THE BELIEVER

Joshua Lee Jiao Hui
15 years old
4th March 1992
Student
SJI
Christian
lee_jiao_hui_jos@hotmail.com
Hope Church Singapore

Likes
Movies
H2o
-BlAcKoRdEr-
Jesus
God
Music
Playing computer
A girl
Sleeping
Running
Watching Animes

Hates
PunkASS friends
Backstabbers
ANYTHING THAT MAKES U LAO

THE MESSAGE BOARD



Music

| keith ;
| jieying ;
| michelle ;
| zachary ;
| samanthaaaa ;
| Neek Leong ;
| sinyee ;
| Jessie ;
| Cleo ;
| Sherryn ;
| EeLynn ;
| Matthew ;
| Wife ;
| Collette ;
| Abigail Tay ;
| Mila(central A) ;
| Sandy(desert) ;
| Nicole ntss ;
| Ren Ting ;
| Amelia ;
| Debbie-audi ;
| Hui er-audi ;
| Jeslyn-audi ;
| Ying Ying ;
| Louisa ;
| Jin qi ;
| centralBONE ;
| CENTRAL ;
| clara ;
| lynnette ;
| teresa ;
| chloe ;
| sherman ;
| Caryn ;
| xiaoqin audi ;
| dawn ;
| kerii-audi ;
| ching hui-audi ;
| Sly ;


THE PAST

August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007

CREDITS

Creative Commons License
This work by Jeremy Teng (hysterically-weird) is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 License.

Design & Layout: hysterically-weird
Used Processes in Creation: Adobe Photoshop, IE7, Notepad, MS Photo Editor, Windows Explorer
Used External Resources: 1, 2, 3
Saturday, November 18, 2006
My Last Post Before China Trip...


(Let's go!)
(Yeah! Alright!)

Walking through the terminal
I saw something beautiful
You left, for your duty call
Next I'm getting on the plane
That's when I see you again
I can't get you off my brain

(Let's go)
That uniform you're wearing
So hot I can't stop staring
You're putting on an awesome show
The cabin pressure's rising
My coke has got no ice in now

[Chorus:]
Air hostess
I like the way you dress
Though I hate to fly
But I feel much better
Occupied my mind
Writing you a love letter
I messed my pants
When we flew over France
Will I see you soon
In my hotel room
For a holiday romance?
Air hostess

Throwing peanuts down the aisle
Stupid but it made you smile
You came over for a while
Then you whispered in my ear
The words that I longed to hear
"I want you to thrill me here"

You can't because you're working
The paparazzi's lurking
You didn't know I'm in a band
In England people know me
One photo's worth a hundred grand

[Chorus:]

Air hostess
I like the way you dress
Though I hate to fly
But I feel much better
Occupied my mind
Writing you a love letter
I messed my pants
When we flew over France
Will I see you soonIn my hotel room
For a holiday romance?
Air hostess

Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na
Na, na na-na

That uniform you're wearing
So hot I can't stop staring
You're putting on an awesome show
The plane has almost landed
So tell me where I'm standing now

[Chorus:]
Air hostess
I like the way you dress
Though I hate to fly
But I feel much better
Occupied my mind
Writing you a love letter
I messed my pants
When we flew over France
Will I see you soon
In my hotel room
For a holiday romance?
Air hostess

Cos' you're my air hostess
I love the way you dress
Air hostess
My air hostess
I love the way you dress
Air hostess

Chorus:
Oh baby I'm missing you
We used to love so strong
Tell me where did we go wrong
Oh baby I'm missing you
They say I'll learn to forget
But it sure ain't happened yet

Been checkin' out the places
Where we used to go (used to go)
And looking for your face inside the crowd
I've been talkin' to the people that we used to know
But nobody wants to say where you hang out
And when I call your phone
Seems like you're never ever home
And you don't return my calls (return my calls)
It tears me apart, it's breakin' up my heart

(Repeat chorus)

I still have your pictures hung around my room
It's the only thing that's left of you and me
Girl what can I do to let you come back soon
And make it just the way it used to be
Or is there someone new
I can never go on without you
Girl I don't wanna think about it (think about it)
I can't sleep at night (I can't sleep at night)
Oh this can't be right (This can't be right)
Come back into my life (come back, baby, come back)

(Repeat chorus)

I know there's a chance for you and I
And I believe there's no way our love could die
So no matter how long it takes I'll wait for you
And whatever it takes I'll be there for you
I'll be there... I'll be there

(Repeat chorus 2x)

What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

[Chorus ]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible (Wait..I already am)

I saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

[Chorus ]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man If I was invisible (Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm screaming
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

[ Repeat Chorus ]

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

(Repeat chorus)

