Tomorrow will be Quan Kai's Birthday.. so ya happy birthday ^^...
will be having enrichment day tomorrow..=S.. have to do blanglah dance..
stupid teacher -.- dont let me go to hip-hop...
dont want to go tomorrow la! kao..
oh ya.. parents just bought new plasma tv.. wa.. i cant believe me eyes..
hmm.. when i think that im feeling happy... i realise.. im not..
why? i feel that something is missing...
and someone asked me a question.. and the question is... is it love?..
i couldnt answer that..

had training today.. man.. my muscles are all stiff so some reason or another..
i only could run a 14.7 seconds for a stupid 120m run -.-..
felt dam sad la.. but at least i had a friend who felt the same way as me..
i want to improve and at least get into finals for my hurdles!..
March is just around the corner.. and the relays are gonna start...
thinking of the relays.. it reminds me of the stupid mistake made by stupid reuben..
hated him to the core.. for dropping the bloody baton.. his heart was not at all in the race!.. i beleived that we were gonna get a medal last year.. for this year.. the seniors will most likely be running and we juniors will be the reserve.. if i get into the team.. i will give out my 100 +++ % effort to get the dam medal!
easier said then done heh? what are the chances?

oh ya... my physics teacher finally called my name today.. wow? before knowing my name.. he keeps on calling me PSL dog.. lol... well.. gotta admit that i AM really slacky at times.. hahax..!
he gives me that evil smile which tells me that for the next 2 years.. i will have to suffer alot because he knows my name!! argh! hope he does not kp calling my name.. haha..
why did i have to open my mouth by shouting PASS MOTION when he asked what motion the graph was...~~...

haiz.. redownload gunz.. and know what?... when i play with them.. even though im rusty.. i still can trash their ass... this shows.. that.. the players are nothing without their stupid hack.. well.. except for some...

find that everything is quiet and this is disturbing me.. i feel that my life is dam.. boring -.-.. cg tomorrow... hmm.. hope i still am in the mood... for a "wild" cg and after that... tuition at 5... CAN I MAKE IT ON TIME?? OMG!! now.. that is the question for the day...

*evAngel
[joshua]

hmm many thing happened.. =S
ok.. on valentine's day.. i didnt want to train..
i went for track meeting to discuss on the sec 1 camp...
omg.. its gonna start early man..
and when i looked out of the classroom, i saw the trackers..
wa.. inspired me to train.. seeing them all prepared to train made me when to work hard..
i thought some of them will slack.. but they didnt.. so i decided to spend my valentine's day with the track team =D..
after warm up.. i recieved a wonderful present.. and the present is that.. I CAN DO MY HURDLES AGAIN!
yes! my couch allowed me the train my hurdles again!...
did hurdles with edwin, bryan, jian xun and louis..
louis.. try to grow taller? u cant jump over the c div hurdles... jyjy..

hmm oh ya on thursday.. hmm.. i went for my family dinner..
i was shocked when i heard that we were gonna eat at suntec..
sushi buffet... yum yum...
ate like siao.. *dropped dead*...
spent i think 1 hours plus inside
something liddat... and after that we went to a sport shop..
my dad bought a new golf set.. weee... im suppose to use them..=S..
i dont think i will get used to the new clubs..

and yesterday... friday..
wa.. VERY SIAN!
we had a performance in school.. which was ok.. but the lion dance took so dam long... was getting dam pissed..
and after that we went to play lan..
and daniel really duno how to play sia!! keep disappearing and his items dam weird...
got me into alot of mess.. -.-..
i rushed off first and went to buona vista to meet my sis at 1...
when i arrived.. SHE TOLD ME TO GO HOME!... wth.. pissed me off..
why? cause im sure she overslept.. as always...
the worst part was that i called her long ago and she told me she WILL reach buona at 1.. kao..
so i went home.. i reach cck and wanted to go home to change.. and guess what.. she called me and told me to wait at lot 1 for her and queue up at the taxi stand!... WA LAO... i was still in uniform!!..
not only that.. i could see her from far taking her own sweet time to walk here..
give so many excueses -.-.. just that i dont want to pursue the matter le.. dam pissed..
when we arrived the NUH.. i went to see my specialist.. and he told me to go take a x-ray... so i did.. and it took dam long!...
they took so many x-ray!.. some have to keep redoing... -.-..
ok nvm.. good experience.. went down speacialist said that my bones are ok...
so he told me to go for a duno what magnetic image scan something liddat thingy..
and it caused $500!.. woah!... and there is a chance that i might be allergic to the chemical that they will be injecting into my shoulder... and if i do.. there is a slight chance i may XD...
of all things.. he have to tell me that -.-... nvm that image thingy will be after my birthday.. ^^..
but during school time... shyt...
hope nth goes wrong... after that we went for lunch and when we were on the way to my dad's car.. it rained.. haha.. there was a jam at the expressway.. so had to take an another route home..
played audi till late at night.. oh ya.. not to mention that i played dota before that... weee! 2 times beyond godlike! anti-mage!! 2 basher 1 buriza 1 butterfly 1 treads and 1 satanic.. lol..
i was too lazy to walk back to base to heal haha..
wanted to buy offering.. but i got too much money to spend lol..
hmm.. ok today will be going to my aunt's house for reunion dinner.. hope it wont be so sian like it was last year -.-..

