after i thinking for a long time... i realise that u need more... the sense the emptyness appeared in my heart again... i did not have any feelings to anything and just stared into space..could it that we werent suppose to be together... fairness?? what is it... chose me just to be fair? i duno what to say.. your love for is way stronger... and i have to help u... but i can/t..

tutor canceled tuition and change it to tomorrow... as i sit infront of the computer.. i did not know wad to do... im lost... empty in the inside... the only thing i can think of is to study alone...the only word which keeps appearing in my head in fairness... feel diff... we do not talk like that..you often talk about and i dun really mind... but i did not know that ur love for is still standing strong... getting on with the relationship is almost impossible to me... just by leaving the house for being angry.. u worried sick... i asked.. and u told me "lets take it as i am tired"... i do not know how to help at all... u also said "dont need to feel hopeless"... and how am i suppose to do that when the person i like is disappointed and worrying while i just sit on my bed doing NOTHING... why does my heart cry.. feelings that i cant fight... your free to leave me but just dun deceive me..and pls believe me when i say i love you...