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

(Repeat chorus)

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are


hardyz43 was blessed at 10:05 PM


8 Days In ShangHai..


argh.. im going shanghai tomorrow T.T...
i dun wanna leave!... i hope that the ppl in the tour aren't old ppl -.-...
have been thinking alot recently... ya... haiz.. okok.. want to know? ask me and i'll tell u

Today was sooo much FUN! but... very tiring...
WHY?? cause we helped out at st anthony's primary!..
our primary school =)... and tended the prize redemtion stall...
sooo many parents... sooo many little children!...
and just within 1hour... half of the gundam toys vanish 0.O...
oh ya.. abigail and samantha tay came as well =)...
ya... so.. since marcus, trish and i weren't doing morning shift...
we went to cdans to play laser quest!(SAMANTHA IS QUEST NOT CREST~!)
but it was booked from 11-6... why? there will be 2 "party" held there...
so marcus trish loy samantha abigail isabelle and i went for bowling!... BUT samantha and abigail bailed..
they sat on the chair (well... abigail sat on the chair while samantha sat on the floor) and watched -.-..
abigail kept on taking my phone -.- sending songs... T.T... stupid motorolla phone... take so long to send things...
bought hot chocolate... haha.. and played... and trish and i tie =)... i anyhow play also can 113.. pro la...
after that... we went back to school to tend the stall...

AND WHILE I WAS TENDING TO A PARENT EUGENE SPRAYED MY HAIR AND....

MY HAIR!! EUGENE CHU!!! THANKS LA!!! blue green yellow.... omg...

after 9 hours of tending the stall!... we went out yay! before that! GROUP PHOTO!... not really..


wo tou tou take de >.<

after that... we went to westmall ate at sakesushi... (think i spell wrong)

ANYWAY!! we went there and lynn nexx trish loy and marcus were laughing like siao cause of my jokes..


(Left: trish, lynn & nexx)

and i took the wasabi and it looked like shit...


... looks like some green muffin... agree? haha..


and cause of my yellowish green hair... i became the hulk...

u wouldnt like me when im angry... haha...

we bought ice cream.. hanged around at the mrt and went back home...

hope that my pri school friend will organise a chalet =)...

and joanne! i finally got ur hotmail right!... haha.. okok.. and thx for the verse =)..

man.. i feel sooo exhausted.. but still.. im gonna play.. for awhile though.. haha..

and Happy Birthday To Jessie In Advance... Since Im Going To ShangHai..

21st november 2006... yes... Jessie Turns 13... haha...

Joshua

[exhausted]



hardyz43 was blessed at 7:13 AM


Wednesday, November 15, 2006
prank calls.. late night calls.. screwed up..


have been having family issues la..
there are somethings that i just cant say ba...
and i was surprised when my dad know i was having a relationship long ago...
he even know when i broke up...
i realised why... he have been reading all my letters!..
crap.. but what surprised me most was that he was cool with it..
am i dreaming?...
talked to my dad last time.. this is the first time i open up to him..
telling him my problems.. ever since i've join hope church..
for some reason or another... i feel at ease... a little..
trying to build up my confidence.. & everything again..
funny thing is.. samantha smsed me about me and if i've forgotten about my ex..
ON THE DAY I WAS SAYING EVERYTHING OUT...
woah.. and oh ya.. and samantha said she visits my blog often... woah..
and i thought no one comes to my blog -.-.. sian..
well.. samantha... about when is zachary's birthday... i will try to find out ^^...

oh ya... there's floorball tomorrow yay!... but some idiot booked at night T.T...
so yk booked on the afternoon 1-3... after floorball.. i have to rush off to saps..
for some meeting something liddat... argh...
anyways... ya.. my sister is like stressed out with her work.. so... i better keep quiet and let her study...
since her exams are coming... poor thing.. >.<...
ya.. i kinda had a shocked last night la.. ya... did some prank calls.. saying im from kfc...
ya.. and talked to someone at night... and apparently something unexpected happened..
and now i feel rather confused... and not sure what to do...
have not been going out now adays.. did not go for cg ytd.. sad..

and my dad is requesting that i change church..
ya.. even my sister does not encourage me to go for church activities..
going of to shang hai this sunday... the only impression i have about this trip is...
old people.. boring... horny jokes...(by the elders)... business talks.. long trips.. headache.. etc etc..
ARGH!! oh ya.. today i did a big game.. and it was x8 den if i dont have any cool and bad for audition...
and last but not least 15 perf and above.. I DID IT!!! YAY... 1k++ $$ muahaha
BUT there was another big game.. no cool no bad.. 20 perf.. and i had 19 PERFECTS NO!!! ONE MORE ONLY!!
sad sad.. miscalculated... -.-...
oh ya.. i have a nice blog skin right?
i find the image <<>

joshua
[take the lead]


hardyz43 was blessed at 9:06 PM


Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Are You Thinking Of Me? Cause Im Thinking Of You


