Oooh no.. Common Test is like 2 weeks from now! and i just realise that i've been concentrating on my A maths so much that im neglecting my other subjects!
This Cant DO! i need to get a bigger bag so that i can bring everything back home..
GoodBye To Zinc SlingBag!

School seems to be getting boring now adays.. i've just been transfered to another class for chinese.. which is kinda boring(gotta admit that)..
My whole class turned against my class chairman(well.. Ex-chairman to be precise) and now Kenneth Mak is the new chairman.. I think.. hahas.. well i hope that he will be a better chairman..

im feeling extremely bad as i havent study at all today.. after tuition today, i fell aslp immediately and woke up at 8.30.. and had to cut my hair as well -.-..
i guess my week ahead will be boring as well.. but i will just have to "pull up my socks" and work extra hard to archieve the results im aiming for..

Note: Im still Free For Study Dates! well.. some of the days.. =)!

Go With The Flow ~
[Joshua] a.k.a Jiao
-BlAcKoRdEr-

Ok.. I need people to ASK ME OUT... to study..
People are asking my out to PLAY! and i dont want that..
now that my training have stopped.. i gotta take the oppurtunity to study!
maybe my shepherding will be studying with my sheeps.. hmm..
Omg.. I feel dam stressed up! I cant even do my Proving identities!
I cant even believe i failed my english comprehension paper.. AND I THINK IM GONNA FAIL MY A-MATHS TEST AS WELL!.. crap..

While standing in the train going to my aunt's place, i almost cried out in public..
my eyes turned watery.. i felt as though i was going to breakdown or something..
if only life was so carefree.. the thought of me being kicked out of Sji was in my mind.. or even being retained..

My geog teacher told me something which hit me really hard.. as she was my former geog teacher in sec 1 and 2, she said this to me.. "Jiao Hui.. im extremely disappointed with your attitude in class.. the motivation i sawin you during sec 1 and 2 is gone.. im not sure what happened.. all i know something between sec 2 and 3 have caused it.." it felt as though someone have punched me in the face telling me to wake up.. even though the thought of me studying hard is there, i cant act it out.. everytime i stand up and move on.. i fall back..
i knew that the "motivation" wasn't there anymore.. TT

Gone with the Wind
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-BlAcKoRdEr-

Yes.. I have officially fallen ill after a week or 2 of sneezing and coughing..
to make matters worst.. i bit on my lips and it bled ALOT!(i still bite THE SAME AREA occasionally
Zzz.. YES its very sian!~ taken Mc for the day..
this was what the doctor had to say.. "i think its stress.. any exams coming up?"
woah.. indeed doctors are wise people.. she even realise i was going to have my common test o.O..
Anw.. didnt find my time spent at home very productive.. i played in the morning.. slept in the afternoon.. shepherding in the late afternoon and dinner out(to celebrate my dad's birthday.. WHICH ISNT TODAY!~ ironic isnt it...)
However i learnt a japanese word! its CHINPOKO! go find the meaning muahaha...
ouch ouch.. ok my stomach hurts alot.. and yk didnt help at all when he constantly POKED my stomach even after i reminded him..
aiya.. what can i say.. Today was fun... hahas... but still i need to study! omg... final year coming.. and HELL i dont want to be retained!
Oh crap.. i can feel the pressure man.. omg.. i need to be a geek! but i cant HELP IT WHENEVER I SEE THE COMPUTER! maybe i should lock up my games... hmmm ok im going to do that like... NOW!..
i must be determined at all times! yes! do not let anything come my way!
WAHAHAHA! but first i got to rest and recover ASAP! if not during the exam period.. i GG man!.. heehees =D...

Song Of The Week: Dance Floor Anthem by Good Charlotte

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
Than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s tripping on the phone
Now he doesn’t want her out there and alone
Now he knows she’s moving it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s loosing it
She don’t care

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

He was always giving her attention
Working hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most sucka’s hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him

She calls him up she’s tripping on the phone
Now he had to get up and he ain’t coming home
Now he’s trying to forget her
That's how he got with her
When he first met her
When they first got together

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

To the beat
To the beat
To the beat

You got nothing to lose,
Don’t be afraid to get down

We break up it’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay
Let it go
Get out there and find someone

It’s too late to be tripping on the phone here
Get off the wire
Now everything is good here
Stop what you’re doing
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
Find a new one

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

No
No

Now you know what to do
So come on
Feeling good

SNEEZE the PAIN OUT
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-bLaCkOrDeR-

There are bound to have many obsticles in our lifes as we move on in life..
this obsticles are like tests from God so that we will be gauge ourselves..
if life doesnt have any test, we will not know where we stand!
However besides this TESTS from God, there is something else that will pull us away from God.. that would be the Devil's temptations. at times, we will not focus our eyes on God and end up going off track..
The Devil wants to tempt us so that we will move away from God.. why? cause we are in the Devil's WANTED man list.. therefore, we must not be tempted and instead move ahead.
During THE TESTS, one may feel that God issint there anymore and starts to question the power of God. Why? its simple. Imagine a Baby learning how to walk. In order to learn how to walk, the father have to help Him/her by holding his/her hands. However, at a certain point, the father will let go of the child's hand.
ITS THE SAME CONCEPT! we are like the child learning how to walk and God is the father who helps us and lets go of us once in awhile.
Some may ask. God loves us alot.. so why does he want to "let go of our hands"?..
well.. its when WE FALL, WE LEARN! when whenever we FALL, God will lift out his hands to help us up.. thus we have to go through HIS TESTS and not be tempted by the Devil. Even at the LOWEST point of ur life, God will still be WITH U..

