Argh! $$$ =(
being stressed out about money~.. its like my dad doesn't want to give me any money!
he feels that i've been spending too much time on church~..
and yea.. of course.. feels like im spending like money grows from trees..
now~ im worrying over christmas cards! oh man~
Lord give me to the ability to cope and complete the christmas cards!
the worst part is that i haven't buy the cards -.-.. screwed..
ok~ busy week.. dont let it be an excuse.. help me!
if only some money will just land from the sky and drop onto my hands =)
all my troubles will fade away!~

Joshua

Clc2 Class today taught me LOTS! and also made me realise that our group havent been doing a proper cg.. we got to plan things right and make it flow right..
not only did i make new friends, i also realise the importance of each role.. HOW?
through the lesson.. call it a lesson if u want.. but its kinda like a practical thingy..
Every Role leads up to one another.. and yes.. we got to be smooth sailing..
which route will u take when u sail? a route with huge bumpy waves? or a route which has a smooth flow..
oh ya.. recently heard that my grand-sheep is having some kind of surgury? and yea.. dont really know the details.. but only small bits of it.. regardless what.. i think we got to care for one another in our group.. so.. why dont we pray for our dear clement? not only that, we got to make sure that there must be at least one VISITOR every 2 week?
Heh..~ alright Cg tomorrow Lets PREPARE! and make sure we do our role WELL!
HAiz... My PSP LCD SCREEN CRACKED! HOW? u ask?? (ok i know u dont wannna know but still i wanna type =p)
MY PSP FOR NO REASON DROP ONTO MY CHAIR THEN SLOWLY SLIDE DOWN AND SOFTLY HIT THE FLOOR! and still the screen crack like siao... diaoz...
Ok.. hopefully my dad doesnt make a big deal out of it and yea let me fix it =X..
Haiz~ making floorball sticks tomorrow too~ OMG! so many things! so little time..
Alright better go slp le.. tmr got tuition in the morning!

(STOP RAINING)

joshua
(Eggyok)

Im not sure what happened.. but ever since after clc2.. i seem like a changed person.. well to u guys im not sure whether u see any change in me.. but personally. i feel as though the layer of coldness shed off..
Is it a temporary thing? i hope not~.. i seem as though a happier and chirper person.. helping out in everything i can... for no reason.. i even bought mc nuggets for my tuition friends ytd o.o...
come to think of it.. this was smth i prayed for o.o... is it God's promises coming true?? Is this a signal to me that he is true and forever with me?
Like the Song (All Your Promises Won't Let Go Of Me!)
i feel encouraged and strengthened.. oh man.. i feel like sharing this joy to someone.. but who??
My mum asked me smth a few days back.. and i was kinda shocked.. she asked me to bring her friend's daughter to church O.o~... here's the problem.. she is in a weird which i dont even know existed.. i dont know who is she... dont know which group does that school belong to... etc etc.. i dont even know the spelling of her school!
Well.. try to bring her ba!
And Oh yes~ gotta honour my word and find a ministry.. however.. i dont know what ministry to take =/... i love to sing.. but CAN i sing? i love meet new faces and be an usher.. but can i?? Hmm... i still LOVE singing =/..
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO JOIN!~

Joshua
Over And Out

Oh yes! what an achievement~ i made it up mount Kinabalu.
That was a HECK OF AN EXPERIENCE!
Altitude Mountain Sickness (AMS) SUCKs~
i didnt feel anything while climbing up.. but when i was on my way down.. OmG!
Massive Headache!..
still.. not everyone have such an oppurtunity.. right? hahaha..
well.. throughout the whole Obs(sabah) camp, i found the culture exchange activity the most intresting one.. heehee.. the kids there were SO adorable.. if only they were my neighbours.. haha.. was having sooo much fun with them..
everything was simple.. at first i thought the kampong will be like shyt! but guess i was wrong!.. Yippee!..
Found out they had cable! TV! and yea.. another thought came into my head.. got how many channel ar? all malay ar? AND I WAS SHOCKED WHEN I HEARD THEY HAD MTV! WOAH!
okok.. haha.. hmm.. before the kampong stayover.. was the land exhibition.. which was to stay in the jungle.. and that totally sucked.. TOTALLY!
the only intresting about that exhibition was a lich which apparently was having ALOT of fun sucking my blood.. ( what a sucker )

aiya.. type more the next time i blog ba.. kinda late.. and kinda tired XD.. Cya!

-Joshua-

wow.. mixed feeling of excitement and pain gushed through me today!
why?? cause im leaving to OBS sabah for 10 days.. and i wont get to see my lovable sheeps and my shepherd.. wont get to see my friends.. wont get to play floorball.. sian.. leave my comfort zone and face the wild.. ar...
Nvm! i get to know more of my schoolmates =).. AWAY FROM TECHNOLOGY!
played floorball today.. and yes! it was fun..~ i felt great.. cause i havent been having soooo much fun (for floorball) since.. since.. the start of the year?
sad to say.. that neither my sheeps nor my shepherd will be slping over my place tonight.. but what the heck? at least i have a laptop to accompany me?
i should be greatful already.. HAHA!
So! If u happen to think of me and wonder where i am.. from 15th to 25th of november.. Im at Sabah~ if u want to see me! look at the moon cause i know i'll be looking at it ;D.
If i could.. i would like to hold u one more time.. i would lay my fingers on ur buttons.. so that i can access the internet XD! MY COMPUTER! WHY MUST U SPOIL!
oooh.. what the heck.. shit the computer.. and high five to the laptop!

seeing u today made my day =)
-Joshua-
MIA 15th ~ 25th of november!

Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losin' it all
Where do I go from here?
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
Nothing is clear
Where do I go from here?

Yipee.. the holidays are coming! while (almost) everyone is having fun.. im still in school.. STUDYING~ wow.. exciting!
Zzz.. now my parents are in china.. and im stuck with my sister for a week..
haiz.. good news is that today she is in malaysia! thus im home alone!
hahaha.. bad news is that im bored..and no one is free to accompany me.. haiz..
luckly i found a laptop and realise that it have a wireless interent connection!
so now im slacking in my parents room with everything.. including internet! how fun.

my past 2 weeks have been great.. i've stopped using vulgarities often.. and ya.. by saying those words, i will hesitate awhile.. and fill in other words.. haha..
i thought that being alone at home will make me feel great.. but i guess thats not the case.. it feels like im the only one on the earth and there is no one who is able to help me if im in any trouble.. luckily my aunts are always calling me, asking on how im doing.. ( even though i might feel that it is very disturbing at times)..

have been hearing many odd things.. about ppl attempting suicide and of course.. some dies.. however, some suffers on physically and mentally.. i guess its due to pressure on their exam results.. some were retained.. some were expelled.. yes.. this is a weird topic to blog about.. but i guess its this kind of ppl who needs out help? God send us to Earth not to enjoy and slack.. we have a mission and its to bring people into the kingdom of God.. in order to bring people into the kingdom of God, we got to be with those people and be concerned with their life.. this means that we got to be there for our friends.. support them in any kind of way.. if we are able to do that, i dont think anyone will commit suicide cause they knows that someone is there with them throughout whenever they are facing any trouble.. the end might be ahead.. but with every corner there is hope.. every problem have its solution.. life is still important.. to all, suicide is not the only solution to everything.. u will only cause more misery if u commit suicide.. unless u want everyone to suffer with u.. i have nothing to say..

-Joshua-
Every Step of The Way ( he'll be there for us)