Baby set me free from this misery
I can't take it no more
Since you ran away, nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am, so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Chorus:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you, want you, need you so
Until you're back here baby, yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

So I told you lies, even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you, now my love is true
This is where my heart belongs
Cuz here I am, so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
(repeat chorus)

Bridge:
And I wonder
Are you thinkin of me
Cuz I'm thinkin of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life
Cuz here I am, so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Chorus to fade out

[Verse 1:]
Come with me, stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin' don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game (You know it's just too little too late)
So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone

[Hook:]
And you know
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Verse 2:]
I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help

[Hook:]
Cause ya know it's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Bridge:]
I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live, yeah oh

[Breakdown:]
It's just too little too lateYeeeeeeah!!!

[Hook Til Fade:]
It's just too little, too late
Yeah it's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Joshua]
Hurt..


hardyz43 was blessed at 5:26 AM


Monday, November 13, 2006
Chains Of Unfortunate Events..


Is Life Suppose To Be So Hard?
I Broke Up From A Relationship Before An Exam..
Studying Seemed To Be A Problem To Me..
Memories flashes in my head...
i cant do anything but cry..

my exams are here..
everyone is all excited..
discussing about their subjects..
i still feel the pain and sorrow..
the results came out..
i did badly.. everyone is happy no matter what..
i felt miserable.. but i could still see some hope..

days before the posting..
i manage to keep my results away from my head..
my parents limited my money usage..
everyone seemed to be far away from me..
though i seem happy but i aint..
i cried out my sorrow.. when i thought everything was going to be fine..
well.. they turn out worst..

i was posted to the last class.. knowing that i only can take elective geog..
and no full humans... i felt ashamed..
everyone i knew from church everywhere were doing much better than me..
psl camp was the only thing that made me happy..
buy whenever someone asked me about my posting..
i felt the pain in my heart again..
the fun we had were only temporary..

after my ace camp.. i realised that my grandpa was hospitalised...
now my dad tells me that the doctor says that there is 90% chance that he have cancer..
i went for his birthday celebration.. and we had fun..
but i could not bare to see my grandpa suffer..
he wasnt willing to stay in the hospital at all..
the day before his birthday..
he repeatedly called for the doctor... requesting that he was to be released immediately...
the doctor did not have any choice but the allow him to be released...

the last night of psltc..
i was talking to deon...
deon told me about his relationship...
i shared him mine as well.. i tried to make it sound funny..
but i couldnt.. i wanted to burst into tears...
but i cant!... not infront of him..
i did not want anyone to know how i really feel..

when i come back from psltc... my parents...
instead of being supportive.. and instead of encouraging me..
they keep scolding me..
saying that other ppl do better than me..
saying that now im still in the last class.. im happy about it...
they will not only repeat it once... nor twice... but serveral times..
all my friends have advanced... and im still left behind..
everytime i see their happy faces.. i pei fu them..
keith... he have been doing well.. everyone seem to like talking to him...
jemeriah...he makes everyone happy with his jokes... no one will be miserable with him...
i on the other hand... cant do a shyt... lame lame lame me... i cant really do much...

i feel that life is not really that meaningful anymore..
i feel left out... the only thing that can make me happy... are my games...
and other stuff... sometimes i feel lke opening up... but i cant..
my heart have solidified and is now cold..
all i can feel now is pain... sorrow.. misery...
ppl will say that i cry all the time..
ppl see that i always play and am not bothered about my studies...
even my parents...
i play games to try to bring myself out of reality...
my heart is bleeding... does anyone know that?...
anyone knows how i feel?...
i dont have the guts to talk to my friends now...

now all i can do.. is hope and pray..
that i will be able to be successful in my appeal...
the chances are not high.. i know that..
my hopes are low... my heart is dry...
i go around telling ppl not to think of death..
but i keep telling myself that i want to die..

i have a ridiculous obsession of love..
i know that being back together with the person i love is not going to happen
its like the smart and the dum..
beauty and the beast..
images of me being run down by a car is often..
yk tells me that when god is by my side... who will oppose me?...
well.. i doubt those words often...
my life is getting from bad to worst...
a steep slope... down to hell...
stepped on... crushed... smashed.. and left aside...

now.. without even the slightest will power and courage...
im going for my appeal interview...
tomorrow...

Is There Anyone Out There Who Can Help Me Get Back My Heart...
Willpower... Strength..

Ive Given You My Heart.. But U Preferred Someone Else's...

