there earlier than me?... later got traffic jam how.... huh.. sure no traffic jam?... ok lor... than hang up.. than yk smsed me... telling me that the driver is taking his own sweet time AH HA!... reached tiong... called him... where is he?... still on the bus... stood near the road like a retard waiting for him... ya... tried calling him.. but... his hp no batt... haiz... nvm nvm... went to kopitiam for lunch.. and jem came.. yay... went to bk after that to study... SUPRISINGLY!... the drinks there tasted how they were suppose to taste... wonder what was the occasion... hmmm...
had shepherding.. and we studied! yay... ya studied.. and played... bought the meiji chocolate which had gummy in it.. cool.. and after eating them.. jem and i had a stomach ache.. haiz... must be the chocolate... haiz... ya.. played with the tube... and ya... studied... jem had shepherding.. while i went to slp... too tired... actually im very tired EVERYDAY just that... i dun want to show it... haiz... had dinner... celeste and june went home.. sinyee and joanne was at bk studying.. wanted to eat later.. but since we had already started... haiz... couldnt wait for them... went home with jem.. acted dam retarded.. jem came over my place.. and waited for his mum's call to tell him to go home.. why?... this smart guy lost his keys... in his room... SOME WHERE UNDER THE PILE OF BOOKS... and his looking for it.. after the exam.. haiz... ya.. went online talked to ppl ya..

2/10/2006

went to school... yada yada... i thought to myself... of what jess told me last night... hmmm.. ya.. it helped me.. alot.. put them aside first... God will help me... ya...
im aware of the rumours being passed around... things are being said behind my back.. ya.. duno about what... ya... ok la...some things are just misunderstanding.. and if u ppl like to jump into conclusions about me... than wadeva la... if u dun even know how i feel just just b*t*h off...
especially if u dun know ME...

during geog class.. the teacher was rushing through and had to copy like siao... nvm.. went for guitar class. played the titanic song... and i was told i got 67.5 for my guitar... haiz... and joshua wong who did not do much can get 70... siao... okok.. than during english ya.. tutor talked to us... gave us confidence.. and oh ya... happy birthday to the 8 boys whose birthday lies on october...
went for recess.. and ate alot... hmmm... delicious... did not have lessons for the next to periods.. and we went around having group discussion... poor ievan... was badly abused by our classmates... hahaha.... and he can still laugh about it... maths.. was like ok.. and on to pse... i had to go for survey thingy... and came back listening to the relief teacher speak to us... ok.. ran around the school taking pictures for jq... and duno for wad... ya... wanted to pass up my psl form.. but it was late and i had to rush back for tuition.. so i went off... and i had tuition.. yay.. after tuition.. i relaxed.. adn my sis now complains about wanting to use the com.. to blog.. nvm... but i also blogging... she chao wad chao... than duno why suddenly cry la.. now on the phone with duno who crying... and its not because of me.. because of my mum.. make my sister help her pay $206 for something la.. dam crap... ya.. im gonna let her use the com le.. =)

!THE ENIGMA IS BACK!

Am I Dying?

2006-09-30T06:11:00.000-07:00
My Right Eye Have Been Twitching For The Past Few Days...
some say that something bad is coming my way...
some say that i just need some slp...
some say that i will do badly for my english...
i just hope that i will die...

29/9/2006
the last day of the week... floorball was on... i thought that all i need was a little floorball and i will be happy and cheerful... guess thats not the case... i played badly... i right hand became stiff and cold again... haiz... anw... went for psl meeting today... gave them our sizes for the psl shirt and collected the form for our psl camp... cant wait for the post exam activities... and another question struck me... when will i be going back to hope?.. and i ready?... hmmm...
Edmund is really irritating me... he goes around disturbing people and refuse to listen to the lesson... and start his own private conversation.. during bio class.. at the back of the class... there was about 5-7 people gathering together... slping... that was the slping corner (the back right of the class) and at the left side was the laughing group.. where they make up silly jokes and start laughing... i was at the center... sitting with kevin and kenneth... who was surprisingly not slping... instead of listening to the crap the teacher was saying.. we did our own study on bio... haiz... i think im gonna do badly... someone help me to study T.T... late at night after floorball.. i went home by myself as i did not want to join the others for dinner as i did not have the appetite... having a bad flu... sore throat... blah blah... gonna die soon...
haiz... when i reach lot1.. bought kfc for dinner... 2 piece chicken meal upsize to large mountain dew change the marsh potato to cheese fries take away... haiz... went home.. ate the fries.. one chicken and i did not fill like eating le... haiz... bought a large bottle of 100 plus and drank it all... played auditionsea the whole night with jy and cleo... was having conference... and i switched off the com... was so bored that i went to my room and slpt...