*evAngel
[joshua]

the maths crisis is over! *or have it just began?*
hope the math teacher and the students will CO-OPERATE THIS TIME
acutally i feel that the maths teacher is kinda good..
if u really pay attention and catch up.. u can learn a thing or 2..
ok enough about that..
chemistry is getting harder and harder! lucky for me i can cope.. muahaha

i finally bought a new wallet! YES!!
okok.. not only that.. I FINALLY GOT MY EZLINK CARD! YES!
picture was dam funny but who cares.. at least it is better than the one before
haha.. lets see.. some guys and i took some red pen and draw lines on our wrist and act depress... haha!.. and i even played tic tac toe on my hand wahaha!
hmm.. oh ya people who sit at the back of the class are horny people.. lol..

hmm.. i feel that for the classroom to be a condusive learning we have to do something about the handphones.. if people are smsing during lesson time of course they will not understand what the teacher is saying! like duh...

when can i school evangelise! im not so confident about my own school! about why am i so confident with queensway sec? huh... duno la..

hope i can make it for caregroup this week.. and oh ya.. service too... -.-...

i can sing abit le!! yay! 3 cheers~!

[joshua]
*evAngel

hello.. =) those who have found my blog..
have been real down i guess.. worried that everything i do will fail..
i was upset that quan kai is not coming to service and not answering my calls and messages.. i had high hopes for him.. i believed that one day i will see a roll with queensway students..

well.. met up with yk last friday and went to play soccer at redhill..
after the whole game the fairsians, yk, zachary and i went home..
told zachary that i did not really feel like doing anything etc etc...
told him about quan kai.. hoping that he will reply and etc..
when zachary and i boarded the marina bay train.. he asked me a question that hit me hard..
why let one person control your faith.. your future?
when he backslides... why do u follow?
and suddenly God talked to me..
he told me to move on.. but still believe that qk will come back one day..
i should not only concentrate on 1 tree when there is a forest out there waiting to be saved..
i have decided to evangelise.. at queensway sec.. though i do not feel confident.. but i will still do it..
and i hope that if i do that.. qk will come back and do what i believe he can do..
pioneer queensway sec..

to some people it is all talk.. but i believe i can do this..
i have to get out of my comfort zone..
hope that jin qi and yk will be able to help me as well..
as.. im still not sure to how to evangelise.. =x..

well.. hmm.. there is a mix of feelings in me..
and it feels weird..

a question popped out in my head...
where are my friends?
i realise.. i've been there for most of my friends when they are down...(if i happen to find out)
..have i? or am i living in my own world?
am i irritating?..or am i trying too hard to help people that they dont see what i am really trying to do?
when im down.. where are my friends?
well there are only 6 people i know who will be there..
1. my parents (2)
2. my sister (1)
3. marcus (1)
4. denise (1)
5. Yun Kai (1)
6. Jin Qi (1)
7. God (1)

why cant i have a conversation with people for even 5 mins?
i dont really see the reason to why i should be using msn..
no one talks to me.. only yk..
what do i do when im online? looking at people's nick..
figuring out why are they feeling down.. talk to them and ask them..
help them but talking to them..
and after that.. they will start to talk to me.. but..
soon after that... *poof* we wont be talking again..

i guess im just some kinda of a temporary friend who goes around helping others..

note* im just letting out how i feel... no offends...

keith.. how do u manage to keep talking to others?
people like.. !!*..

sometime i ask myself.. am i jealous of keith.. and the respond is.. yes..
is it because of his regular conversation with !!*? or is it because many people around me are asking me about keith?

i dont know..

things have been real rough for me.. i dont know.. like i said mixed feelings...
haiz.. i even lost my wallet.. wow.. how great -.-...
lucky for me i didnt take my atm from my mum -.-...
if not i will be in deep shyt..
hope that everything will be fine soon..

*joshua*
*evAngel