though i know that my love for you is still deep in my heart but...
I HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT!

im happy that i was able to help my "wife" to get out of his so called "misery"?
but.. who can help to solve mine?

i've sworn to my leader that i will never get myself into anymore bgr!
this few days, i realise some leaders are getting concern about such matters..
i've also realise that my shepherd looks troubled.. what is it that is troubling him?

today, i went to my "wife" .. for?.. house warming! yay!...
who went... hmm.. denise.. cynthia.. abigail.. samantha.. ziya.. johan..trisha.. haha..
and trisha looks more girl-like!.. yahoo! good for her!
first time i met denise -.-... and i realise she wears guys clothing.. but she is not crook.. ok.. lol..
lets see.. cynthia hit my ****... ouch.. abigail grabbed it by accident.. still ouch.. samantha.. hit near it.. still.. ouch.. >.<...
i feel so vulnerable all of a sudden... a sudden sense of insecurity... argh.. and i feel uncomfortable with cynthia.. seriously -.-...

oh ya.. ytd at central ab (informal) FIRST EVER caregroup! we went cycling.. and i fell..
how? i ran next to the bic.. and i fell.. with the bic lending on me.. argh... bad blood...
and ive made new friends from central a! yay!..
lets see if i can remember the nick names i've given them..
ju hua, vampire, angelyn, sunshine, central a, clarie, curly, sherlyna, desert and if im not wrong thats about it...
and ive made a good friend! its clarie! yay..!..

*please tell me if im acting like L*..

ive completed all my work except... english.. the killer.. XD...
actually.. i dont really know how i feel.. i feel like i need my shepherd..

to go away from temptation and stop playing with fire...
i know my weakness... do you?...

*evAngel
[joshua]