30/9/2006
woke up unwillingly... my tutor was here... when he pressed the doorbell... i was like.. oh.. pls.. let this be a dream.. tooo bad.... opened the door for him and we had tution... helped him make a hotmail acc... lol... and i was like wth.. he is an IT retard?... nvm.. cant blame him if he cant catch up.... after tuition.. i basically rotted at home... did not study much... was very distracted... many thought went in and out of my mind.... and i looked at the time... hm.. should i go for service?... nvm... procrastinated infront of the computer when i know that i was suppose to be revising... instead i went to youtube and searched for mad tv.. and pranks... dotz.. what a waste of time...
after that..i read through my sec 2 tb.. and went to slp... when i woke up it was 7++++.. ate dinner... and read the tb again...
dont know how to express how i feel... though i still think of u.. i keep it to myself...
using songs to express my feelings... every song i listen have a meaning in it...haiz...
decided to go study tomorrow...

westlife- da bop bop baby

My mama said nothing would break me or lead me astray
Who would have guessed I'd let my mind drift so far away
You always said I was a dreamer now it's dead
I'm dreaming of things that's making my mind go crazy
Small things like

When I call you at home and he answers the phone
Or I get your machine and I don't hear me
When I lie in my bed with the thoughts in my head
When we danced and we sang and we laughed all night

Ooh da bop bop baby please don't let me go
Can't live my life this way
Ooh da bop bop baby please just let me know
And put my mind at ease for sure

On a love train
20 odd years now
I got off today
But nobody said the stop that I've taken
Was a stop too late
Now I'm alone I'm thinking of stupid
Hurtful small things like

When I call you at home and he answers the phone
Or I get your machine and I don't hear me
When I lie in my bed with the thoughts in my head
When we danced and we sang and we laughed all night

Ooh da bop bop baby please don't let me go
Can't live my life this way
Ooh da bop bop baby please just let me know
And put my mind at ease for sure

Maybe it's time to say goodbye
Maybe it's time to let this lie
This is when we must set things right
Now that we've gone our separate ways
I just can't live these desperate days
This is what I've been trying to say

Ooh da bop bop baby please don't let me go
Can't live my life this way
Ooh da bop bop baby please just let me know
And put my mind at ease for sure

Wow.. Fever...

2006-09-28T06:27:00.000-07:00
woke up today.. and i was like omg.. i survived the night with this block nose... haiz...
dad brought me to school... went to the track immediately waiting for assembly to start...
annoucement... blah blah blah The Results Of The Psl Have Been Put Up On The Board At L1-5
i was like yes.. finally.. but.. where the hell is L1-5... and during class.. my friends sneeked out and went to check.. My appeal was approved.. yay... during recess.. i went to check who else appeal was accepted as well.. and i saw KEITH! yay.. congratz... but.. 1 problem.. if his cca teacher finds out... his may be dead... but.. hope that his training does not collide with his Psl things... having a Psl meeting tomorrow haiz... after recess was english... lalalala.. stories... and do some pse thing.. and i went to collect the passports and forms... joshua wong say that he will pass to me tomorrow nvm.. can cause tomorrow deadline.. samuel lye tells me that he left the form at home.. nvm at least he gave me his passport thingy... BUT JING FONG IS GONNA GET HELL!... HE NEVER PASS ME BOTH... and the best part is... HE HAVENT EVEN RENEW HIS PASSPORT!... say wad.. NO TIME... my ***... everytime will see him online.. gave him 2 weeks le leh.. NO TIME!... like he study... haiz.. duno how am i suppose to explain tomorrow...
after that was chinese... we did 1 letter and a compo.. and i wrote rubbish... i broke gabriel specs... oops sry =X... and ya.. after that.. went to lot 1 and ate ban mian with eugene.. wanted to gross him out by saying that his food was made out of ************... ( think for yourself )...
haha... talked about our primary school days... how we played like siao... and there was no worries at all... unlike now... haiz... relationships in the past did not hurt much... as we did not know much about it.. and now.. haiz... its hurts.. ALOT...
haiz.. had fever half way during school.. and was sneeZing away... haiz...
had chinese tuition after that haiz... life is so sianz... and painful...

