Ok.. I need people to ASK ME OUT... to study..
People are asking my out to PLAY! and i dont want that..
now that my training have stopped.. i gotta take the oppurtunity to study!
maybe my shepherding will be studying with my sheeps.. hmm..
Omg.. I feel dam stressed up! I cant even do my Proving identities!
I cant even believe i failed my english comprehension paper.. AND I THINK IM GONNA FAIL MY A-MATHS TEST AS WELL!.. crap..

While standing in the train going to my aunt's place, i almost cried out in public..
my eyes turned watery.. i felt as though i was going to breakdown or something..
if only life was so carefree.. the thought of me being kicked out of Sji was in my mind.. or even being retained..

My geog teacher told me something which hit me really hard.. as she was my former geog teacher in sec 1 and 2, she said this to me.. "Jiao Hui.. im extremely disappointed with your attitude in class.. the motivation i sawin you during sec 1 and 2 is gone.. im not sure what happened.. all i know something between sec 2 and 3 have caused it.." it felt as though someone have punched me in the face telling me to wake up.. even though the thought of me studying hard is there, i cant act it out.. everytime i stand up and move on.. i fall back..
i knew that the "motivation" wasn't there anymore.. TT

Gone with the Wind
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-BlAcKoRdEr-