听回忆呼吸
长达一世纪
脑海中都是你
冷瘦瘦城市里
像无声的电影
让孤单教我演戏
幻想我可以把时间倒回去
那时候 我们才相遇
也许我没搭上爱情的时光器
可是我永远不会忘记

爱你第一个原因 就是你的安静
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云 飞出了我的记忆
我爱你别忘记

我思念着段过去 没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我 了不了解 永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后 我心中有你

听回忆呼吸
长达一世纪脑海中都是你
冷瘦瘦城市里
像无声的电影
让孤单教我演戏
幻想我可以把时间倒回去
那时候 我们才相遇
也许我没搭上爱情的时光器
可是我永远不会忘记

爱你第一个原因 就是你的安静
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云 飞出了我的记忆
我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去 没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我 了不了解 永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后 我心中有你~ Woohoo

爱你第一个原因 就是你的安静
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云 飞出了我的记忆
我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去 没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我 了不了解 永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后 我心中有你 Woohoo

永不忘记

just cant get u out of my head...


hardyz43 was blessed at 7:49 AM


Thursday, November 09, 2006
the highlight is... THE JEM


We were On The Escalator.. And Yk Just Shouted ARgh!.. "what happen??" THE ESCALATOR ATE MY SLIPPER!
Thank God That Wasnt His Toes..
Mirror Mirror Hanging On The Wall... Eh? Sry... Wrong Song..
Look Into My Eyes! See The Pimples??
Wass up!... lol... Jem The Man... Count The No. Of Pimples... haha
Stick Out Your Tongue Jem!!!
Lol... Jem And His Flakes?... ITS SNOWING!~

Look At His... FOLDING TONGUE??? Oh And Dont Forget His Eyes... Lol..

Jem And His CC Biscuit... Look Into His Creppy Eyes!!!


hardyz43 was blessed at 5:41 AM


Monday, November 06, 2006
Long Time No Blog? crap...


i decided not to blog...
1st reason: lazy
2nd reason: too many things to blog about (ask me about whats happening)
3rd reason: im not in the mood to blog

oh ya... since i nv blog about birthdays... well...
happy belated birthday to keith and jin qi... ya..
though i've said it to u.. but stilll .. happy birthday..
(jinqi dont lose the balloon again)
MOVIE SPREE! CAMPS! ARGH!! & MORE

ROXANNE...You don't have to put on that red light
Walk the streets for money
You don't care if it's wrong of if it is right
ROXANNE...You don't have to wear that dress tonight
ROXANNE...You don't have to sell your body to the night

His eyes upon your face
His hand upon your hand
His lips caress your skin
IT'S MORE THAN I CAN STAND!

Why does my heart cry?
Feelings I cant fight!
Your free to leave me but
Just don't deceive me!
And please believe me when I say
I LOVE YOU!!!

Spanish: Yo que te quiero tanto, que voy a hacer? ( And I who love you so much; what am I going to do? )
Me dejaste...me dejaste como una paloma ( You left me...you left me like a dove )
El alma se me fue; se me fue el corazon ( My soul has left me; my heart has left me )
Ya no tengo ganas de vivir porque no te puedo convencer ( I no longer wish to live because I cannot convince you )
Que no te vendas, Roxanne ( Not to sell yourself, Roxanne. )

Why does my heart cry?
ROXANNE!...You don't have to put on that red light (background)
Feelings I can't hide!
ROXANNE!...You don't have to wear that dress tonight(background)
Why does my heart cry?
ROXANNE!...You don't have to put on that red light(background)
Feelings I can't fight!
ROXANNE!...You don't have to wear that dress tonight(background)
ROXANNE!
ROXANNE!

You're one in a million
Oh
Now
You're one in a million
Oh

Sometimes love can hit you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
But only one can really make me stay
A sign from the skySaid to me

[Chorus]
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
A smile, there you were and I was gone
I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me
Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

[Chorus x 2]

In the beginning I was cool and everything was possible
They tried to catch me but it was impossible
No one could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and you were the same
And when you didn't want me I wanted you because
The funny thing about it is I liked the show
I like it when its difficult
I like it when its hard
Then you know its worth it
That you found your heart

[Chorus x 2]

You're one in a million
Oh
You're one in a million

It isnt a crime to want
A little space to breathe
But you will be fine
The sun again will shine on you
Whatever you do

[Chorus]
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here when you change your mind
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here for you baby
AnytimeIm feeling you pull away
'cause letting go isnt easy for me
But you'll never fly
With someone elses wings, I know
Wherever you go

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never stand in your way
Wherever your heart may lead you
I will love you the same
And I will be your comfort every day
Do you hear the words I say?

[Repeat Chorus]



hardyz43 was blessed at 7:48 PM