Im Lying When I Say I Hate You

2006-09-27T06:40:00.000-07:00
i almost suffocated to death today... my block nose will come back to me whenever i trying to breath.. and i have to cough my lungs out...if only i suffocated to death... haiz...*= to this incident

this morning.. i was alright until i showered finish * .... gained some confidence before going to school.. had to go school by myself.. haiz... met eugene on the bus... he was talking to a "guy"... hahaha.... reach to school.. ate breakfast and drank coffee!... and went up to class.. i collected the handphones and locked them up... waited on my desk for the question sheet to be given to us... when i recieve the question sheet i was like OMG!... i did this before... and so i did the exposition and situation... and after that we went for recess..bought ice cool (peach) and went back to class.. waited for paper 2... and the comprehension was tough... die... after the whole thing *.. i collected the (photocopied) passport and forms.. haiz... went to kfc with samuel and leonard... we da bao and went to my house.. needed some company... haiz... watched stupid mad tv shows on youtube... laugh like siao.. while eating la... and they went off... a few minutes ltr *.... after a while * again... haiz... played audition.. haiz... and now... my parents tell me they nv help me buy dinner... why?.. cause my stupid sister anyhow tell them that i bought my own dinner... ar... gastric...

i gotta make a decision...
what should i do?...
i cant move on... should have died because of *... haiz...
everything is getting from bad to worst..

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had

When I think of you
I dont know what to do
When will I see you again?

Chorus: I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of everyday
Girl, I'm so down when you're love's not around
I miss you
Miss you
Miss you
I miss you like crazy

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
(You're all that I need)
Can't you see how I feel?
Can't you see that my pain's so real?

When I think of you
I dont know what to do
When will I see you again?

Repeat Chorus x2

I miss you like crazy
(Repeat until fade)

Becoming Weak Everyday...

2006-09-26T05:42:00.000-07:00
woke up with a bad sore throat... flu... and my knee injury came back while running during pe...
terrible headache... restless nights... tired me...

went to school today... had attire check... lucky i cut my hair... and i had to pull up my socks.. i think the teachers are blind la... some guys did not cut their hair also cannot see... haiz... somemore say that my class is perfect... lol... my ***... had to collect the (photocopied) passport... and still some haven pass up.. now good lor.. joshua wong dad says that it takes 3 days for the passport to extand... MY *** la... now i duno wad to do with him le... than i wanted collect the form.. that arthur pissing me off.. everytime ask for things from him.. he always tell me to collect it from him tomorrow... and i had to pass it up today!.. idiot.. shouted at him... dam piss.. tomorrow got english exam... very scared... im afraid that i will screw up my comprehension... haiz... feel like dieing... suffering like shyt... today... maths.. it was ok... but when lit lesson started.. i was dam pissed with my teacher... scolding us.. just because edmund that idiot keeps on talking... and he always acts blur when the teacher asks him to get out of the class.. after lit was recess and than had pe... played a stupid marble game.. did not bother to aim and just anyhow throw.. and than had chinese... wa... edmund act big again... took azriel prefect tie and wore it.. samuel lye and azriel were punished... and than came to bio... the teacher ar... haiz... dun even know what is she saying... everyone dun even know that she is even teaching... haiz.. she is like talking to herself... try to do the bio paper.. i forgotten everything!... i must have forgotten about it when i tried to forget about sth... as it was somehow related...
after school.. went for lunch with eugene ate at kfc.. and he told me he was gay and was determine to stay single till 16... HAHA... joke....
Argh..! english english english... english english english...

Until The Time Is Through- 5ive

Now and forever
Until the time is through

I can't believe it
I don't know where to start no baby
So many questions
Deep inside my heart

Bridge:
Give me a moment before you go
There's something you ought to know

Chorus:
Baby now and forever
Until the time is through
I'll be standing here
Waiting and never give up my faith in you
Trying to make it clear
Without your love I'd be half a man
Maybe one day you'll understand
Now and forever
Until the time is through

I'll be waiting...

How can I tell you so that you can see
Love has a meaning
When you are here with me
(When you are here with me, baby)

(Bridge)

(Chorus)

There is no one to comfort me
Here in my cold reality
I'm searching for words
What can I say to make you see?

Baby now, until time is through, I'll be here girl (2x)

(Chorus)