it was the first time i was called satan...
do u know how it feels to be called satan by someone u think u can talk to?
it was because of this word.. it caused me to not slp and instead think..
am i such a bad friend?
am i screwing up people's life when im trying to help them?
zi zhao ma fan.. right!
so maybe i shouldnt try to help anyone le ba..
when i do that.. people can even tell me...
jian si bu jiu...
WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO! HUH!

i just pulled my thigh muscles.. BADLY.. and now i gotta see the doctor soon..
everyone in school thinks im acting.. and they want to hit it instead..
its like WTH!
and now i cant run.. and i have to pull out from my sports day events..
WHERES THE COMPETITION THEN!
i wanted to try to win the individual trophy this year.. but i think..
i can kiss that thought GOODBYE!

i sit in the classroom drawing numbers...
and if u try.. u can fuse numbers 381 into the number 8..
everything is coming back to me again...
i dont know whats happening...
everything is sooooooo MESSED UP!

*sev7ven*
[joshua]

Yes! last wednesday! i did my 100m personal best timing! wee! the improve was DAM big..
my timing in the past was 12.67
and now.. its 11.85! omg.. i cant believe it! oooh..
well gotta thank dylan for lending me his spikes.. my spike shoes were screwed..
gonna buy the same shoe as him.. heehee XD..

saw u on wednesday and i had nth to say but to just look at u...
haiz.. quan kai havent been coming to church again.. haiz.. well.. what can i do.. i cant FORCE him to come to church..
feel kinda bad to not reply jessie's messages and stuff but everytime she messages me im busy.. and she expects me to call her when i know that my bills are gonna burst...

went out with marcus, trisha, zi ya, samantha, amanda, cynthia and abigail... dam fun... ya right... ya right.. yes right.. though was bored at times.. lose to make the wolf sign and the stupid snake.. haha. STOMP THE YARD... bang bang bang.. stomping the ground haha... expected what was gonna happen at the front of the movie haha... dancing freaks... go catch the movie! haha...

*evAngel
[Joshua]

(to be continued...)

Images are just appearing in my head.. and i dont know why..
sy party.. image of someone injury his toes..
12/3 training..
images of the past reappeared..
especially you know who...
images of yk also appeared in my head..
what does all this images represent?
my mood for games have gone down the drain..
feel like im in a lost..
oh ya.. the most horrifying image is the image of the doctor injecting 4 needles into my shoulder just for mri.. and the pain was unbearable.. the effect of the numb thingy took very long to start.. and i had to slp in the mri machine for like 1 hour +++...
argh... its giving me a painful headache..

when can all my pains just fade away!....

Dancing bears
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

You hold me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart
Used to know
Once upon a December

*evAngel
[Joshua]

ok.. one thing to say.. IM OFFICALLY 15!...
1 more year and i do not need to suffer NC16!!
Hannabal Rising T.T.. i want to watch it!.. stupid NC16...
hmm.. on saturday.. i quarrelled with my parents and sister and i ran out of the house very early.. and i had no where to go.. YET.. so i ran to a deserted area and i sat there and cried my heart like.. the last time i cried like that was 6 months ago... wow... Yk, Keith, Jem and Jinqi were all busy.. so i went to cyberdome and played by myself.. i apologised to my parents but not my sister and guess what.. she called and apologised... and i was able to go and slp over at wei jang's house to watch Man U vs Liverpool.. yay.. after service.. we went to bishan and met Wei Jang and guess what.. BAD NEWS! we have a total of 9 ppl.. and jang's parents only allow 6? so.. we went over to Mark's house to slp over.. and his computer was.. OMG!!
the only thing i liked about his screen is that the game's effects are dam clear.. dont play audition with it -.-...
time went by.. and i went to bath.. when i got out zachary was like i need go toilet.. and he followed me back into the room.. and suddenly everyone was gone.. then.. bah!.. there all suddenly appear wishing me a happy birthday.. omg.. i was kinda surprised... wow... kinda touched too.. cause no one have given me a surprise.. wa..
next thing u know .. they tao pok me.. haha.. and as self defense.. i farted.. HAHA... they ran out of the room haha... after that. Jem was tao poked.. haha.. Ask Yk to show u the videos and pictures taken =)...
and we slpt at 4 while jang slpt at 6...
we woke up at 8+ and Jem and keith went to a near by soccer court to play soccer.. and guess what.. they kicked the ball and it got stucked.. lucky they manage to get it down..
we went to redhill and played soccer.. and i soccered like dam fun liddat.. and i even did rainbow.. weee! SUCCESS!!! and i had to rush off for tuition.. went to the centre and talked to a dude who is in the same school as me.. and we were dam slacked.. i sat there and read my newspaper while he wrote down the question and went to slp.. when the teacher comes to our desk.. i will say.. the questions are too easy.. dont need to do... so.. i have to always do one of them to prove to her..
while for the other guy.. he keep on saying that he duno how to do when he nvr even tried.. smart...
haha.. after that i went out with jinqi and brought her to eat prawn noodle haha.. nice.. and had the talked she wanted to give me... after that.. i went to meet yk sin yee and david and we watch dreamgirls.. haha.. dam retarded.. the whole song was about singing! but the songs were nice! the only person who did not appreciate it was.. David.. lol.. after that we went to ps and ate dinner.. the sad thing was that june wasnt able to make it as she was unwell.. =(... hope that she is alright now..
wee...
and today 5/3/07... we had our house cheer competition and the yellow dirty house won again -.-... but Fintan got 2nd! yay.. okok.. and i felt faint and dizzy.. but continued to stay in school... haiz... okok continue another time.. =) GOODBYE!

*evAngel
[Joshua]

Yes.. Its March.. Want To say happy birthday to many many people!~

Daniel Wu!
Jessica Teo!
Trisha Quek!
Edmund Yeoung!
Shermin!
Samantha Tay!
Elvin Tan!
Mummy!
Aaron Chua!
Nicole!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
*note* im sorry if i miss anyone's name..

Being emo Sucks! but i cant control myself!.. When will this END!..
It Have Been 7 months le.. OR Is it something else?!

Please Do Not Be A Soccer Freak.. Cause.. Its.. Freaky..

Cookies.. Anyone?

Great News.. I have nothing to do on Sunday.. -.-..
Why must my parents go to Malaysia and leave me at the tuition centre..
T.T... well.. i prefer to be in Singapore haha!..

Movie... Anyone?

*evAngel
[joshua]

~Hey~ Your Cramping My Style!~