Omg! i really Got Sore Throat! AND ITS DAM IRRITATING!
MOREOVER THERE ARE LIKE SOOO MANY PIMPLES GROWING ON MY FACE T.T...
ARGH! I Owe my maths teach 4 ASSIGNMENTS! and i have to hand it in.. TOMORROW!..
its like 11.38pm now.. so.. I HAVE TO CHIONG IT! trigonometry.. plain irritating..
I HATE MEMORISING THE EQUATIONS!.. OK! Got to COMPLETE IT NOW!~ and have to prepare games as well for cg =S... so cya!

May the LORD Be with YOU
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-bLaCkOrDeR-

whenever one break out of a relationship, there will bound to be some feelings raging inside the person.. example: depression, self-blame, guilt, anger etc...
so.. whats the solution?
well its to allow this emotions fill u up.. its this process that will gradually help u heal ^^..
the more u try to NOT accept it, the process will be PROLONGED!
we shouldnt look into the past but instead look ahead into the future..
God have already set our destiny and since God wants the BEST for us, God will not harm us and instead help us.
when you are feeling down, look to him and he will give u comfort.
like what the bible says, ASK and u will be given, SEEK and you will find, KNOCK and the door will be opened for you!..
ALLOW God to be WITH you through out your life and dont reject him..

oh man my flu is getting bad to worst! block nose until very sian..
have to keep drinking water to prevent sore throat =S...
SJI won 4th position for the track and field 'C' division team this year! yay
the track team had dinner together at lot 1.. AND I MANAGE TO BUY [THE LORD OF THE RINGS] The Battle For Middle-Earth -Anthology-
HOWEVER commontest and final exam is just around the corner.. CAN SOMEONE MAKE SURE I STUDY @.@... i am dam worried for my tests!..

Ps: stay away from me.. my flu is going around the class zzz..

Seek Comfort From God And Walk A Path of Victory
[Joshua] A.K.A Jiao
-bLaCkOrDeR-

oh CRAP! my 4x100m didnt get into the finals!
NEITHER DID MY 200m GET INTOTHE SEMI!
WTH!.. but wait.. i just realise i qualified for my 100m hurdles finals!
it will be held tomorrow.. and im kinda excited over it.. i guess..
just realise something even worst.. i missed alot of lessons.. soo.. man.. im sooo screwed!.. ANYWAY! this might be late but i want to say it.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JOSHUA CHEN!
yes.. last monday was his birthday.. yk qk and i had a REALLY mini celebration with him.. hahas.. and it was abit gross/fun.. HAHA..
alright then.. i gotta go off ^^ CYA!

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

YES! i feel so happy now that i've scored 21.5/25 for my matrice test!~ weehee!
all right! my nationals starts tomorrow! and i can feel lots of buttrflies in my stomach.. im getting cold feet! ARGH! scary... BUT I MUST DO IT! YES!
i must balance both my cca and my studies! and show everyone that God is Great!

Superhero:

He's the One who makes the sun shine.
He's the One that puts the moon in the sky
He's the One who hung the stars, one by one

He's the One who makes the birds sing
He's the One who makes your dreams so high.
He's the One who makes me smile, day by day

Jesus You're my Superhero
You're my star, my best friend
Jesus You're my Superhero
You're my star, my best friend

Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than Spiderman
Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than Superman
Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than Batman
Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...better than anyone

THIS SONG ROCKS! HAHAS!

wish me luck!

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]

Argh.. the change of my teachers have made me worked harder..
i suddenly feel super motivated to complete my hw.. well only during the weekends.. hahas =p..
but hey.. i still do them? right?? hahas...
anw ya.. my holiday project work have been like overdued.. and i still owe them the work! omg.. HELP ME!
learned many many many things in this week.. especially things related to relationships...
learned about infatuation.. learnt what is true love... etc etc...
wanted to blog about it last friday.. but i didnt have the chance to do so...
but after thinking.. i think i shouldnt talk about it.. since everyone have a different views on this topic =/...
yay.. central have hit 161.. but still i wasnt really happy about.. why? cause i felt as though i didnt contribute to this numbers... Its already july.. and we still dont have any new believers.. lets not even talk about visitors...
but i felt happy that both joshau and qk was more dedicated to God..
qk changed ALOT and i cant even believe my ears when he rushed me for shepherding..
joshua change might not be too obvious but i can sense a change in him.. he is more intereactive... which is a good think ^^.. BMSS AND QTSS MUST GROW!
let not our words be purely a line of word itself.. but instead let it be something that we will SURELY fulfill..
let our actions speak louder than words..

when u look up into the sky and realise that the stars have become less bright, call me ^^...

wish upon a shooting star
[joshua]